After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

Chapter 331 325. We will always be friends.

What is life?

For me, this question lost its original meaning on that snowy night when I was young.

My life.

The life of Saori Konishi.

It was over that day.

Every day I spent after that was nothing more than interpreting the plots that appeared in the script, and I couldn't find "Xiaonishi Saori"'s own will anywhere.

The will of "Little Nishi Saori"?

There is no such thing in this world.

Whether it's going to a university, becoming a voice actor, or suddenly marrying a long-lost childhood sweetheart.

Nothing is of my own will.

I am like a mindless robot, walking in this world that has nothing to do with me.

Only... "I hurt Kazuto at that time".

Only this incident is the fact that I committed it with my own will.

Now it seems that whether it is me in the past or me in the present.

It is inevitable to hurt him.

I've always... wanted to apologize to him.

But now, I can't tell for a long time, my will to apologize, really...is it from "my" own will?
Forget it, that kind of thing is fine anyway.

Come to think of it, he doesn't need my cheap apology.

All he needs is for me to disappear from his presence.

Only occasionally.

If I am still me, I can freely do what I want to do, and when I am an adult, I will lose my childishness and meet him now.

Is there any chance between us?

Probably... not.

I hated the thoughts I had, hated putting all my faults on the script, trying to be self-righteous.

What is done is done, no matter how beautiful and poignant the story is, it cannot change this fact.

Besides, this story is not nice, not poignant.

It's ugly, it's ridiculous.

Ridiculous.

It is precisely because of this that when I see the future of Heren and Yousha, I feel more joy than sadness, although I feel somewhat lonely.

But in this way, things will go smoothly between them, and I just need to be their friend and watch them silently.

That's why I said that to Yousha on the phone at that time.

All I look forward to is a happy ending for the two of them.

But I didn't expect Sand's reaction.

It turned out that I didn't know her at all, she was obviously a close friend.

Why can't I get what I want?
Even once is fine, why can't things unfold in the direction I expected?
So what is the purpose of these choices I made?

I'm just like that... don't I deserve to spy on happiness?

……

……

"Yousha, I... don't mean that."

Xiao Nishi Saori is just a poor mortal after all, no matter how good at acting, when his heart is greatly shaken, he can't hide the sadness and loneliness in his eyes.

Qingshui Yousha was silent for a while, and was about to say something, but was interrupted by the waiter who came with the food.

After the waiter left, Qing Shui Yousha gradually calmed down. What he said just now must have broken the heart of his friend.

"sorry."

She couldn't think of anything she should say other than to apologize.

Xiao Nishi Saori shook her head slightly, and forced a smile on her face. At this moment, she realized that she had been doing such difficult things all the time.

It is such a painful thing to be forced to make an expression that is different from the heart.

The usual little Nishi Saori is really amazing.

"Has my existence troubled Yousha?"

Her expression, her tone, are all telling the sadness in her heart.

Former friends, each experiencing the sadness that can only be tasted by themselves.

Sadness, regardless of size, right or wrong.

"It's not Saori's fault, I just... haven't sorted out my mood yet."

"That's it."

Xiao Nishi Saori can understand, can understand her mood, can understand her behavior.

As long as I play the role of "the heroine's friend" in this script that does not belong to her.

Give her positive encouragement when she is confused.

It's okay, she thinks she can do it.

Even if no one comforts her, no one encourages her, she is struggling alone with something in this world, she has already decided to do her best to support her friend's relationship.

"Yousha, you really like being with people."

"Of course!"

Qing Shui You Sha answered very quickly, and didn't show a worried expression until he blurted out.

Xiaoxi Sazhi smiled back: "Then it's no problem, Yousha is a good girl, and he must have noticed this in Kasumi before dating you, so show some confidence."

"Confidence...?"

"I know Yousha, she is a brave girl, isn't she?"

Qing Shui Yousha lowered his head, and after a long silence, nodded.

"I will... work hard. I don't want Herensang to regret his decision to be with me. I absolutely want to make him happy."

That's the idea.

The courage to speak out what is in her heart at once is something that Xiaonishi Saori cannot possess.

A little... a little envious.

"He Rensang always keeps everything in his heart and never confides in others. Just looking at it makes him feel uncomfortable."

Xiao Xi Sazhi stretched out her hand, and quietly squeezed the sandy hand of Qingshui, and comforted:

"If there is sand, it will definitely heal him."

Qingshui Yousha looked at the clenched hand, and slowly looked at Saori Xiaoxi, the emotion in his eyes seemed to have fallen into the endless sea and found the lighthouse of redemption.

"Saori, are we... still friends?"

Uneasiness and guilt were written on Qing Shui Yousha's timid cheeks.

Xiao Nishi Saori couldn't help feeling distressed.

Compared with her own heart, which has already been riddled with holes and gradually numb, Xiaoxi Saori wants to care for the pure heart that has not been touched by despair.

Of course, we will always be good friends.

……

……

"Choose."

With the appearance of the sound, everything around me was stained with collapsed colors, and Yousha, who was sitting opposite me, had broken space cracks on his face.

Even so, she was still beautiful and good-looking.

Much more beautiful than me.

And the options that appeared in front of me made my thinking stop and collapse at this moment.

……

【You are not my friend. 】

【I like being with people. 】

……

Looking at the life options that appeared in front of my eyes, and after witnessing the direction of the two options, I smiled confusedly, with tears in my eyes.

God, how far are you going to play with me?

I was robbed of my life, robbed of everything.

This time, are you even going to take away my most important friend?
I slowly closed my eyes, tears ran across my cheeks, dripping and freezing in mid-air.

While laughing at his own fate, he personally opened the future script.

"There is sand..."

(End of this chapter)