National Tide 1980.

If we have to define 1989, perhaps we can say that it was a year full of contradictions.

From the perspective of the international situation, many new political figures have entered the political stage this year.

These people all have great ambitions and determination to work hard to govern the country, but only God knows their merits and demerits.

In the Republic, the situation is similar.

1989 was a turbulent year, with money-grubbing, inflation, brain-body inversion, modern art...

All these shocking phenomena have made many Chinese people feel confused and uneasy in the face of the increasingly complex social situation.

In particular, the emotional impact of going abroad on people and the mark of the times it leaves behind are far greater than any other.

Because when people go abroad, the separation of the two places will always lead to some emotionally charged and perhaps heartbreaking stories, just like the marriage of Sang Jing and Xiao Tao.

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Ever since she had the idea of ​​going abroad, Sang Jing could no longer feel at ease.

She wanted to pursue a new lifestyle. She didn't want to live her life in an ordinariness like ordinary people.

If she didn't try, she felt she would never have a chance in her life.

If I find a job like others do, such as working as an internal medicine or pediatric doctor in a domestic hospital, then life would be too boring.

"That's not the life I want." She would mutter to herself every time she imagined such a scenario.

That's why she tried so hard to find a way out. Even though Ning Weimin didn't reply to her messages, she didn't lose heart. Instead, she used all her connections to find a way out.

If a person has enough motivation, he can create miracles.

Sang Jing is studying English very hard and her TOEFL score is very good.

My father had an old colleague who could be used. He had left the United States in the 1970s and had now settled in the United States. He was willing to provide her with a brokerage guarantee.

The next biggest problem is the visa. It has been difficult to get a visa to the United States in recent years, and many people’s applications have been rejected many times.

Unexpectedly, Sang Jing's luck was amazing. She passed the application successfully on her first visit to the embassy and her first meeting with the visa officer. Now her next problems were how to tell Xiao Tao and how to raise tuition.

Sang Jing and Xiao Tao chose the day after the New Year to have their showdown, and they met at the coffee shop on the second floor of Xidan.

It was almost as Sang Jing expected. As soon as she spoke about this matter, Xiao Tao's face fell, and from then on, she never saw a smile on Xiao Tao's face again.

Although he didn't say anything against it, his reluctance was very obvious.

So Sang Jing also started complaining.

"Don't play dumb. If you're unhappy, just say it directly. There's no need to give me a cold shoulder. I'm telling you in person because I care about you. Besides, I'm not hiding anything. You've always known what I'm thinking."

"I know, you have to go out and try your luck." Xiao Tao sighed and drank the glass of liquor in front of him.

Logically speaking, foreign liquor tastes strange, and he needs to sip it for half an hour before he can drink it.

"Knowing that you are still like this, who are you showing your displeasure to?"

"No, I just don't understand. We are doing well in our country, why do we have to go to a foreign country? We are unfamiliar with the place and we don't speak the language. You have to wash dishes. What's more, you are going to the United States, which is so far away. What if something happens?" Xiao Tao's voice revealed pleading, and his helpless eyes stayed on Sang Jing's face.

"I'll get used to it slowly once I get there, and my English is good, otherwise I wouldn't have gotten such a high score. Besides, my dad's colleagues are looking out for me."

"She's just your father's colleague, not your relative after all, so don't expect too much from her." Xiao Tao muttered softly, "It was your best friend who instigated you. I want to meet Liu Mei, and I have to ask her why she wants to break us up, and what her intention is."

Sang Jing smiled, "Why are you blaming her? It was me who wanted to go out. At most, she just helped me find out which school is the best. Don't take your anger out on her."

"Then why can't you wait a little longer? If you can go to Japan, I'll feel more at ease."

"Don't worry about it. There's no point in nagging. If you really want to be useful, you have to accompany me. How about it? Can you do it?"

This sentence immediately made Xiao Tao speechless and he fell into silence.

