Why it never ends

Chapter 880 Silence

It was a special sound, so special that she would never forget it.

Ding Yuqing watched Ding Guisheng's bones break into smaller parts. She shivered uncontrollably, as if someone was holding a square hammer to crush her.

Xu Ruyi gently held her daughter's shoulders and whispered, "Let's go out."

Ding Yuqing lowered her head and silently followed Xu Ruyi outside.

The sun was shining brightly outside the funeral home, but Ding Yuqing still couldn't help but shiver as she looked at the bright white light. She leaned closely against Xu Ruyi's body and kept looking sideways at her mother's expression - Xu Ruyi was always calm as usual.

At this moment, Ding Yuqing suddenly felt that her mother was indeed an adult, and she finally turned back into the little girl who would sneak into her father's room during nap time. She could retreat to her daughter's position with peace of mind and place her fears on her mother's side. shoulders.

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For several days, Ding Yuqing could not sleep alone and had to take leave to rest at home. The firelight and square hammers in the funeral home always suddenly invaded her sleep - she would dream of being placed on a cold metal bed and being pushed into the crematorium by strangers.

Such nightmares are certainly scary, but as soon as you wake up, the happiness of the rest of your life will wash away the fear... What really makes Ding Yuqing sleepless at night is another thing: although she is still young at the moment, she is still far away from death. Far away, but Xu Ruyi has already half-stepped into the grave.

One day - she didn't know how long that day would be - she would step into the funeral parlor alone and watch Xu Ruyi, who had fallen into a long sleep, turn into a pile of bones... and then be crushed.

This thing that was bound to happen was like a bleeding wound, and Ding Yuqing did not dare to think deeply about it. Every time the thought occurred, she would convulse with pain.

One night, Ding Yuqing dreamed that Xu Ruyi was dead. She cried and hiccupped in her sleep, and was woken up by Xu Ruyi. Under the dim bedside lamp, Ding Yuqing hugged her mother tightly, her tears soaking the pillow and leaving wet traces on the pajamas on Xu Ruyi's chest.

"Mom," Ding Yuqing said softly, "can you live to be a hundred years old?"

Xu Ruyi patted her daughter on the back, "Okay, if I work hard, Xiaoqing can live to be a hundred years old."

Ding Yuqing shook her head vigorously, "...it's enough for me to live to be seventy years old."

Xu Ruyi was stunned for a while before she understood what her daughter meant.

"Don't be afraid," she said softly.

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Regarding Ding Guisheng's sudden death, the whole family never mentioned it in front of Ding Xueyang. They only said that some of Ding Guisheng's friends took him to farm and fish in a village in the south. It was conservatively estimated that he would stay there for three months. Ding Xueyang was surprised that his father just left, but he didn't ask any more questions - although he rarely showed interest in going out for fun in the past, this kind of greeting with the whole family was not the same. It suited his temperament to jump into some project as soon as he started talking.

Ding Yuqing rested at home for four days and then returned to school. Before going back to school, she found someone to move the piano from the attic to the living room. Xu Ruyi sat hesitantly in front of the piano keys. Before he could open the piano cover, a piece of lime fell from the ceiling and hit the metronome without any bias.

A thin piece of lime suddenly fell. Although the movement was a bit scary, it would not cause serious harm even if it fell on someone.

However, what puzzled Ding Xueyang was that Ding Yuqing lost her temper on the spot and looked very annoyed. That afternoon, Ding Yuqing went out and printed out two talismans and pasted them on the piano and bench when she came back. Ding Xueyang asked her sister what she was doing, and Ding Yuqing replied, "Don't worry about it." Ding Xueyang found it funny, but didn't ask any more questions. However, even though Ding Yuqing moved the piano to the living room, Xu Ruyi didn't touch it much in the following days.

Sometimes she would stand in front of the piano and stare at the black paint in a daze. But most of the time, Xu Ruyi still sat at the dining table knitting with her canvas bag in hand. She loved knitting, and while she was knitting she had no time to think about anything else.

Sometimes, Xu Ruyi would be grateful for the coincidence of fate - fortunately, she had a pregnant woman at home, which gave her an excuse to keep silent about Ding Guisheng's death. After Ding Guisheng's first birthday, a man also died in another family in the community. Xu Ruyi organized an event with the woman from that family, and although they were not familiar with her, she also received a funeral invitation. She originally thought that the other party didn't know her situation and just sent a general invitation letter, so she didn't go. However, one day after the funeral, the two met at the vegetable market, and the other party specifically asked, "Why didn't you come yesterday?" Xu Ruyi Only then did I realize that the invitation was not just out of courtesy.

The two walked together for a while, and the newly mourned woman asked her what she planned to do when she returned home after taking so many carrot tassels. Xu Ruyi was stunned for a while, and then she answered that she could chop the pancake into pieces, or blanch it and add it to the salad, and eat it mixed with carrot slices and shredded lettuce. The radish leaves are very tough and can increase the taste.

The woman said that she has heard about your craftsmanship for a long time, and it would be great if she could invite you to her home to cook a meal together.

Xu Ruyi was stunned again and asked the other party if it would be inconvenient.

The woman said, "What's the inconvenience? My guy didn't like guests in the house before, but now he's gone. I'll invite whoever I want."

Xu Ruyi laughed after hearing this and made an appointment with the woman.

Before parting, the woman suddenly asked, when will your family's funeral be held?

Only then did Xu Ruyi realize that the other party knew about Ding Guisheng. She was a little flustered and whispered, "...it's not appropriate now, please wait."

"Put it off for a while, it's good to put it off for a while," the woman said. "If you don't care about the gift money, then it's okay to put it off for a long time. Funerals are really annoying. There are always so many people counting on you. Crying, as if I can’t get through it without shedding two tears.”

Xu Ruyi was fascinated by what he heard. It wasn't until the other party waved goodbye to her that she nodded and waved her hand.

One week before Miaomiao's birthday, Hesta came to visit with fruits. As soon as Xu Ruyi saw her, he immediately saw from Hesta's eyes that she also knew about Ding Guisheng, but in the presence of Ding Xueyang, the two of them chatted tacitly about the fish farm in the south for a while.

When they were alone in the living room, Hesta asked quietly, "Is everything okay?"

"Fortunately..." Xu Ruyi whispered, "He had a cerebral hemorrhage and walked very quickly. The police said there was no pain."

"Are you okay?" Hesta asked again.

Xu Ruyi didn't know how to answer this question. She frowned and didn't speak for a long time. She didn't wake up from her thoughts again until Miao Miao rushed out of Ding Xueyang's room and greeted Hesta happily.

"By the way, Jane, I have a gift for you."

"Me?" Hesta looked at her curiously, "What gift?"

Xu Ruyi took out a woolen hat, a pair of woolen gloves and a scarf from the room. She picked up the hat and placed it on Hesta's head - it was just the right size.