Chang Anqing

Chapter 237 Earthshaking
As the twilight deepens, the night is as cool as water. The lonely lights in the distance fall on the tile eaves of the palace wall, and the mottled frost soaked in the tide rises. Although the coldness is not the cold winter, it is like tentacles. Inch by inch through the gaps in the fabric, bursts of coldness.

When the soft sedan could reach the gate of the palace in front of Suzaku Gate after another passage, Li Sui, who was sitting in it, couldn't hold on any longer. , her mind was completely focused on the funeral, deliberately busy from day to night, from the noise of people crying to the few people, these seven days and seven nights, she didn't want to close her eyes, let alone dare to close them, because whenever she was extremely tired The moment she closed her eyes briefly, the nightmare of sister hanging herself would appear again and again in front of her eyes. In the vast darkness, she could almost clearly see sister's despair, loneliness, and those unspoken difficulties and difficulties. Pain.

Such a dream was too real, so real that even she who was kneeling in front of the spirit would wake up from it, sweating coldly, and heartbroken by it.

At this moment, she suddenly escaped from the busyness, but those emotions surged up again, which made her even more unbearable.

"Let's get off the sedan chair."

Through the soft curtain, both Niannu and Yunu outside the sedan chair heard the slight sound. Seeing Li Sui lift the curtain and come out, Niannu and Yunu hurriedly stepped forward to support him, and whispered: "Princess, let's hurry up." We've arrived at Suzaku Gate, it's cold outside—"

After finishing speaking, Nian Nu looked up at the sky and said slowly: "It seems to be raining, don't get cold and hurt your body."

Hearing Nian Nu's words, Li Sui could already feel the spring rain falling gently on her face and hands, as if they were pulling her out of the closed and suffocating deep sea. , so that she can finally take a big breath, and finally wake up.

"Nothing, let's go."

After saying this, Li Sui stepped forward. Seeing this, Nian Nu looked at Yu Nu, worry appeared in his eyes, and there was more sadness and sadness in his eyes, and he followed closely the next moment.

Slowly pacing, Li Sui's master and servant walked slowly on the long corridor, because when it was about to be locked, there was no one on the corridor, only the stone palace lanterns on both sides gave off a little faint light, dispelling the crowds in front of them. dark.

With every step he took, the rain fell on his body more and more. No matter how cold it was, it was no match for Li Sui's icy heart.

It's like the fireworks after the prosperity is gone, empty and empty, with no way back.

The moment Ajie hanged herself in front of Emperor Yuancheng's bed, she clearly realized that Ajie knew everything. Can no longer live.

The betrayal of the person next to the pillow, and the indifference of the father.

The elder sister before she hanged herself was in such a state of mind. The Taiwei Mansion, where she lived for 16 years, was not her home, nor was the Daming Palace, where she lived for seven years. Where she lives, if she wants to survive, she has to live in the false dreams woven by the people around her day after day, and forcefully laugh.

Unprepared, Li Sui felt a sudden strong shock in his heart, accompanied by a sharp pain like a knife.

"princess--"

Feeling Yu Nu stepping forward to support her and giving her support, and hearing Nian Nu's nervous inquiry, Li Sui walked down under the support of Yu Nu, shaking his head with a smile, but his right hand was tightly clutching himself He stubbornly raised his eyes and stared at the approaching Suzaku Gate, not letting himself fall down.

One step, two steps—

I don't know how long I walked, and I don't know how many steps I took. When she finally passed through the vermilion Suzaku gate, she saw a slender and lonely figure in a trance in the misty rain, holding a silk umbrella, standing in a car. In front of the carriage that suddenly appeared.

"Princess, it's the king!"

Niannu's choked and relieved voice came from her ear, almost at the same time, she also saw the man in moon white holding a silk umbrella, walking towards her through the cold wind and rain.

At the moment when the eyes met, Zhao Yi looked at Li Sui who was standing in front of him, his face was haggard, raindrops were condensed on his temples, his lips were closed, and his talking eyes were no longer as free and easy as before, but they were sobbing like complaints. He couldn't help but think back to just now.

That lonely and stubborn figure walking alone in the mist and cold rain just now, was clearly only separated by mist and rain, but he could clearly feel that she had changed in front of him.

