Collapse, a simulator of lifelong regret!

PS: People who lack certain aspects in their growth path really have no resistance to the lack of that aspect in the future.

People who have never eaten cake will go crazy to taste cake to make up for it.

People who have never experienced Crazy Thursday are unwilling to stop eating even if they are tired of it.

Even Mobius in Paradise, who has reached the late stage and has gone mad to a certain extent, will still protect the only person who understands him...

——Doll.

This soft heart is completely opposite to a mad scientist that appeared recently. One is cold on the outside but warm on the inside, while the other is warm on the outside but cold on the inside.

Chapter of the Stars and the Moon: 107. Alicia: There shouldn't be any problem, right?

It has nothing to do with talent, wisdom, or anything you do, or anything that you are born with or have been given to you.

Perhaps the starting lines are naturally unequal, and this gap will only make those who can do it even more valuable, incomprehensibly valuable.

This awareness.

This obsession.

This will.

Even if you grow up in healthy love from the beginning, live in a healthy family, have an extremely healthy life, and are theoretically an absolutely healthy person, how many of you can give up what you have?

Once you get something, you won't want to give it up. This is human instinct, something that is born with the human ego and is called greed and possessiveness.

The more you have never had it.

The more I can only watch from afar.

An unsatisfied heart will inevitably leave a crack and be torn into a wound, just because of the gap between what you have never obtained.

Just like a child who can only lie at the door, press his face against the glass and look at his toys, all that can be reflected in his eyes is the desire in his heart.

What an empty heart needs is more and more compensation, and what you can't get requires more and more filling and supplementing.

In this situation, giving up something that you have always wanted but cannot get... is a completely impossible proposal from the beginning.

This is like asking a person who is drifting in an icy ocean until the cold penetrates his bones to give up the only plank of wood that is supporting his body.

Give up the only thing in your hands that you can feel, the only thing that proves that you are still alive, the only thing that proves that you still exist in this world and has not drifted in the ocean to the point of completely leaving the world and drifting to the brink of death.

The faint flame on the wooden board could only comfort the inner flame and was the only symbol that he had not been completely swallowed by the darkness.

At least Mebius could guarantee that if he had experienced these things, if he had really put himself in Velvet's shoes at that time.

Perhaps even if he squeezed out all the courage in his heart, all he could do was to subtly dissuade Jiang Cheng from leaving Alicia.

I didn't even dare to be too obvious, I didn't even dare to be too straightforward, I was just so embarrassed and ridiculously afraid of losing the last ray of light, the only wooden board.

——Someone gave up.

——Someone let go.

what……

This is not a simple act of confession.

Even to describe it as knowing that there is a cliff in front of you, but still being willing to take the crucial step forward would be an understatement.

This can even be called strangling oneself to death. In order to save others, one gives away the only piece of wood and the faint light in one's hand.

If Vivi is a useless person...

——What am I to you?

……

[Under the guidance of Mebius, you begin to have a better understanding of Velvet's talents and get to know her better, and have a more comprehensive understanding of the problem.]

[Wei Weiwei is a complicated person. She can never be described with any simple side. She is both cowardly and brave, both a genius and a waste. She can give up everything, but she also has something she cannot lose.]

[She is a person who is more thorough than anyone else, a person who is more complete than anyone else, and who truly embodies the complexity and diversity of human mind.]

[You can find all aspects of a person, all the complexity of a person, and all the emotions that a person should have in a girl.]

[It is like a symbol and embodiment of humanity, and together with its talent, it marks the limit of humanity and the highest achievement of humanity.]

[It is more significant than you, a guy who calls himself a human being. It can even be regarded as the only milestone in human history.]

[Everyone in the world has a turbulent heart. If you don’t look carefully, you can only see a tiny bit on the sea surface. ]

[Often the deep waves in one’s heart, the richness of the inner world filled with fish and shrimp, are unknown to others, and one can only know what is on the surface.]

[If you only look at the girl's daily life, you will probably think that Wei Wei is an inferior and cowardly person. You can't imagine how a person who is worried about gains and losses even when surrounded by happiness could have the courage to gamble with the little happiness she has.]

[If you only knew the girl's seemingly uneasy heart, how could you see how such a person who loves so carefully would choose to turn everything he has into a stepping stone for others to trample on after his death.]

[If you only knew about the girl's strong possessiveness of Jiang Cheng and her love that was as heavy as Mount Tai, how could you possibly know that Wei Liwei's plan for after her death did not include creating a replacement for herself to accompany Jiang Cheng.]

[Only by understanding everything more deeply can we know everything about the girl. 】

[No matter which aspect.]

[The memory of Jiang Cheng has disappeared. After living here for such a long time, you have already determined that the disappearance of this memory is complete.]

[But the emotions buried deep in memory, the love for Wei Weiwei, can it really disappear so easily? Can it no longer exist? ]

【No. 】

[If everything was really that simple, then there wouldn't be so many times when there was nothing wrong, but the boy would always touch upon the past, looking up through the fragments of memory, piecing together the fragmented puzzle pieces, and recalling some of the unique past that belonged only to him and Wei Wei.]

[Perhaps you are deliberately acting like Wei Erwei because you have no confidence in yourself and do not acknowledge your own abilities.]

[It's normal for this vision to cause some confusion. It's better to say that you are expecting Jiang Cheng to confuse Wei Erwei with you and regard them as the same person.]

[If you want to play the role of a girl thoroughly, you will need the help of Mebius, a genius who is also beyond imagination. ]

……

such……

There shouldn't be any problems, right?