Sang Jing also felt that her tone was a bit stiff, so she moved closer to him and stroked his head, "Don't be like this, I'm only leaving temporarily, I'll be back."

"Even for my sake, can you not leave?" Xiao Tao asked hopefully, eager to prove his importance in his girlfriend's heart.

However, Sang Jing turned her face away. She looked at the flashing laser balls above the dance floor and spoke after a while.

"Xiao Tao, it's not that I don't like you. But have you ever thought about it, if I stay for you and give up this opportunity. What will my mentality be like in the future? One year, two years, do you think I can let it go so easily? People are like this, the more they can't get it, the more they want it. If I think about it for a lifetime, I will regret it when I think about it. Is this what you want to see? Really, Xiao Tao, except for this one thing I can't promise you, I can promise you everything else."

These words were so firm that they left Xiao Tao no chance.

"This is not a trivial matter. You have to think about it carefully."

"I've already thought about it. No need to think about it."

Sure enough, although Xiao Tao was unwilling, there was no room for negotiation.

Just like that, neither of them spoke. At this time, they both clearly realized that it seemed that from the very beginning, they were cars running on two different tracks.

One wants to go abroad to see the wonderful world outside, and the other wants to do some small business in Beijing, and live like this for the rest of their lives.

In the days before they were about to part, in a mood of impending separation, they suddenly saw the bottomless rift between them, which was shocking, exhausting and helpless.

But even so, some people are unwilling to face reality, or they are still making one-sided sacrifices for love and are willing to go down this path until the end.

On this day, when they were breaking up, Xiao Tao asked Sang Jing while they were waiting for the bus, "You need money to go abroad, right? Tell me how much you need."

“No, that’s too much money. I can’t use your money.”

"If you want to break up with me, don't tell me, but if you still consider me your boyfriend, just tell me."

"For a moment, Sang Jing was really touched, but she didn't dare to say a word."

Because she knew that if she spoke out loud, she might say the four words "I'm not leaving."

But such feelings were only a momentary impulse, and she could not give up her hard-earned pursuit because of it.

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Three days later, Xiao Tao handed the money to Sang Jing.

And what was surprising was that what Xiao Tao gave her was not only the exchanged US dollars, but also the amount that far exceeded what she needed.

To be honest, according to what Sang Jing had found out, the tuition for the university she was going to attend was $865 a year, accommodation was $1,650, and other expenses were $153. All added up, the total cost for a year was $2,668.

However, when she opened the envelope that Xiao Tao handed to her, there was a full five thousand dollars.

Sang Jing didn't react at first. She looked at the thick stack of green banknotes in her hand in astonishment.

I counted them again carefully to make sure that I was not seeing things.

"Why so many?" she asked puzzledly.

"I can't really ask you to go to America to wash dishes."

Sang Jing couldn't believe her ears when she heard Xiao Tao's words.

She is not a fool and knows the value of Xiao Tao's love. According to the current black market price, these five thousand dollars are equivalent to 40,000 RMB.

According to the current wage level in the country, it would probably take a worker for 40 years without eating or drinking to make that much.

Originally, she planned to ask her parents to give her a few thousand yuan, borrow ten thousand yuan from Xiao Tao, and then go to the United States to make a living by working and studying.

I never dared to dream that I would have so much money.

Her eyes sparkled with excitement, and she hugged Xiao Tao all of a sudden, "Xiao Tao, I'll write you an IOU. This money is a loan from me."

Xiao Tao took advantage of the situation and held her in his arms, but just said kindly, "Don't be silly, this money is for you, really..."

"But if I were..."

"Even if you don't come back, I won't ask you for it. I am willing..."

Both of them fell silent again.

The magic of love is at its greatest at this time, and it can almost make people completely lose their minds.

Xiao Tao thought to himself that although Sang Jing was going to the United States, her home was still here after all.

The capital also needs doctors. After graduation, she will become a real doctor and then return to serve her motherland.

Wearing a white coat, sitting in the hospital, saving lives and healing the wounded for the people.

What a beautiful scene it was.

