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Chapter 1719 NO.335: Potential Indication (Happy New Year!!

Let’s look back.

Think about why you came to him.

Because I wanted to thank him for helping me, and he clearly remembered me, so I was very happy.

Why do you continue to pester him?

Because I need help, I am still as delicate as a little princess. When faced with various problems that I cannot handle, I still think about asking others for help.

And the continuous and effective help gradually developed into a dependence.

So he's going to leave, isn't he?

Without you, you will only rely on him, seek help from him, and always share your experiences on your own, as if he likes to listen.

Do you remember his education?

How to disguise yourself, how to magnify your own charm, then think about him/her, how good he/she is at this, making you think that he/she really likes the clumsiness and stupidity you show?

He left you, and what did you do when you found him again?
Show him what you've learned, cling to him when he still wants to stay away from you, and think hard enough to come up with the idea of ​​becoming his sister, in order to earn the right to be by his side.

Just like that, you got his praise, and you felt smug about it, like it was really a brilliant idea, and then you watched as the space around him became less and less.

When the competition started, there was no qualification to participate, and even if one wanted to be eligible, there was no name or support to participate in the auditions.

——This is another benefit that your idea brought you.

Only when the game is stagnant, your idea will make you a trick to break the ice, so they will welcome you into the battle line. At that time, your operation will be praised by your teammates, but you know clearly that there are no teammates here.

You also know that they have never taken you seriously, let alone as an equal opponent.

Even if you are allowed to participate as an exception, you are still an ineligible contestant.

As long as you are still just a junior high school student, everyone will just treat you as a reckless child who is blinded by dopamine and mistakes affection for love, and let you continue to wait.

Waiting for those people to fill the positions around the trainer, leaving not even an inch of space.

So as early as several months ago, Zhen Jiling had already realized that the close position that he was so proud of was actually the biggest obstacle in his attempts to go further.

It's not just about the contempt of others, but also that even if that person realizes this, he or she will still use the position you have chosen to perfunctorily avoid you.

If you cannot prove yourself, you will not be able to gain his attention and commitment.

But you really can't prove yourself unless you take some extreme measures, which should be the level of burning your boats and risking everything.

——That’s too extreme.

Not only is it extreme, but it's also hard to see the possibility of success.

If I were really a junior of the Linton family, maybe I wouldn't have to be so sad, right? At least I could get everyone's respect. Regardless of whether they regarded me as an enemy on the same track as them, they should at least be willing to face me, right?

This is just a hypothesis. Zhen Ji Ling cannot be a junior of the Linton family.

But even if I regret it, even if I want to go back to the beginning, can I change anything?

You know that the core of the problem is age and nothing else.

And you can't change this situation.

You could have still hoped for the future, but now your expectations for the future have been completely extinguished.

Even though she briefly maintained an air of confidence in the other party's words that linked back to ten years ago, she could not escape the uneasiness and doubt that still lingered in her heart.

Nor has he ever truly broken free from the accumulation of the old and the new, the painful sludge that has never dissipated even when he was rejoicing.

Thus, facing the question asked by the child ten years ago, there was only one question she wanted to ask in her heart.

Then a question that no one had ever dared to ask in the past.

She said, 'What should I call you?

I am not afraid of getting doubts, I am only afraid of getting a definite and unfamiliar definition.

She has been giving all the time for the gains of the past, for the gains that changed her life, and for the peace of mind and joy she got unilaterally from the other party.

Even if you can't find opportunities, you still want to create them. Even if there are not many channels, you are still looking for them.

Sometimes I feel like that is no longer myself, but then I think that the way I define myself is also influenced by Umastar's teachings, and then I throw myself into that kind of dedication again.

She tried hard not to let herself think about the worst possibility, and the more time went by, the more she tried not to think about it, but she had to face reality in the end.

All your efforts are in vain, and he doesn't need your efforts at all. Is this the end of this long journey of self-comfort?
——She finally needed an answer.

But that person.

The man who had turned into a small child and was looking at him gave the most cunning response. "What do you want to call me?"

rhetorical question.

