Why it never ends

Hesta listened with suspicion, until the other party said "Songxueyuan Daily News the day before yesterday", that doubt with longing was quickly extinguished in the waves of the angry sea.

"...You, you," Hesta gritted her teeth, her voice almost trembling, "It turns out it's you..."

"Oh, it seems you have read the newspaper from yesterday?" The voice on the other end of the phone was a little surprised, "Why don't you sound unhappy?"

"You slander the reputation of the Hestad people in the habitable land and you expect me to—"

"How can this be slander? Jane, we have diluted the scarcity of Hesta red hair in habitable lands," Mrs. Kaja's calm voice came from the other end of the phone, "When it becomes no longer rare, There wouldn’t be so many young Hesta girls being sent to people like Mihailo—isn’t it hard to understand that things on the street often don’t sell for a high price at the top of the pyramid?”

Hesta was furious when she heard this, and the feeling of being at a disadvantage when confronting Anna came back.

"Do you still know Mihailo?"

"I know more people."

"...What a gift." Hesta suppressed her anger and tried her best to sound calm and calm, "Send me such a big gift, how do you want me to repay you?"

Mrs. Kajia laughed and said, "Then come and play a game of chess with me. It sounds like your chess skills have improved."

"When?"

"When I come back, I will make an appointment with you. By then, I have something very important to tell you."

"You need some air first."

"You don't want to stay in District 14 for the rest of your life, right?"

"That's impossible to say."

There was laughter again on the other end of the phone, "You won't. At that time, someone will try their best to persuade you to return to the third area, because it is safe and you can go back to the place you are most familiar with and continue to do the work you are most familiar with... But do you know where you should go most?"

Hesta narrowed her eyes slightly.

"District 12," Mrs. Kajia said.

"Why twelve——"

There was a busy signal on the other end of the phone.

……

At night, Ding Yuqing returned home alone.

When she pushed the door open, she met Ding Guisheng pouring water in the living room. There was a lot of noise last night, and Ding Guisheng slept all day today. When he woke up at night, he felt a little uncomfortable with hunger, but an inexplicable irritation kept him from ordering takeout. He endured his hunger and waited for Xu Ruyi to come back, intending to blame her for this matter.

At this moment, the father and daughter looked at each other, and Ding Yuqing lowered her gaze without saying hello.

Before she opened the door to Hesta's room, Ding Guisheng said, "You're back?", his voice muttered, as if there was still residual anger.

Ding Yuqing said "hmm" and then closed the door.

Ding Guisheng was the only one left in the living room again. Ding Guisheng instinctively wanted to get angry, but the familiar anger did not come out. He felt like a stove that had burned out all the coal, and he was a little powerless at the moment.

He was very shocked when he heard the quarrel between Ding Yuqing and Xu Ruyi last night. He never thought that his little daughter would talk about "divorce" around his wife every day. He still remembered that when Ding Yuqing was born, she was just a little bit old. She lay in Xu Ruyi's arms all day long and laughed endlessly when he teased her.

Although Xiaoqing was occasionally disobedient, as long as he slapped her, Xiaoqing would always obey immediately... It was also the first time for Ding Guisheng to see such a hysterical look like last night.

That overly hot anger made Ding Guisheng suddenly realize that Ding Yuqing was no longer a child. At the same time, it also made him aware of his own aging.

This feeling frightened him. …

In the room, Hesta was writing in her diary. When she heard the sound, she turned around and saw Ding Yuqing looking at her with red eyes.

"What's wrong?" Hesta stood up, "...did you just finish talking to Ms. Xu?"

"Do you have time now."

"Have."

Ding Yuqing breathed out softly, and she fell down on Hesta's bed, "...I want to chat with you for a while."

Hesta closed the book and said, "Say."

Ding Yuqing looked at the ceiling, tears constantly pouring from her eyes.

Hesta pushed the paper on the table, but Ding Yuqing did not move.

"You know, she really thought about running away," Ding Yuqing's voice was almost breathless. "After giving birth to my sister, she had a pen pal. They corresponded every week and talked about everything. That was a big Her older sister has been living in District 3, and my mother wrote a suite for her..."

Hesta suddenly remembered the piano score she found from the attic last time.

"You mean before Miaomiao——"

"Yes, that's the piano score," Ding Yuqing whispered. "My mother originally wanted to send it to her friend, but the other party said it was too precious and was afraid of losing it on the road. She agreed to listen to her performance in person when we met. "

"...Have they met?"

Ding Yuqing's breathing was interrupted by tears again. After a long time, she whispered, "They agreed to leave the 14th District together and go to live in the Third District. The woman directly sent all her documents to my mother, so that My mother bought the ferry ticket on her behalf and went, but... on the morning of the appointment, my mother walked to the pier and regretted it. She threw away her bag and ran back home in despair... She said that It was late spring and early summer, and it suddenly got very cold that day, and she felt that it might be an omen.”

Having said this, Ding Yuqing opened her mouth slightly. She turned her head and looked at Hesta at the desk.

"Jane, do you know why...why she didn't get on the boat?"

Hesta looked at her sadly and said nothing.

"Because, a week before boarding the ship, she found out she had me... for over a month."

Hesta lowered her eyes slightly and remained silent.

"Yuqing, this is not...well, this is not your-"

"I know," Ding Yuqing whispered, "She didn't want to blame me, and I also know that I am not responsible, but..."

Ding Yuqing took a deep breath.

"Ms. Xu, do you still want to go to the third district now?" Hesta said softly.

Ding Yuqing shook her head, "I asked about it, and she said, 'Human courage is limited. There are some things that you will be exhausted after doing it once. It's not that you can't do it again in the future, but you just don't have that thought anymore.'"

In the dim room, Ding Yuqing frowned. She looked at the hazy halo on the ceiling, "Jane, I'm so scared... one day... in the future, one day... will I be like my mother?"

More tears flowed from Ding Yuqing's wide eyes.

"Tired, tired... I have no strength, and then I have no other thoughts. You know, I am now-"

"I'll also write you a check for one million robbies, okay." Hesta whispered, "You can take this money now and do what you want to do."