Although he is not sure whether he can marry Sang Jing in the end, he will never regret it.

Because at least, he trained an excellent doctor for the people, and his love was destined to be romantic.

He longed for the kind of love that Paul and Tonya had, hazy, beautiful, pure and unrequited.

Sang Jing was also thinking in her heart that Xiao Tao was really manly and she liked him.

The only drawback is that Xiao Tao cannot accompany her to study abroad.

It would be great if they could study abroad together.

Fortunately, this regret is only temporary. Maybe one day Xiao Tao will change his mind.

When she has established herself in the United States, perhaps Xiao Tao will be willing to leave here and go to the United States with her.

By then, perhaps all problems will be solved, they will live an enviable life abroad, and even their own families will be willing to accept them.

The two people's thoughts also gave them illusions for a while.

Until this point, they still hold on to unrealistic hopes, imagining that the other person is the most suitable person for them, and that they have no reason not to love each other.

Especially on the last day before separation, such emotions reached a peak, and they both catered to each other with a farewell mood.

They were together the whole day that day, and it was not until very late that they had to part ways, and Xiao Tao sent Sang Jing home.

The night was beautiful that night. The streets were quiet and most of the buildings were dark. After a tiring day, most of the people in Beijing had gone to bed.

When Xiao Tao drove his "Little Potato" to drop off Sang Jing at her home, he said to her, "Go home. Go to bed early. You have to go to the airport tomorrow."

However, Sang Jing did not move. She just sat in the car, looking at Xiao Tao with watery eyes.

"I will definitely miss you after I'm gone."

"Me too."

The two of them just sat there, looking at each other closely, looking at each other so reluctantly.

Then suddenly, they hugged each other, breathing rapidly and trembling.

In all their experiences of dating, they had never been so excited, their hearts had never been so beating wildly, and they had never been so inseparable.

Even when we touched each other for the first time or kissed each other for the first time, we didn't have this kind of intoxicating feeling.

At this time, Sang Jing could no longer maintain her rationality. She said as if she was afraid of the cold, "Xiao Tao, please take me away. I won't go home tonight."

"What?" Xiao Tao didn't know whether he didn't understand or he just couldn't believe it.

Sang Jing's lips trembled even more, but she still mustered up the courage to say, "I'm going with you tonight. I'm yours. Just take me."

After saying that, she threw herself into Xiao Tao's arms, buried her head deeply, and did not dare to raise it.

Xiao Tao sat there, not knowing where he was for a moment.

He finally understood Sang Jing's intentions.

The girl really wanted to give him her first time.

But he also loves her, his love is full of dreams and ideals, and he is destined to pay for his love.

Although he is a rough man, he still wants to maintain the sanctity of his love.

He hugged her tightly and looked into her eyes lovingly.

"Xiao Jing, I love you, I really love you. But you don't have to do this. I will wait for you, and when you come back from studying abroad, we will get married."

Just like that, Sang Jing gradually calmed down in Xiao Tao's arms, and her tears flowed out. She didn't know why she was crying, but it was deep in her heart.

At this moment, her heart was very calm and gentle, and she was truly moved by Xiao Tao's love.

Another night passed, and the next day, when Xiao Tao drove to take Sang Jing's family to the airport as promised.

At this moment, Sang Jing no longer had the hesitation and reluctance to let go that she had yesterday. She was excited and thrilled.

After all, her wish to study abroad finally came true, which was her long-cherished wish.

Not only did she go to the United States, but she also had sufficient financial security.

What else is she unhappy about?
At the airport, Sang Jing reserved the last five minutes of farewell for Xiao Tao.

However, they were unable to find the passion they had last night.

The two of them said goodbye in ordinary Chinese like ordinary classmates.

He said, "Write to me when you get there."

She said, "Of course, I will write to you and call you every day."

He said, "Then I must install a telephone right away."

She said, "Okay, but it might be midnight when I call."

He said, "It's okay, that's better, I won't miss talking to you." (End of this chapter)