Extreme Chaos

Chapter 1649 Stain!

Lei Yun'er closed her eyes in pain, and the tears that had been suppressed for a long time fell rapidly with the trembling sound at the end of the sentence.

"After so many years, the handwriting in that letter is engraved in my heart like an inscription, and each of them seems to weigh a thousand catties. I finally understand why my mother always looks at us so complicatedly, why she sometimes hates it, and sometimes she feels it. Filled with guilt, it turns out our birth was a mistake all along."

"She said that she hated that man to the bone. He not only deprived her of the right to love someone, but also deprived her of the right to choose. After a month of imprisonment, the last sentence that man left her was, she It belongs to him, life and death are up to him to decide, if she seeks death, her family and Confucianism will disappear from this world, not even a trace of what once existed will be left."

"She said that she was afraid, and she didn't care about the survival of that family that had no human feelings at all, but she couldn't let Confucianism get into trouble because of her involvement, she was already sorry for him, even if she was completely passive in this matter, she would Can't forgive myself."

"She said that when she found out that she was pregnant, she was decisive. The first thought that came to her mind was to abandon us without hesitation. The reason why she gave birth to us again in the end was because she felt that Giving up like this really can't eliminate her hatred for that person, since he doesn't even give her the chance to die, then she doesn't need to suppress herself, so she chose to give birth to us for indirect revenge."

"...how could she do this?"

Ye Shuangshuang spoke frankly, and couldn't understand Luo Xin's crazy thoughts when she heard this, but she was overwhelmed by excitement, but she chose to remain silent and think deeply.She also has someone she loves deeply, and she can put herself in another place to think. If it were her, if after she had made a private decision with Qing Lei for life, a strange man suddenly appeared and abducted her and conceived his child , what will happen to her.

The answer is too obvious, she will not even consider the matter of pregnancy and choose to commit suicide, but what if this person endangers the family and Qinglei?A great sense of powerlessness swept over the mind.

"But judging from what you just said, your mother didn't do what she wanted." Mo Qing recalled.

Lei Yun'er shook her head and replied, "Indeed, she said that she was confused at the moment we were born, and seeing our immature appearance, she didn't want to do it at all because she was not strong at all. She hated her Weak, she hates her own cruelty and viciousness even more, she is not a good mother, and she never thought of being a good mother, at least our birth was wrong, because we are not the children she wanted."

"Probably out of inner guilt. Although she did not give us complete maternal love, she also allowed us to grow up healthily, taught us how to read and behave, and taught us how to treat others. Perhaps compared to mothers, she is like a teacher. More, until entering the Temple of Thunder, the mother's identity is infinitely magnified by her, she will bow her head that she has never been willing to bow down for us, and even kneel down to beg those guards, but also beg for some medicines that are not available for us. When Yue'er had nightmares, she would hum songs that she never sang in front of us, but she would never have imagined that the daughter she cared for and loved in every possible way in times of difficulty would eventually become the murderer who killed her only life."

Speaking of this, Lei Yuner's expression turned to grief again, and her body trembled, "I can't forget that look full of sadness and pity, and I can't believe what I did, even after it happened. I couldn’t explain it. When I woke up from a daze, my sister and I were pushed out of the room. Half a day later, we learned the news of my mother’s death, and that look became the scene of our farewell to my mother. It has left a brand in our hearts that will never be washed away.”

"At that time, my younger sister was always under the protection of my mother and me. Her thoughts were purer than anyone else's, and she was also more likely to be afraid than anyone else. The death of her mother gave her a considerable shock, so that she was completely at a loss. I haven’t even seen the letter left by my mother.”

"After reading the 'suicide note' written by my mother, it was extremely painful, and at the same time, I had a buried question, why did my mother hate that person so much, what did he do as a father, and why did he take my mother from Confucianism? I wanted to give her such a painful life, but I tried my best to find the answer to this question, so I did the most wrong and right thing in my life, leaving my sister to go to Lei Gan."

"I don't know where I got the courage at that time. When I came to the gate of the main hall and hadn't entered yet, I heard words that were not from my own mouth but definitely from his mouth. The two elders who just came out of the main hall used a kind of me Speaking of my mother's death with incomprehensible sarcasm, every word uttered in that tone was like a sharp claw tearing at my nerves, making me suffocate until I couldn't breathe."

……

"The singer of the Luo family finally died, but it's really thanks to her persistence. Does she think that her persistence can make the palace move?"

"Heh... Didn't you see that the hall master didn't even have the slightest fluctuation when he got the news? Rumors say that the hall master loves her deeply. I think it's probably just a tool for the hall master to vent his loneliness when he is performing tasks. Why did the Palace Master refuse to see her once in three years after she came back? He didn’t even go to see her when she died. It’s just a little unclear that it’s enough for such a woman to let her die on her own outside, why should she be brought back to let the tribe Know? Doesn’t the Hall Master know that this will affect his reputation?”

"What kind of reputation, you don't know the character of the hall master. His domineering and arbitrariness are stronger than the old hall master. I heard that this woman was wearing red makeup when she came back. She presumably wanted to marry someone. With such a character as the hall master, do you think he Will you let the people you once owned marry outsiders? Even if you die, you must die in the Temple of Thunder. The words of the leader back then shocked many clans who were dissatisfied with him."

"That's true. There is another point I still don't understand. When the palace master went out, his martial arts had already reached the middle stage of the Holy Realm. It stands to reason that if he doesn't want to, it should be impossible for this singing girl to conceive. Why..."

"Cough...you are really gossip, the lord is young and energetic, and a little mistake is inevitable. In short, you don't need to think too much. Didn't you just ask the two wild girls about the future? How did the lord answer?"

"Ignore it."

"You see, the Palace Master doesn't care about them at all. It's better to say that they are two stains in the Palace Master's life. As soon as they see them, those stubborn factions will talk about the singing girls and ask me Said, the Hall Master wished that they both died together with her mother, so that they would not escape from his possession, and would not become his stain, it can be said to have the best of both worlds."

"Brother is very true. No wonder the Palace Master felt disgusted when he mentioned the two of them. Now that I think about it, Master Lei Nuo is talented and intelligent. How can the Palace Master still care about these two bastards?"

"Hey, keep your voice down. This is the main hall, and the master is still inside. If you go too far, be careful not to be criticized by villains."

"Hiss, forgot."

"Come on!"

"Yes."

……

Perhaps it was this conversation that left a deep impression on Lei Yun'er. She actually showed this memory to the three of them in the form of mental mapping. Since then, I have never taken the initiative to find that person again, because the answers I want to know are all clear, he is not worthy of being my father, and I don't need him, but what I never expected is that when I am disappointed At the same time as I was returning home, another thing happened that has caused me pain to this day.”

(End of this chapter)