His heart was as dull as a tangle of silk threads, and he felt faintly uncomfortable. Facing Li Sui whose face was wet with rain or tears, Zhao Yi didn't say anything, only turned around and took the crane cloak in Zong Ming's hand, and shook it away lightly , and turned to put it on Li Sui's body with his own hands.Just as he moved his fingers slightly to tie her crane cloak belt, Li Sui's hoarse and ethereal voice came from his ear.

"Zhao Yi, sister is gone—"

The moment the words fell, Zhao Yi's dark eyes suddenly lifted, and the movements of his hands couldn't help but pause for a while.

Looking at each other, Li Sui suddenly smiled, but said with infinite desolation: "She will never be with me again."

Seeing Li Sui who lowered his head silently, his eyebrows and eyes buried in the shadows, and shrugged his shoulders to look thin, Zhao Yi clenched his fists slightly with his lowered hands, frowned for a long time, and said in a low voice: "I will accompany the princess .”

As soon as the words fell, Li Sui's pupils shook, but when he looked up, he bumped into those steady and firm eyes, like a light spot in the dark night, suddenly became a dazzling light, enveloping her, intending to give her Inclusive and warm.

"This life, this life."

The promise was still in her ears, and at this moment Li Sui felt a surprise she had never felt before, as well as inexplicable emotions, which swirled like smoke and lingered in her heart bit by bit.

It was as if the cold sea water merged into the warm current unexpectedly, stirring and wandering in her heart.

"Let's go."

Looking at Li Sui who was standing still, Zhao Yi was the first to speak out. Seeing Zhao Yi's eyes, Li Sui retracted his gaze and nodded. At this moment, the two of them walking side by side seemed to be no longer alone with each other. home.

As the carriage moved forward slowly, Li Sui could clearly hear the steady breathing of Zhao Yi beside him. After a long silence, Zhao Yi spoke the first sentence.

"The night before Her Royal Highness left, she secretly summoned me."

Hearing the words, Li Sui nodded silently and regained his composure: "Jiamo told me the day he entered the palace."

After that, Li Sui looked sideways at Zhao Yi and added: "After summoning you, sister also met Yang Chongyuan."

Hearing Li Sui call his name directly, Zhao Yi faintly noticed something, and then continued: "His Royal Highness has guessed the relationship between you and me."

At this moment, Li Suicai finally looked over unexpectedly, but saw Zhao Yi seriously: "But I also believe in you and me."

Hearing this, Li Sui was stunned but smiled back, and said slowly: "Sister always knows me, and I can't hide it from her."

Speaking of this, Li Suijing squeezed the handkerchief in her hand, looked down at the charcoal stove under her feet and said, "Sister, she drugged the emperor the night she left—"

Hearing Li Sui's explanation, Zhao Yi understood why Emperor Yuan Cheng suddenly knew why the second night after Queen Yang left.

"At the night banquet, after Sis and I drank several cups, I felt out of energy. It can be seen that Sis also drugged my wine."

Just to keep her from worrying, just to arrange everything alone before leaving.

In the silence, after Li Sui stared at Zhao Yi, he said softly, "Do you know why sister died?"

Seeing the gloomy eyes of the people in front of her, Zhao Yi already had some guesses in her heart, but when she said it, she was still shocked.

"It's for that child, but it's not only for that, but also for the confrontation and deception of my father and husband."

Although the words were not clearly stated, how could Zhao Yi, who has experienced two lives, not understand.

No matter how cruel the facts are, they are as realistic as they are. That's why people like Empress Yang, who is soft on the outside and strong on the inside, are driven to a desperate situation and lose the meaning of living.

"No matter how hard it is, when you are with me, the Queen's smile is sincere."

Hearing Zhao Yi's comforting words, Li Sui shook his head, but said between his lips: "But she never saw me for the last time even when she left, and she never left me a single word."

"She's timid because of her closeness to the hometown. When facing you, she may be afraid that she will be shaken, and that she will reveal everything to you before she leaves her mouth."

After the words fell, Li Sui looked sideways at Zhao Yi, looked at his calm and serious eyes, and at the moment when he lowered his eyes to think, a scene suddenly flashed in his mind.

"Yes."

At this moment, Li Sui's eyes suddenly lit up, like a galaxy, without thinking about anything, he lifted the curtain and said, "Hurry back to the mansion immediately."

