Reboot the heyday

Chapter 1585 Self-blame is only one step behind anger (44100)

Zhienjiang has insomnia.

How do you say something?Intentional thinking leads to a positive life, and negative thinking leads to a negative life.But now Zhien Jiang wants to be active, but she can't be active.

Originally, there were thousands of words, but after being a simple terrorist, I obviously wanted to say a lot, but when I opened my mouth, I didn't know where to start.

Alas, Chien-chan really wanted to say handsomely: If you don't want me, please leave me, stay, just continue to make me sad.

But, the one who didn't want to leave was himself.It was like the deep darkness and coldness in the corridor just now.But no matter how cold or painful it is, I can hold back and grit my teeth to prevent myself from crying. In fact, this is nothing at all, Zhi Enjiang is not so fragile.

But the terrorist opened the door and spoke, like a sudden surprise.

Yes, the cold that could have been tolerated, but the sudden warmth can force people to tears at once.

Feelings are inherently a sinking thing. The so-called reason and determination are actually ridiculous words of self-comfort.It’s more like a mass of desires. When desires are not satisfied, there will be pain. When desires are satisfied, there will be boredom. Life and relationships are like a pendulum swinging between pain and boredom.

So hypocritical
Zhi Enjiang lay on the bed tossing and turning, thinking about these messy things.

Yes, very hypocritical.It's as hypocritical as when I saw the terrorist and Victoria parting ways.

It's not right, Zhi Enjiang thinks that no matter how hypocritical, it is impossible to surpass the things about the terrorists and Victoria, that is hypocritical to the extreme.

However, Zhi Enjiang was very confused, because she found that she had also become hypocritical.It's really hypocritical.It's not like she used to be.

The original Zhienjiang just hated hypocrisy to the extreme.But when I also fell into this kind of hypocrisy, I found that I would really be justified, and even really sink into it.

So, when I have become so pretentious with terrorists, does that mean that I have also bonded with terrorists?
Some people say that parting and reunion are dramas that are constantly staged in life. If you get used to it, you will no longer be sad.

Originally, Zhi Enjiang had 1 approvals for this statement, but now it feels like nonsense.I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it at all, no matter how many times I do it again, I'm still not used to it.People who don't care can of course get used to it, but those who care can't get used to it anyway.

In other words, life is really heartbreaking not because of separation, nor because of how much pain the body endures, but because of the silent crying in the heart, the kind of unwillingness and remorse, regret for my indecisiveness, regret for my powerlessness, and even more so. Regret that you don't expect anything in return for your sacrifices
Pay, of course, ask for something in return.If you don't love me, then I really want to just destroy you!
When this thought appeared in Zhienjiang's mind, even Zhienchan himself was taken aback!
But thinking about it again, it seems reasonable.The deepest loneliness of a person is not being alone for a long time, but having no expectations in his heart.

Since there is no expectation, there is no need to work hard to bloom flowers, and it is also good to be a weed.The existence of thorns is not to prevent the weeds from being easily trampled on.

Finally, Chien-chan gathered up her courage little by little.

Of course.Having courage does not mean that the things you are afraid of do not exist, but that you dare to face and overcome the things you are afraid of.

After thinking for a while, Zhi Enjiang lay on the bed and made a call to Wang Taika who was sleeping in the living room across the wall.

Zhi Enjiang didn't even wait for a second before the call was connected.

"What's wrong?" Wang Taika's voice was very low.

Zhi Enjiang didn't know how to say it, so she asked, "How did you connect so quickly?"

"I'm playing on my phone. What's wrong?"

Zhienjiang's original courage was discouraged again, and she could only ask vaguely: "Terrorist, do you think... I'm hypocritical?"

"It's okay." Wang Taika is still very face-saving: "It's probably infected by me, but it's not a big problem, and it can be quit. In fact, many things can be quit, but some methods are needed."

Zhi Enjiang turned over and asked, "Will it be okay if you quit?"

"I will probably think about it, but I won't touch it anymore." Wang Taika said: "I am good at hypocrisy, but I am still working hard to quit hypocrisy. I don't have much experience to pass on. It is probably similar to taking drugs. You can quit, but you can’t forget it, it will become inevitable in your thoughts. Therefore, we should put an end to drugs and resolutely crack down on drug dealers.”

Zhi Enjiang gritted her teeth: "Terrorist, is this what I'm telling you?"

"Sorry, I got off topic." Wang Taika said: "It doesn't matter if you are hypocritical or not, just be happy. Convincing yourself is a victory of reason. Being moved by yourself is a kind of spiritual victory." Sublimation. Conquering myself is a kind of success in life. So I am only touched by myself, which is a kind of biochemistry of the soul. Is this the truth?"

Zhi Enjiang suddenly felt a little sad: "For the first time, I feel that there is no topic between us. It's so embarrassing."

"Oh, then go to sleep." Wang Taika said so.

"That's it?" Zhi Enjiang asked: "Don't you want to ask? Why don't you ask again?"

Wang Taika said: "We are all independent individuals, you are you, and I am me. Even if I think I am your Oppa on my own, haven't you never called me? So what does it matter to me? No Reasonable, right! It’s embarrassing enough that I only figured it out now.”

"Enough." Zhienjiang couldn't take it anymore: "Terrorist, you're not talking to me, you're just sarcastic, right?"

"I think too much, I really think too much." Wang Taika suddenly sighed, and said, "I remember you asked me a long time ago, saying that if one day you lied to me, what would I do? It seems like this question Yes, I don't remember exactly."

Zhi Enjiang said: "Yes, there is such a thing. I asked, and I forgot how I asked. I also forgot how you answered. Do you remember?"

"I'm sorry, I only remember such a thing, but I really forgot the specifics. It's too far away." Wang Taika said: "I seem to have answered well!"

When Zhi Enjiang heard this sentence, she only felt how pretentious and ridiculous her self-indulgence was. She persuaded so much, but was defeated by such a sentence, and immediately shed tears.

"Sorry, I have to get up early tomorrow and hang up. Terrorist, good night."

"toot toot"

Listening to the hollow voice on the phone, Wang Taika was just sad.

How could you forget?It's just that I didn't do it, I feel guilty, and I dare not admit it.

I'm so sorry, Zhien-chan, I clearly promised not to give up on you, but I didn't.

Remorse is only one step behind anger.

(End of this chapter)