Asking a rhetorical question has always been an overly cunning way of responding, pushing the question to the other party. Regaining the initiative in this cheating-like evasive behavior was also the key point of dialogue that Zhen Ji Ling focused on during his past "cultivation".

In the past, she could come up with several different ways of turning around to start a conversation with a counter-question, and she could even directly avoid the question itself to start the conversation while waiting for an opportunity to pull the question back to the starting point of the conversation.

But now, she just stood there in silence.

This rhetorical question seemed to have a great attraction, making her eager to answer.

But she was afraid that the answer would not be recognized by the other party. This question was like an ultimatum given to her by the other party. Not only was she asking for the answer, but she would be abandoned if the answer did not meet her expectations... She still remembered the time when she saw that account turned gray and no matter how many messages she sent, there was no response.

Such times often wet her pillow in her dreams, then were dried by her cold-faced but warm-hearted roommate, and disturbed by the anticipation of seeing them again. But after those lines of extreme happiness, such pain would follow her like a shadow, and would reappear inadvertently, deeper and sharper, breaking through all the barriers she had built in her heart.

She had done everything in her power to avoid such sharp memories, and now she felt that she was standing on the edge of those memories.

It also made her response, which should have come out immediately, stuck in her throat and she almost lost her voice.

"Don't put too much pressure on yourself. All I want is an answer." At this time, the child who was looking at her spoke, his tone was still so calm, so calm that it was a little indifferent, "I can also guarantee that the answer you give will not affect anything at the moment."

"…Is your guarantee…valid?"

"Completely. At this moment, I am still Omer Linton. At the same time, whether it is me or the Omer Linton you are familiar with, we both hope that your answer comes from your heart."

"…my heart…"

The gray-haired horse girl's eyes were full of confusion, because she couldn't come to a conclusion immediately after thinking about these words.

The extremely sluggish state of thinking before seemed to catch up with her again, filling her heart with gloomy thoughts.

But the child was extremely patient, and his always cold gaze now reflected a sense of security.

"Yes, your heart," he said.

“If you have no idea, think about your earliest self.”

"So early that you didn't know me. So early that you started to remember things."

"At that time, you had a goal, didn't you?"

"The winner of the kindergarten's cutest girl contest."

"What kind of person did you want to be before you met Umastar for the second time?"

"Of course..." Her tone paused, and then her eyes came into focus, "The cutest girl!"

“It hasn’t changed at all!”

Even when she met Umastar again, all her questions to him revolved around how to put this into practice.

"So……"

Without any intention of asking questions about minor details, the boy raised his hand as if accepting the other party's sudden excited response.

As if by coincidence, a salty sea breeze suddenly arrived, sweeping away countless scattered petals.

"Let's get back to the topic we were talking about before. What do you want to call me?"

"elder brother."

The gray-haired girl who answered crisply among the scattered petals fluttered her ears, looked at the indifferent child, and saw a taller outline in him.

"Karen-chan still wants to be that girl who can act cute to her brother."

"Won't you regret it?"

"When my brother no longer allows me to do that, Kallen will start to regret it."

Without waiting for the child to speak, she changed the subject: "But in that case, it must mean that Kallen-chan's cuteness can no longer shake brother's mind."

"Then remember your answer."

Raising his hand, he grabbed the cherry blossom petal that was supposed to float onto his shoulder. With a snap of his fingers, the petal shot into the black mist, but it slowly landed in front of Zhen Jiling's eyes and stuck to the tip of her nose.

"I think the young me was the same as the young me. I was always worried about you, but also full of expectations for your future."

"Discard all unnecessary internal friction and doubts, and just be your ideal self. Since you have reached my standards, I can give you a secret."

"secret?"

"Just like stars, Omer Linton regards each of you as a shining star, and he has been running by looking at these stars all the time."

New Year! I wish you all a happy New Year! Good health, no gout, no hemorrhoids, no stomachache, no back injuries, and at the same time, you will get the effects of the Greedy Silver Snake Ring and the Golden Snake Ring!