Why it never ends

Chapter 113 Changes
"That's great...I'm so happy for you." Hesta smiled sincerely, "I always thought your married life would be very hard."

"why?"

"..." Hesta looked down and thought for a while, "Because you are always taking care of others?"

"It's part of my job, Jane." Valenti laughed. "I don't mean tonight, of course."

Valenti was a little tired from standing, so she simply sat down on the curb beside the bridge.

"If you have to ask what is the difference between married life and before, I think it is also obvious, but it does not come from my nuclear family or inside the mercury needle, but from some more peripheral people-after marriage, other people treat you expectations will change.”

"for example?"

"For example, my father, have I mentioned to you that he is a famous doctor in the third district? In the past, he would often ask me how I am doing at the base recently. Sometimes I have problems at work. I will also discuss it with him, but in the past two years, there has been almost no more.”

Hesta looked at Valenti, and there was obviously some sadness in her words.

"Is he no longer able to help you?" Hesta asked.

"No," Valenti looked forward, "it's because he doesn't care about my work anymore, how will I plan my time next, what projects do I plan to do... He hasn't asked these questions for a long time. Occasionally he The calls were mostly asking how Virgil and I were doing, or when we were going to have kids.

"I can clearly feel these changes in expectations, so I don't want to talk to him about anything else."

Valenti narrowed her eyes and said softly, "I'm sorry."

"Furthermore, once you get married, you will inevitably have to face the issue of childbirth. I have to estimate its impact on me, but a child is too uncontrollable." Thinking of this, Valenti suddenly laughed, "I was discussing this topic with Masaki the other day."

"What did Miss Chiba say?"

"She said, if I really want to have a child and find it troublesome, then just give birth to Virgil."

Hesta tilted his head, "...It seems that it is not impossible."

Valenti laughed again, shaking her head again and again, "No way! Put a child in my arms, and I can't leave him alone—I know myself.

"But I still have too many things to do. I want to be promoted, I want to go to the base rotation in several other regions, and I want to participate in the psychological support project that belongs to the battle sequence."

Valenti spread her hands and moved her fingers one by one into the palm.

"For this reason, I have to take at least another degree related to neuroscience. I have to have more than five years of experience leading project teams independently. I also want to live in the first district, ninth district and No.12 district for a while, so I It would be best to learn the language of Districts Nine and No.12 again—even if I was only responsible for giving birth to the child and ignored everything after that, it seemed that I couldn’t spend a year or two to complete the pregnancy , birth, and breastfeeding.”

Valenti thought for a while, and then changed his words, "Maybe it's not that I can't take it out, but I just don't want to take it. I know that there are also people who are particularly powerful in the habitable land, who can multi-thread and advance all plans at the same time-but that is too hard. , I have seen what my aunt lived in the two years from pregnancy to the end of breastfeeding. Even her husband is just as gentle and considerate, and minimizes her fatigue, but it is still too hard. I don’t want to eat so much How bitter."

Hesta was confused by Valenti's words,

"Since you have made it clear that you have neither the time nor the energy...then why are you still struggling?"

"That's the problem," Valenti frowned, "I resist the personal effects of childbirth, but when I pass by a children's clothing store, I take a second look; when I read in the newspaper about Regarding the issue of children's education, I couldn't help discussing with Virgil, what would I do if this happened to our children..."

Valenti leaned over the bridge railing, "I just can't seem to make up my mind to cut a child out of my life plan completely... Can you understand this feeling?"

Hesta was silent for a moment, shaking her head honestly.

Valenti sighed, "This is my other trouble. I also talked about these problems with Chiba, but she also couldn't understand what I was struggling with. The marriage rate of women is less than 20%, and they will choose to have children. Less than 5%, I really don't know where to find a partner to talk about these things..."

Valenti sighed softly, "Anyway, it's also difficult."

Hesta tried to think, but these problems were too far away for her. After thinking for a long time, she could only leave an encouragement like "You will definitely find a solution".

Valenti smiled. Looking at the water in the distance, she murmured, "This may not be something I can solve by myself, maybe it will never be solved..."

She stroked her hair again, "However, I will be ready no matter what."

Next, the two sat on the floor on the curb by the bridge and chatted a lot.Valenti sent a message for help to the workstation of Mercury Needle through her mobile phone, and waited for the workstation to send a car to pick him up.

At 02:30 in the morning, the car from the workstation arrived. Hesta put back his coat and stood on the side of the road waving to Valenti.

Valenti had already given up the seat reserved for Hesta in the back compartment, but seeing her standing on the side of the road and not getting into the car, Valenti moved to the window again, "Aren't you going back with me?"

"I want to walk alone again," replied Hesta. "You don't have to worry, I know the way and know how to get back to Paul Avenue."

Looking at Hesta's calm face, Valenti suppressed the worries in her heart—rationally speaking, of course she didn't have to worry about Hesta now.

"Then you stay safe alone." Valenti waved at Hesta, "When you get home, send me a text message."

Hesta nodded, and the two said goodbye.

On the way home from Shiqiao, Valenti first wrote a text message to Chiba, and briefly told her what happened tonight. street view.

Valenti was a little tired, but the cold wind blowing on her face made her very awake.

She thought of the plot of "The Dagger and the Sheath" tonight, and suddenly felt that Hester's doubts were not unreasonable, but she rarely paid attention to the characters in this story before, and her attention was always on the voices of the actors .

These ancient stories are always the same, not only "The Dagger and the Sheath", even in the third district such as "The Phantom of the Church" and "The Fate of Midsummer" and other famous musicals, the heroines are still happy and beautiful. avatar.

They are lone stars hanging in the night sky, and they are the embodiment of love and ideals in the world.They always use their love to bring redemption, or use death to leave the aftertaste of accusation and sadness.

Suddenly, a bright light pierced her eyes from the front, and the next moment, a car sped past her.

The driver swears a bad word—someone turned on the high beam late at night and met their car face to face.

I don't know why, this sudden strong light made Valenti suddenly recall the moment when he and Hesta looked at each other briefly in the theater box.

Just in the box of the theater, before Hesta fled, Valenti saw some panic, even fear in her eyes... a kind of fear that the secret was penetrated.

It dawned on her that Hesta might have lied about something.

Valenti frowned, more clues running through her mind.

In Hesta’s file, she stated that she was an orphan born in Duanming Lane. She had no parents, no brothers and sisters, but she knew exactly what prayer gold coins were—years ago, Chiba entrusted herself to hand over to Hess At that time, Hesta not only recognized what it was at a glance, but also told the origin of this gold coin very accurately.

It can be seen that she is not ignorant of the distant Hesta tribe.

Tonight, she said she had never heard the story of "The Dagger and the Sheath," but she had that heartbreaking look again when François sang "Come with me."

"...where are the other Volvas?"

What about the other Volva...

Valenti suddenly realized something, she lowered her head, turned on her phone, and left a message to Chiba again:

Masaki, can you check someone in the third district for me?

(End of this chapter)