Why it never ends

Chapter 871 Forgiveness

Ksenia laughed and looked away.

"……are you angry?"

"No," Ksenia looked forward, "My dormitory is here, you should go back early."

"Ksenia..."

"The last performance will be at the beginning of next month. Even if it happens again, I won't be the protagonist," she said softly, "Are you coming?"

"……Come."

"I'll tell you in advance this time, there shouldn't be any special circumstances."

"will not."

Hesta stood at the intersection and watched Ksenia walking towards the entrance of the dormitory. Before entering the door, Ksenia suddenly stopped. When she found that Hesta was still there, she felt a sense of sadness for no reason.

The sad expression at this moment fell into Hesta's heart like a bolt of lightning. She finally felt that something was not right between her and Ksenia tonight. Maybe not only tonight, but during this period of time, the two of them seemed to have nothing to do with each other. Dharma chatted as smoothly as before.

Many times, she had a vague sense that Kseniya was expecting something, but whenever she asked, Kseniya would calmly change the subject elsewhere. Hesta could have continued to ask, but she clearly read a little disappointment on Ksenia's face, as if she did not understand something that she should understand. Hesta was a little at a loss, and the conversation between the two always quickly moved to the next place in such gaps.

Hesta had decided to talk to Ksenia about this issue, but the gap between the moment of making up her mind and the moment of actual meeting was always too long, and there were too many things consuming her strength during this period. Whenever she saw Ksenia, she just wanted to be by her side quietly, even if she didn't say anything.

It seems that because of this, things are slowly getting worse.

Kseniya, who returned to the dormitory, was still thinking about the scene before leaving. Although those suspicions about Hesta made her angry, but when she thought that these suspicions might just be her own misunderstandings, she felt a little more sympathetic to Hesta. Half of the rationality is used to blame the other person, and the other half is used to defend her. People's energy is consumed in such self-confrontation, and Kseniya is also tired of this kind of self.

Suddenly, the phone vibrated, and Kseniya instinctively felt that it might be a message from Hesta. She opened the phone and found that it was indeed the case.

"Lately I have often wanted to apologize to you and ask for your forgiveness... and forgive me for the fact that sometimes I don't know why I ask for forgiveness. I hope you won't be sad, Ksenia."

Ksenia let out a shaky breath and felt her eyes heat up.

If it hadn't been for the sudden scream from the roommate next to her, Kseniya might have shed tears. She tried her best to control her expression so as not to be noticed by others.

"Are you looking at the group? Come on, look at the group!"

"Which group?" One person has almost scratched the screen of his mobile phone with sparks, "I don't see anyone here spreading gossip?"

"It's just our undergraduate alumni group."

"...I told you earlier, it has been blocked for several years," another person said, "Why is the news so exciting and we have to see it with our own eyes? Can't you tell it first?"

"Sister Xiaofei's social account in a niche forum was hacked, and her journey of more than ten years was compiled into a document and sent to the group. How can I describe it in hundreds of thousands of words - look at it, she really knows everything. Write online!”

Ksenia's heart sank suddenly, and she immediately switched screens.

Soon, another person said: "...Hey, why didn't I find it in my chat history?"

"So I want you to take a look quickly, the document has been withdrawn!"

"Isn't it? I reacted quickly enough, right?"

"Forget it, I've finished downloading it. I'll share it with our small group and wait... ok."

Sure enough, a new document appeared in the dormitory group: "A List of Dr. Goofy's Love History (4620-4633)" Kseniya turned back, "Don't spread this kind of thing!"

"I was shocked. Why are you so loud all of a sudden..."

"Withdraw!" Ksenia snapped.

"Just retreat, why are you yelling at me..."

The roommate slowly withdrew the file, but the other two people in the dormitory kept staring at the phone screen without saying a word, obviously having downloaded the file to their phones.

After a while, one of them put down his phone and said, "...Is there a summary version? It's too long."

"Just wait a little longer. It will probably be available tomorrow."

"Someone in my other group is also asking about this. They all saw the screenshot and didn't catch up with downloading the file... Haha, someone shared it."

"Yeah, things will definitely continue to ferment tonight... Hey, why does Miss Xiaofei like girls? She doesn't look like a boy, she's just an ordinary girl."

"I don't understand," another person said. "A person with normal orientation like me can't understand anyway. There may be some childhood shadow——"

Ksenia got up and left the dormitory.

The roommates looked at each other with surprise.

"...Why is she so excited?"

"Hey, it's not the first day she's been like this. What do you care about--oh, someone made a long and summarized picture. Did you see it?"

"You can just send it to the small group, the one where Ksenia is not here."

……

That night, Hesta watched the phone for a long time and never received a reply from Ksenia. While waiting, she felt that she had fallen into that state of powerlessness and conflict again. She rolled out of bed, went to the living room, and started editing the email to Office No. 2 on the table where Eucalyptus once burned the midnight oil.

This email has two purposes. One is to request Office No. 2 to arrange a re-evaluation of his mental state as soon as possible, and the other is to express his desire to return to combat order.

When writing the second part, a slight sense of guilt lingered in her. She thought of Ksenia again, and recalled that she had talked with Ksenia about what she wanted to do in the next five years. At that time, Ksenia said that she might go to the first district for a period of exchange, and then return to the fourteenth district. She might stay in Songxueyuan, or she might go south to Pingjing.

Ksenia asked Hesta what he planned to do next, but Hesta couldn't tell clearly. She thought that she would probably return to the battle sequence of AHgAs, return to the front line of fighting against chelates, and wait until she had re-anchored her position before making the next step.

How could we discuss such a matter with Ksenia?

Hesta wrote very quickly and clicked send without making any changes. She copied Yu Xuekun and Qianye to the email. In the next two weeks, she might need to call Miss Qianye again.

The phone rang and Hesta answered, "Hello."

Ksenia's voice came from the other end of the phone.

"Where are you?"

Hesta heard the traffic and the wind, she stood up, "...where are you?"

"Near the school." Kseniya replied, "Where are you? I'll find you."