Why it never ends

Time: March 4654, 5

Recorder: Cheng Qiao

Summary: The N-A1 squad killed two suspicious gangsters while patrolling, rescued four hostages, intercepted a small engineering vehicle, two modified medium-sized machine guns, several .308 caliber bullets, 24L of drinking water and twelve boxes of compressed food , there were no casualties on our side; two new guards at the south intersection were added today; how to dispose of the 16L impending gasoline in the warehouse is to be discussed; everything else is normal.

Remarks:

Today is the 789th day since the fall of the mother city of the fourteenth district.In the mountains, life passes slowly, but every day is very busy.Yesterday we accepted the 22nd new member of the team together, and learned a series of amazing news from her... I haven't written a serious diary for a long time, I just have time today, let's make some extra records .

Getting used to chaos was easier than I thought.This is not to say that life in the past two years was not cruel. On the contrary, in the first three months of the fall of the mother city, this place was hell on earth.But fortunately, we not only have food, water, and weapons, but also a sturdy shelter that has been modified and refurbished several times, which is enough to withstand any invading enemies.

What scares us the most is women, all kinds of unarmed women, pregnant, with children, alone but already on the verge of death due to illness and injury... We can expel those who come to covet our living space enemies, but when facing them, everything becomes difficult.The young people in the shelter tend to be soft-hearted, so Lin Jiao and I have been doing the work of expulsion.When we were on patrol last week, we found a pregnant woman in labor on the side of the road, with no one around her, lying alone on the slope in the forest.We don't know how she got here. When we found her, she was almost dying. She begged us to save her baby no matter what. We were there to help her deliver the baby by the side of the road.

When I delivered the baby, I was thinking, if the baby is a girl, maybe we can really try to take the baby back and discuss with everyone whether the baby will stay or not.Now we are different from two years ago. In the past two years, we have saved seeds from the ground, have a vegetable garden, [-] chickens, and [-] sheep. The town has also established a basic material exchange center. The shelter is no longer a state of making ends meet...but alas, the baby is a boy and there is no room for a man in our shelter, not even a baby boy.

The woman walked quickly because of the heavy bleeding. At the last moment, she didn't look at the child, but kept holding my hand, begging, if it was two years ago, I would probably be shaken.Habits grow quickly, and no matter how hideous, once it becomes part of everyday life, there is nothing to hesitate about.

In the end, we decided to drive to a nearby militia organization to hand over the children and the four hostages we rescued today. Anyway, the gasoline we stored two years ago is almost expired, and there is not much use for it.The departure is scheduled for tomorrow morning, when we can pack up all the gas and see if we can get some coffee and dental floss instead.

Tomorrow is also the anniversary of Teacher Chen's death. The house we live in now is Teacher Chen's old house. More than 20 years ago, she heard that we were preparing for doomsday survival, so she gave us the keys to this three-story old house.Later, Teacher Chen passed away, and she officially donated this building and the surrounding [-] hectares of land to the Islands Poetry Society in her will.After that, most of the members of the "Islands" come here to meet in the winter, and little by little we turn it into a real refuge.

The new member who joined today is Yelena's student. I can't remember her name right now. After all, the names of people in the North 17th District all have a long list.During dinner, she took out a newspaper, which was a series of reports on District No. 17 - the Women's Progressive Party of the former District [-] officially ruled in the northern part of District [-].From the Afronte Strait in the north of the original [-]th District to the Meri Plain in the south, more than [-] islands, including the Corto Bay in the east, have since been separated from the jurisdiction of the original [-]th District and become the No.[-] new district, also known as Sa blessing.

The front page of the newspaper published a group photo of the members of the first Supreme Council. There were eleven people in total. We recognized Hesta standing in the middle at a glance. Except for a little sign of aging, she has hardly changed!Those eyes are as bright as when I first met her!We couldn't understand the text in District [-], so Yelena's students interpreted the names of these people and the details of the subsequent reports to us.There is not a lot of really useful information in the report, only the long-winded slander of the [-]th District. For example, due to the scarcity of men in the [-]th District, making male partners has become a secret privilege that only upper-class women can enjoy secretly. Can't even touch a man's fingers - so funny!It's been a long time since we laughed like today, everyone was rocking with laughter!
But how to put it, slander is good!If the Seventeenth District is a place that they praise, then it is not worthy of our expectations, let us cheer for its establishment!We discussed things related to Sappho with great interest. Although these reports were stinky, we still smacked each one several times. Every new detail revealed between the lines made us curious and excited .We discussed that the restoration of order in the fourteenth district should happen in the next two or three years. At that time, we can go to Sappho to see for ourselves how this female-dominated world works.

Yelena was very excited and began to think about the life of moving to Sappho in the future. Everyone discussed what they could do after going there. Lin Jiao found that I hadn't talked to me, so he asked me what was wrong, and I said Sappho was very good. I must go there in my lifetime, but I only went to see it, and I still have to come back after all.

Everyone was surprised and asked me if I don't want to live in a better place.Of course I want to go, but the establishment of Sappho was not bought by my blood. Even if I go there, I am only a guest there. Moreover, I cannot regard a place I have never seen as my future home... Hesta is a man without a hometown, but I have one.

Yelena felt that I was speaking ill of Hesta and lost her temper with me on the spot. Lin Jiao stopped our quarrel.Lin Jiao knew that this was not a bad word, it was Hesta's original words - when we went to the mountains to watch the stars many years ago, Hesta himself said that she had never found the feeling of her hometown anywhere in this world.That night, Hesta said that someone once told her that people are like seeds, and some people start to take root and sprout from birth, while others, such as herself, do not have such a deep affection for the land, as if to go to the land. You can live anywhere, but you can't even talk about taking root.

When I was washing dishes at night, Lin Jiao came over to chat. She said that she could understand my thoughts, but in the history of human civilization with official records, after all, this was the first political power established by women, and she did not participate in the establishment of it. The process is already a pity, but at least in the future construction and maintenance, later people can really join this wave that is destined to be written in history. Are you really going to try it?

I didn't answer right away, and I didn't know either.I still don't have answers on a lot of things.Will those voices that we haven't heard in District 40 be heard when we go to another place?Does anyone in another land really care about our accusations, those angers that are firmly bound to our past?If I cut off my [-]-year-old roots and go to a foreign land, what awaits me will be greater freedom or greater aphasia?

Lin Jiao laughed dumbfounded, and then hugged me.

All in all, I am very happy to hear such news today.Looking back on the encounter with Hesta that year, I feel that everything is very wonderful.If I could see her again, I thought, I'd ask her if she felt rooted now.When I think of the many women in the world who, like Hesta, were born without a homeland, have created a country of their own, I can't help but burst into tears.The world has changed so much in the past 20 years, but no moment has I felt such a strong witness to history emotion like today...even if it is not my hometown.

I hope they all go well, and hope that one day, I can also set foot on our Sappho.