After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

After I told everything I knew, I vaguely heard something like "I will never let her go" from the girl I faced.

I'm sorry, Miss Ogura, I betrayed you accidentally, I'm really sorry.

"Really, that Yui-chan, you're just saying unnecessary things."

Miss Rigao's voice was soft, and it was rare to hear a hint of embarrassment, probably regretting that she would like a scumbag like me.

"Anyway, please don't take her words to heart, Totsuka-kun. It's been a long time since I liked Totsuka-kun."

"I know."

"Tsk! Why are you so relieved to answer?"

"Then I should cry, please change back to Miss Rigao?"

"That's interesting, but I'm not interested in men's sad faces."

Miss Hidaka still used a relaxed tone, but when I stopped talking, the atmosphere around me became stiff again.

I know that Ms. Hidaka, who is strong, wants to solve everything by herself, and she absolutely does not want to show her weakness in front of others.

Perhaps only in front of Miss Ogura, who is a close friend, will Miss Hidaka temporarily shed her disguise. People like me are definitely unable to touch her heart.

Even so, I still want to do something for her.

"Hey, Totsuka-kun, can you answer a question for me? It's best to tell the truth."

"If it's a question I can't answer, even if I'm silent, I won't lie."

"Although this sounds cool, if you think about it carefully, you just refuse to tell the truth, which is too bad."

I smiled slightly, without making a sound.

"Well... anyway, I don't expect everything that Totsuka-kun said to me to be true, because Totsuka-kun has no credibility with me anymore."

"It's really sad."

Miss Hidaka took a sip of her coffee, leaving light powder marks on the ceramic cup. I couldn't help but wonder what her lips would taste like.

"Totsuka-kun, have you ever hated yourself?"

An inexplicable question, but I came to a conclusion very decisively.

"I just hated myself so much," she said.

"I have many shortcomings that I can't tolerate, but this thing seems to be a completely different perception from myself in the eyes of others. This is the same for others. For example, I like petite sauce very much. Yuyi, but she always complains that she doesn't have a more mature body."

"To put it simply, it's what you have and what others don't have." I continued.

"If it's a mature body, I don't have it either, but I don't want to talk about such superficial things, um... can't describe it well."

She seemed to be struggling with how to organize her words.

"It's okay, I can probably understand what Miss Hidaka is trying to say."

"Uh...that's it.

Totsuka-kun possesses everything outstanding, I really want to know what is the difference between a person like Totsuka-kun who lacks everything, and me, and whether he will have the same thoughts as mere mortals. "...

"I'm a mortal too, roughly."

"Roughly?"

"Miss Rigao knows." I lifted my temple a little: "I don't seem to be normal here, so I'm probably a little different from Miss Rigao."

She is different from me. Ms. Hidaka hates herself because she wants to become better, and hopes to obtain everything better than she is now through her own efforts, and pursue a more perfect self.

And I just hate myself, I feel from the bottom of my heart that a guy like me should not be born as a human being, what is even more unacceptable to me is that I can't stop doing things that are more annoying when I am tired of myself thing.

"I can't say clearly, maybe I don't care about my own affairs at all.

Words like likes or dislikes don't make any sense to me.

And I think it's a personal subjective consciousness. Miss Hidaka hates the part of herself, which is exactly what I like.And I don't have any qualities worthy of anyone's liking.

And Miss Hidaka hates that she is just an excellent person belittling herself, and my badness is the consensus of everyone. "

"It's an unpleasant statement."

"Because I am an unpleasant person myself, there is nothing wrong with it."

"Furthermore, I don't have everything as Miss Hidaka said, on the contrary, it is because I have nothing that I am sitting opposite Miss Hidaka like now, chasing after you, which makes me feel Bright stuff."

"That's a really stupid idea."

I chuckled and shook my head: "Yeah, I think so too, obviously even if I catch you, those things won't belong to me."

"Could it be that Totsuka-kun has this mentality towards all girls?"

"Who knows, I don't even know myself."

"Hmm... I'm a little curious about Totsuka-kun's twisted psychology. If Totsuka-kun finds out this answer in the future, please tell me."

I smiled bitterly: "Your character is also distorted."

"That's my business, don't worry about Totsuka-kun, compared to these, didn't Totsuka-kun say he wants to help me? I'll just accept your help with good intentions."

"Why the condescending tone?"

"This is an opportunity to increase my favorability, doesn't Totsuka-kun want to pursue me?"

"Starting at the point in time when you said your favorability, it means that no matter what I do, I will not be able to improve. This is a fixed point."

Miss Rigao in front of her giggled happily, shouting that she was right.

Before you know it, the sun is setting, and this bustling city is dyed with a magical color. No matter how many times you watch it, you will feel a sense of unreal beauty.

Under the glamorous appearance, there are ugly people and ugly things, and I am one of them.

Ms. Hidaka seems to be particularly fascinated by watching the sunset. Since that train journey, she seems to have become more fond of watching the sunset. This slight change somehow calms me down.

After leaving the cafe, Miss Hidaka beside her stretched her waist greatly. Her small and exquisite body has unexpectedly uneven curves. I really underestimated her.

Although still wearing a mask, the headscarf and sunglasses have been taken off.

"Hey, Totsuka-kun, do you have time tonight?" She suddenly looked at me.

"Yes, yes, why?"

"What's the matter, didn't you say you want to help me? If you don't discuss it, you can do it. I just bought you a drink. I made an appointment last time."

"Oh, there is indeed such a thing."

"Hey, let me say, do you really like me? How could you even forget this kind of thing, ah~ah~~ If I knew it earlier, I wouldn't have reminded you."