Noticing that the carriage picked up speed, Li Sui looked gratefully and expectantly at Zhao Yi and said, "Sister must have left something for me, it must be."

When the carriage returned to Yuling Palace, the carriage stopped. Li Sui quickly leaned out, got out of the carriage, and headed inward.

Facing the worried Nian Nu and Yu Nu, Zhao Yi raised his hand as a gesture, and then followed steadily.

Until they passed through the corridors of the courtyards and came to the courtyard where they lived, Li Sui was already sweating from running quickly.

When he came to the dressing table, Li Sui quickly took out a red and red gold gift slip from the drawer, examined it carefully for a long time, his eyes moved slightly, and immediately used his thumb nails to gently dig into the gift slip paper until it reached the page. It split open to reveal the white middle page, and Li Sui almost cried with joy.

When Li Sui cut the gift list completely, pulled out the interlayer, and saw the familiar words on it, he couldn't help but shed hot tears anymore.

"Aman, I'm sorry, I broke my promise, forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye, don't feel sorry for me, when you read this letter, leaving me is not pain, but relief, freedom.

23 years in my life, in retrospect, it is not vain.During the 16 years of being the eldest daughter of the Yang family, I became a qualified daughter of the Yang family in their eyes, and during the seven years of being the empress of the Great Zhou Dynasty, I also became a virtuous queen in the eyes of the world.But all of this came at the cost of losing the former self.Countless times these days I think of myself as a pawn in a game, stupid as hell.But thinking about it now, they are so pitiful.

I don't know if I can overcome the self in my heart, and I don't know if I can throw everything away and walk with you. I can only bid farewell to you in this way.But no matter what happens in the future, I will never go on living in a muddle like before. Whether I stay or leave, I will be myself, not the noble daughter of the Yang family who was born, not the queen of the world, just Myself.

In this life, I have buried myself in the Daming Palace, in the tomb of the Tian Family, so, Ah Man, don’t let A Yu go the way I have walked, let him live this life safely and happily, Be a person of flesh and blood, who can cry and laugh, and don't be tainted with the royal family any more.

Ah Man, my sister.After this farewell, sister will not be able to accompany you, but I hope that you can walk hand in hand with Zhao Yi, and walk towards the world that belongs to you, not for anyone, but for yourself. "

Looking at every word and every sentence in front of her, Li Sui's eyes became more and more blurred. At this moment, she held the two thin pages tightly, looked at the parting letter, and looked at the underside of the letter. According to the testimony of the blood seal, he finally understood.

It turned out that Sister Ah had suffered from depression long before she got married, but she was working hard for her and for Ah Yu, because she didn't know the future, and because she was worried that her "weakness" would leave her, and she would die. Yang Chongyuan was asked to delay her and Zhao Yi's marriage in the name of national mourning, so she insisted on it alone for so long, but prepared for the worst, quietly wrote this letter, and put it in the paper for her wedding day. In the gift list of makeup.

It wasn't until the Shangsi night banquet that I mentioned it by accident and asked her if she had checked the gift list.

It turned out that even at the last moment of her life, sister was doing everything to protect her and the Li family, even if she was confronting Yang Chongyuan, her biological father.

When a drop of tears fell on the letter paper, making the handwriting dizzy into ink-colored flowers, Li Sui raised his head with a smile, raised his drooping eyelids, lowered his hands holding the paper, looked at Zhao Yi in front of him, and clenched his fists after a long time. Hold, but a word overflowed lightly and firmly.

"Zhao Yi."

"If I want to get all this back for Sister, will you accompany me?"

In the silence, Zhao Yi, who faced each other silently, stared deeply at Li Sui without avoiding it, and his low voice gave her a sense of dependence that she had never had in her previous life.

"What you do, I do."

Hearing this sentence, Li Sui's eyes were condensed with a faint light like the stars, and the next moment there was a smile on his lips, but his tone was so deep that it was difficult to understand.

"Even if it's earth-shaking?"

Seeing Li Sui's weak smile, Zhao Yi's eyes were as aggressive and cold as a sharp knife out of its sheath, and almost at the same time, the final answer overflowed from his lips.

"Even if it's bloody."

(End of this chapter)