The cherry-pink eyes reflected her pathetic self. She prepared a cage for herself, put on the mask, repaired the mask, and reinforced the mask. However, the corners of her rosy lips slightly raised into a twisted and distorted smile.

Having completely lost her former self, Alicia can now accept and agree to all this sad and pitiful thing.

It is no longer about the so-called simulator, whether to speed run or not, and no longer be ignorant and arrogant enough to think that it is just a simulator.

Up to now, I have experienced a time that is longer, more eventful, painful and numb than the time I have lived normally until now.

It's not so much a simulator.

One option plaything is provided each year.

A game where it doesn't matter what you do.

Perhaps it would be more appropriate to call it a second life, or a world that is no different from the real world and in which all suffering can be experienced.

At this point, Alicia can no longer even tell which life truly belongs to her, which life she has truly experienced.

I have already spent thirty-two years of my overly fulfilling and distorted life in the simulator, which can even be understood as more than twice my real age.

Complete feeling, complete physical sensation, complete vision, complete memory, complete perception, and even less complete thoughts and ideas later on.

I can feel the passage of time little by little, and feel my own growth little by little.

This life is real enough to confuse one's self-perception.

——It doesn’t matter anymore.

At this point, is it really necessary to worry about whether this is a simulator?

Since everything is the same as in reality no matter where you look, why should you delve into the source of all the pain and disasters that have caused you so much suffering?

If I hadn't wanted to speedrun from the beginning, if I hadn't wanted to win from the beginning, if I had been able to think normally and live according to Alicia's true thoughts, everything wouldn't have ended up like this.

——I’m already very satisfied.

I can return to the boy's side, touch his skin again, smell his scent again, and lie quietly beside his little bed again.

All you need to do is open your eyes to see the quiet profile, the slightly raised corners of the eyes, and the natural makeup that appears with the Herrscher's divine outfit after transforming into the Herrscher. The eyelids are dyed a perfect layer of cinnabar red.

Twenty-seven years of hard work, twenty-seven years of wandering, just to be able to barely touch everything that I had and held when I was born into this world.

Now we have done everything that can be done. No matter from which aspect, all threats and dangers have been nipped in the bud.

Apart from this very rare time, which could not even take up half a day, he could only appear by the boy's side almost every moment, never far away, ensuring that the figure was always in his sight.

No matter what time, no matter where, no matter what the situation, even if a young man steps onto the street alone.

Even if he leaves temporarily now, Qianjie will eliminate all hidden dangers, and he will properly manage all the big and small matters in the eternal paradise.

Jiang Cheng’s current strength cannot be ignored. It is almost the top combat power. It is no longer like before when it could do nothing in the face of disasters.

In this world, apart from Kevin, who has been transformed many times and has become completely inhuman, there is probably no one who can fight against the Herrscher.

should……

There won't be any more problems.

Definitely.

……

[Where is Alicia? Why can't I find her in any room? Why is even the scent she left behind blown away by the wind?]

【No. 】

【No. 】

【still none.】

[You didn't find any trace of Alicia at home. The girl who always stayed by your side and wanted to squeeze you dry disappeared when you needed her the most.]

【why? 】

【Why isn't she here? 】

[You haven't forgotten why you left in the first place and went to look for Aponia. In fact, it was because you were looking for Padufils.]

[Because I have to try to make myself look busy, so that Alicia will hold back a little when she squeezes you.]

[If it weren’t for this, you might not have the problem you have today, and you wouldn’t have realized that your memory might be wrong.]

[It is precisely because the girl can take you away at any time and anywhere. As long as she is sure that you still have the spirit and strength, she will squeeze you without hesitation. ]

[You will only look for something you can do when you are overwhelmed and don’t want to continue being exhausted every day.]

[In your memory, you have almost never seen Alicia leave you, leave this town, and leave your home.]

[Only at this moment, the girl seemed to have foreseen it and chose to leave. No trace of her could be found anywhere in the room.]

[Even the sweet, strong smell in the room dissipated a lot with the wind coming from the slightly opened window, along with freedom.]

[If you were not still aware of the traces of Alicia left in this room, the impression that was almost engraved in your mind would be unforgettable. Would you even doubt whether this was really your house? ]

【Strange.】

【It's really strange. 】

[You take a deep breath, gently close the window, and leave the empty room with only the dreamy light coming from the outside world.]

[Since Alicia is not at home, it means that you may appear in other places in the town. Although the girl used to be like a hands-off shopkeeper, she would occasionally fulfill her duties as the park manager. ]

[If you have encountered something that Qianjie cannot handle, or if you are running away at the speed of light, you want to find a way to kill time. ]

[Even if it appeared in other parts of the town, it is completely understandable. ]

【Let's see where Alicia is now. 】

[You walk on the bustling streets, watching the people next to you greet you enthusiastically. The people who often appear in this eternal paradise with no internal mobility have already become so familiar to you. ]

[Perhaps because you disturbed her lunch break, Padufils started to set up a stall again, a boy named Kosmo who Qianjie picked up from somewhere, and a girl named Hua who was said to have fallen on hard times from Shenzhou.]

[I was tortured by the disaster of Honkai, lost my family, lost all my loved ones, and even lost the concept of home itself. 】

[The displaced people reunited in the eternal paradise. Facing the suffering that was just around the corner, they were forced to face the difficulties and start a new life.]

[For most people in the world, the so-called joy in suffering is not because they really enjoy it, but simply because suffering is completely unavoidable. ]

[If you don’t try to find joy in adversity, then the final outcome of facing a disaster will only be a huge blow to your body and mind. ]

[The body and experiences are already very abnormal and unhealthy. If the mind is also like that, then the final outcome will only be death.]