After transmigrating into the book, the prime minister always wants to farm with me.

Chapter 82 It doesn't matter whether you say it or not

"My lady, I'll tell you if you want to hear it." He looked at Qi Yunran expectantly, hoping that after his explanation, she could open her heart to him. Even if she couldn't like him right away, she didn't want to hate or resist him anymore.

Seeing the seriousness and expectation in his eyes, Qi Yunran suddenly felt she didn't want to listen anymore.

Even if he explains, so what?
The original owner is dead and can never come back.

All she wanted was to farm and raise Xiao Jingxuan freely in the countryside, destined to be someone who wasn't meant to be with him.

No matter what the reason for a prime minister's return is, he will eventually have to go back.

She wouldn't go to the capital with him; it wasn't a suitable place for her.

She used to live with her master on the mountain and rarely came into contact with outsiders. She would only come down the mountain when she went to buy things.

My mentor used to say that with her simple mind, she would be devoured by society and left with nothing but bones.

We often tried to persuade her to go down the mountain and broaden her horizons, but she seemed to have gotten used to the quiet life and was unwilling to go down the mountain.

She was found by her master. In her original family, her father and mother always quarreled, and her father even suspected that her mother was having an affair.

He didn't consider her his daughter and often gave her the cold shoulder. He preferred her older sister because she looked like him.

After arguing enough, the two did not divorce, but they became like strangers.

My older sister is loved by her father, but she has never experienced what fatherly or motherly love is like.

Her mother vented her anger towards her father on her, often beating and scolding her.

Her feelings for her parents gradually faded with each disappointment.

Until one day, she could no longer find her father and mother, and after starving for three days, she squatted under the overpass, thinking she was going to die.

She had just met her master, a kind-hearted yet sharp-tongued old man, dressed very simply, but she believed him to be a savior. She was only seven years old that year.

She couldn't help but tear up when she thought about the past, and from then on she knew that she preferred to rely on herself rather than others.

Seeing Qi Yunran's long silence, her eyes shifting from regret to loss and sorrow, and finally returning to calm, Pei Yuanjun felt as if she had experienced all the vicissitudes of life, and her lonely eyes were heartbreaking.

Her eyes held both scars and courage, like those of a girl with many stories to tell.

Qi Yunran calmed down: "It doesn't matter whether you tell me or not, it doesn't really concern me anyway. You can stay here if you want! Just think of it as having another family member. Brother Yuanjun!"

This was also the original owner's long-held wish: that Pei Yuanjun would become the top scholar in the imperial examination, and she would become his sister and family, hoping that he would not find her unworthy.

Pei Yuanjun looked grief-stricken, with only one thought in her mind: she would not forgive him, and she no longer loved him.

His mouth was filled with bitterness: "My wife, it's all my fault. I can change, but can you... can't you..." extend the time it takes for him to like me a little longer?
“You did nothing wrong, I forgave you a long time ago. My current status is not good enough for you. My wish before was that if you became the top student in the college entrance examination, I would become your sister. I would never let your life be tainted.”

Pei Yuanjun suddenly lost control of his emotions and pulled Qi Yunran into his arms. This was the first time he had been unable to restrain himself from hugging her since he returned.

He held her tightly in his arms, as if he wanted to meld her into his very bones.

He wanted to say, "I don't want to be your brother." He wanted to say that he didn't think she was unworthy of him.

He also wanted to say... that he loved her.

He wanted to tell Ranran, "Don't always think about leaving me. It hurts me. And I can't control myself from wanting to keep you here by any means necessary."

He wanted to say that he never imagined he would be the one to hurt her to the point of despair.

He hated himself, but he also felt sorry for her.

The emotions inside my chest were about to explode.

He wanted to hold her, but didn't know how, so he could only hold her tightly in fear.

It was as if this could bring a moment of peace to her panicked heart as she was about to lose her.

(End of this chapter)