After getting married, a popular seiyuu suddenly moved to my house

In the dead of night in the ward, I lay on the bed, staring at the dark ceiling in a daze.

I don't feel the passage of time, I don't feel that the air is moving, everything is frozen in this moment.

I can't stop to think about what I've done so far and what I should do in the future.

A person like me may die ten thousand times, but it is not enough to appease the broken hearts of those girls.

I never thought that there was such a terrible desire hidden in my heart.

I don't want to deny myself like that, it's my sin, it's also a part of me.

It doesn't make my guilt any less, it just makes me loathe myself more, and I'm still a wretch.

Accept your mediocrity, admit your ugliness, and then do what you should do.

I have made a choice.

I would not deceive them, not any of them.

I regained my desire to "be a sincere person", but unfortunately this is an unattainable goal.

Am I qualified to say that I love her now?
If I love Caiyin, can I say "love" to Sha and the others?

It's disgusting.

How could someone fall in love with more than one girl at the same time, I have to sicken at the thought.

I just want to be with the girl I love for the rest of my life and try to make her happy. It doesn't matter if she is not rich or wealthy. I just want to fulfill all the promises I made to her.

But now, I'm completely lost.

If it's true that I want to spend the rest of my life with Caiyin, then...is my feeling about Yousha, Lisha and Lina at this moment fake?
How should I face Caiyin and those girls who love me in the future.

I dated Caiyin for more than two years, and nearly half of the time, I maintained an affair with Yusa, not to mention that I hurt Miss Taneda and Miss Hidaka afterwards.

Even for me now, to say that I don't like the other three at all is simply nonsense.

I've really become a scumbag who likes several girls at the same time.

Pain, sadness, despair, I tasted the negative emotions that had accumulated in my heart for nearly a year, and it almost overwhelmed my sanity.

Simply, disappear from this world.

When I think so.

She walked into the ward.

……

……

I stood in front of He Renjun's ward for a long time, but I still didn't have the courage to go in.

I don't know what kind of expression I should use to face him. Similarly, I don't want him to see my vulnerable side.

From the bottom of my heart, I don't want him to see my tears.

Is he taking pleasure in hurting me?

If that's the case, I won't let him do what he wants. Not only can I not cry, but I have to laugh, laugh hard, laughing that he is a worthless guy.

Laughing at him as a stupid guy who doesn't understand my kindness, he would go looking for a woman other than me. I must not shed tears for this kind of headless man.

I raised my head, sniffed, and stubbornly held back my tears. …

Let him see it.

Meet the current Sakura Ayane.

After walking into the ward, I saw his haggard face. Apart from disgusting me, I felt a little distressed.

This is also something that can't be helped, the development is too sudden, and I haven't been able to fully transform my identity.

Even so, I don't intend to give him a good face.

Some things, no matter what, I have to tell him clearly.

I walked over silently and sat down on the chair beside his bed. He stood up without saying a word. The gauze wrapped around his forehead did not see any blood stains. I thought the bleeding had stopped, so I breathed a sigh of relief.

"Caiyin...?"

"You can't even recognize my face? It's so nice to be a popular man, it's enviable."

I didn't hide my sarcasm at all, he looked very guilty and remorseful, the more he was like this, the more I couldn't restrain my anger.

Even for me, it takes a lot of courage to use such a cold tone to talk to a man I love so much, even to whom I have entrusted my whole life.

But why do you still have such an expression on your face?

I'm already, I won't be fooled by you again.

"You just... don't you have anything to say to me? Don't you think you can get away with just talking nonsense like that and pretending to be dead?"

"……sorry."

库！
I clenched my fists.

No, you can't cry in front of him.

I kept repeating this admonishment to myself in my heart.

"Young Nani..."

I made a slightly trembling voice. I actually wanted to have better control, but the voice didn't listen to me. This is already the limit.

"Isn't that the only sentence you want to say?"

"For such a disgusting act, it's over if you say sorry, you don't really think so?!"

"........."

"Hey... You said something, what did you say, Mogami Kazuto!
Aren't you very eloquent?
Aren't you good at sweet talk?
Isn't it possible to fool girls around? !

Now!
Come and convince me to take a look!
Come on, lie to me again! "

No matter how I shook my voice, He Renjun kept his head down, and I couldn't even see what his expression was like at the moment.

"I don't want to lie anymore."

His words completely ignited my anger.

I frantically grabbed his collar, tears almost rushed out of my eyes.

But I held back, tried my best to hold back.

"Stop kidding, stop kidding!
Why, why don't you look into my eyes and talk! ? "

"........."

"You have been lying to me so far, and you have been lying to me... This must be a very pleasant thing for you!

'It's great that this guy is a stupid woman who doesn't know anything! 'There must be such an idea! "

"Caiyin, I..."

"It's over!

"

If I didn't restrain my voice and my emotions, I couldn't restrain anything, and I couldn't own anything.

The happiness I thought I had long ago was just an illusory bubble. When the bubble burst, my heart was splashed all over my body by the liquid that was emitting white smoke, eroding me completely.

I tried my best not to let my tears fall, as if my heart was being torn apart, it made me feel so much pain.

Already, there is nothing more to say.

I'm really tired, so tired, so tired.

Weakly loosening his collar, I took off the ring he had put on for me with difficulty and determination, my mind was full of the sincere and gentle eyes when he proposed to me, if even those eyes were fake, He pretended to deceive me.

What should I believe in the future?

After all, the tears dripped unsatisfactorily.

But I can't stop here, the man I love so much is nowhere to be found.

"Mogami Kazuto, you really make me sick."