After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

Chapter 697 690. Only me, who never owned anything.

【One year and seven months ago】

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"That night, what I said..."

I couldn't help but my heart skipped a beat, and I faintly felt that Kazuto-san wanted to say something to me.

His right hand trembled uncontrollably, and the small metal spoon in his hand touched the plate, making subtle knocking sounds.

This sound came to my ears, as if it was the messenger of the soul lock, who wanted to take me away to a world without him.

I thought, I couldn't bear it.

In that world where there is no Herensang, I will be alone again.

Am I doing something wrong?

I did something irreparable to Saori and Neru-san. Not only did I lose their friendship, but also Kazuto-san?

Or, did I never have him?

Holding my trembling right hand with my left hand, I tried my best to move the corners of my mouth, trying to show him a reassuring smile: "Ah... Kazuto-san, what's the matter, it's so solemn."

Mogami Kazuto took a deep breath, and looked at Shang Shimizu Yusa's bright eyes that were holding back tears.

Open your mouth slowly.

"It's from my heart."

"…………"

"You are no longer the clear water with sand that I like."

Ah~~ so...

Since then, I have been unable to approach him anymore.

That was probably his firmest refusal so far, a strong denial from Kazuto-san who always thought he obeyed me.

Those hugs and those kisses, those memories all become clear and blurred at this moment, clear because of depth, blurred because they are about to pass away.

No matter how much I stretch out my hand to grab them in the palm of my hand, those memories slip through my fingers like flying dust, dissipating with the July wind.

The first kiss, the first hug, the first time I showed him my body, the first time... being pushed away by him.

I wept silently. Dou Da’s tears seemed to turn into entities, and fell one by one on the dinner plate. The words written in ketchup on the omelet rice were melted away by my tears. After my mouth leaked out, it was the second sound, and the third sound.

No matter how I restrained myself, the voice just leaked out involuntarily, and I almost bit my lip.

I'm really...a disqualified voice actor.

"Sorry, there's sand."

"Really sorry."

Heren-sang kept apologizing to me, every "I'm sorry" was his deterrent to push me away.

I don't want to leave him at all.

In order to let him only look at me, in order to make him my property, I discarded many things, and even made myself not like myself, becoming a bad woman who took advantage of friendship and tore it apart.

All this is just to keep him by my side.

In the process, I personally discarded the most important thing of clear water and sand.

Because I have changed, I have become no longer pure, I have become full of scheming, I have become unscrupulous in order to get him, and I have nothing...

"Yousha, I think... let's break up."

I can't hear you.

All the voices of this world are inaudible.

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"Pray...for help?"

Neru-san's voice recalled my thoughts. When I came back to my senses, I was still in the booth of this coffee shop. Neru-san, who was wearing a beret in front of me, looked at me carefully.

There was concern in her eyes.

Even though I have done extremely bad things to her, she still tries to play the role of sister.

I know that a narrow-minded girl like me can't have such sincerity like her anyway.

It's really enviable.

Drive me mad with envy.

Even so, the way I view her at the moment leaves nothing but blessings.

That is a man who cannot be tamed by clean water and sand, Neru-san should be the most docile girl in this world who can tame him.

Except Saori.

I can see that Neru-san conquered that person's heart by relying on his strong willfulness and unyielding sincerity, so that he can no longer move his eyes to other girls.

Kazuto-sang will be deeply immersed in her sincerity and experience the most beautiful love in the world.

I don't think any man can refuse to fall in love with a girl with such personality and troublesomeness as Naru-san.

As for Saori, even if he doesn't do anything or say anything, every move can make him lose his mind. Only in front of Saori, he is the real him, without any disguise.

Even Neru-san couldn't do this.

Just me and nothing.

Nothing ever happened.

Are you uncomfortable?
I think there is.

But more regret, sadness, and an indescribable sense of powerlessness.

"I'm fine, Neru-san."

I say.

Neru-san stared at me for a long time with her clear and bright eyes. I think my eyes must not be as pure and flawless as hers. Through those almost transparent eyes, I can almost see the world on the other side.

"Feel sorry……"

I hurriedly waved my hands and forced a smile: "Come on, don't do this, I feel so stressed when you apologize like this."

"...um, hug..."

She swallowed it back this time, and I smiled, trying not to make her feel guilty.

If it was me at that time, I think I would not be able to do this. It is the pain, shame, and various memories that that person gave me that made me the clear water and sand that I am now.

"And then, what did Neru-san think?"

"What... did you think?"

"Well, let me tell you, simply take this opportunity to be honest and open, although you will encounter some unpleasant things, but in essence, this is a matter between Neru-san and him.

Considering those irrelevant people, I don't think it's Neur-san's character. "

Neru-san didn't answer my words, she became a little different from before, she looked timid, which worried me.

"Hey... pray for help."

"Ah."

"Is it really right for me to do this?"

"Neru-san should have the answer in his heart. It depends on the result you want to achieve. In my opinion, if the result of something is predetermined, it is better to be earlier than later.

The sooner you welcome it, the sooner you can get through it. "

There seemed to be hesitation in her eyes. I think she was being shaken by my words, but I couldn't make a decision for her. I was just an unrelated person, a spectator watching the game.

Recognizing one's own position is the truth I gained from that love affair. I can't judge whether this conclusion is right or wrong, but at least for Qingshui Yousha, I want to implement it.

I don't want to have that kind of experience again.

"Kinosuke, you are still so strong..."

I smiled and said nothing.

I know she didn't mean to be sarcastic, but no, neru-san.

I'd rather not be strong myself if I could.

I couldn't cry coquettishly in that person's arms, so I could only become strong silently by myself.

Different from you.

(End of this chapter)