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Chapter 119 I don't know who I followed

Xie Yuan couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence, and asked: "If I have outstanding military exploits and are admired by others, why would I become a laughing stock?... Is it because I am a girl?"

"Yes." Father Xie said sadly, "People in the world have different criteria for judging men and women. What is required of men is meritorious deeds, but what is required of women is virtue. Especially in terms of virtue, for women The requirements are even several times stricter than those of men."

He paused, then asked Xie Yuan:
"What do you consider to be a woman's virtue? — Firstly chaste and chaste, secondly demeanor and obedience. When you enter the military camp, you have completely ruined this virtue. If people find out in the future and gossip and criticize you, what should you do?" where?"

Xie Yuan frowned lightly, his Danfeng eyes were full of unwillingness and helplessness, and said:

"Father, this makes no sense. Why is there such a distinction between men and women? Shouldn't it be different from person to person? Judge by talent?"

Father Xie stretched out his finger and pointed at the table in front of him, and said excitedly but helplessly: "There has never been a woman in this 'scholar'."

"It doesn't make sense..." Xie Yuan wanted to cry, he pressed his lips tightly, and repeated it helplessly.

Father Xie frowned and said, "In this world, you think there are so many things that don't make sense, from small things like stealing to big things like stealing the country, which one is reasonable, doesn't it happen every day?"

His tone turned distressed again, and he said, "Child, you are alive, you can't let yourself be an enemy of the whole world, let yourself hit your head and bleed and die... You have to learn to compromise and learn to adapt to reality. If not, The only one you suffer is yourself, meaningless!"

Xie Yuan gritted his teeth when he heard this, and looked at his own father for a long time without speaking, and finally said stubbornly:

"I'm not afraid of bleeding, and I don't care what other people say. I just want to do my own thing. If that day comes, I will never regret it."

Xie Yun's expression was very vicissitudes, and he said: "You are still young, how do you know what 'regret' feels like? If you really regret it by then, it will be too late, and there will be no room for maneuver."

"Father, I have made up my mind and I will never regret it. I will always remember this moment. No matter how much I suffer in the future, I will never complain." Xie Yuan remained unmoved and remained firm.

Xie Yun looked down at the table in front of him, was silent for a while, and said:

"It's against the law for a woman to dress up as a man and enter the military camp. If you have the opportunity to meet the emperor in the future, you will be deceiving the emperor even more. The law is ruthless. At that time, what should you do?"

Xie Yuan said: "It's all borne by me alone. My parents are now living in the territory of the Northern Dynasty. I served as a soldier in the Southern Dynasty. Although Master is also involved, he can shirk without knowing it. Even if my crime is punished by then, it will be fine. It can only be cured on my own head."

Xie Yun reminded her: "A Yuan! That's a capital offense!"

"If I was afraid of death, I wouldn't enlist in the army." Xie Yuan said quickly, and he answered the words so quickly that Xie Yun was stunned for a moment.

As if he was meeting his daughter for the first time, he looked at her and thought to himself: So, she has thought about everything she should have thought about...it's just that he thought she had never thought about it.

In the room, there were two elders who had broken their hearts, and a stubborn young man. After a moment of sighing, there was a long silence...

Suddenly, Father Xie let out a long sigh and said, "Fortunately, your marriage has already been settled, so you don't have to worry about not being able to get married in the future, and another worry. Decided not to take it seriously, on the contrary, he is still very supportive...I don't know if he understands..."

After speaking, he looked up at Shen Qingzhi who was beside him, and said, "Brother Shen, what do you think?"

Father Shen looked at the excited Xie Yuan, sighed and said:
"What do I think?... If you hadn't kept it from me back then, I wouldn't be so heartbroken like I am now... Yuan'er is a good seedling, if it just collapsed in front of my eyes, I really can't bear it."

This sentence was expected by Father Xie, his face was a little pale, and he looked at Xie Yuan who was opposite him reluctantly.

But Xie Yuan, with a particularly immature face, smiled happily and happily.

Xie Yun felt a pain in his heart, and only one thought came to his mind—childish and innocent, ignorant and fearless.

He stretched out his hand to support the table and stood up, turned around and walked away, as if he was afraid that if he slowed down a little, he would change his mind, he arrived at the door in two or three steps.

Xie Yuan thought that her father was angry, and he was no longer going to recognize her, so he panicked and stood there at a loss.

Unexpectedly, Father Xie finally stopped at the door, and with a slight sideways face, he said:
"Find a chance, go back and show your mother, otherwise, she will always think I'm lying to her."

After that, he left without looking back.

Father Shen and Xie Yuan chased him out, and saw that he was really about to get on his horse and leave.Father Shen persuaded:
"Brother Xie, I finally found Yuan'er. After a meal, you can talk more before leaving."

Father Xie never looked at Xie Yuan again, and said:

"No, I've said all that needs to be said. A Yuan will be taken care of by Brother Shen, and I'm leaving."

The rest of the Xie family he had brought had already gotten on the horse with winks. At this time, as soon as Father Xie finished speaking, he turned the horse's head, and the group of people galloped away without looking back.

"...Dad!" Xie Yuan looked at their leaving backs, suddenly felt abandoned, and couldn't help calling him loudly.

But her father didn't respond at all, and still left without looking back.

At this moment, Xie Yuan suddenly realized that when he suddenly left without saying goodbye, and left his back to his parents decisively, their parents called her sternly from behind, what kind of mood should it be?
She felt guilty all of a sudden, tears streaming down uncontrollably.

On the other side, Father Xie, who was galloping on a horse, was also crying, afraid that the servants would see him in a panic, so he ran at the forefront, raising his hand from time to time to wipe the tears on his face, and sighed sadly. One sound:
"Oh... I really don't know who you followed."

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In April, the vegetation in the hunting ground is still desolate, with withered and yellow colors everywhere, rarely mixed with the fresh green of spring.

Shen Liuzhen was riding on the horse, holding the bow in his hand just for decoration, running back and forth beside Wu Lei, without a single prey.

Ulay's face was not very good-looking, he seemed to be very irritable, and all the arrows he shot missed.

The more he fought, the more anxious he became. In the end, all the prey were startled by him, and he didn't know where they went, and he couldn't find any more.

So a group of riders, dogs, and hawks all became walkers in early spring, wandering slowly in the woods.

Shen Liuzhen walked side by side with him, looked at his face, and asked: "The emperor's grandson has something on his mind? Can you talk to the grassroots?"

Ulay glanced at him, and then at the people behind him. His eyes swept around sharply. A young eunuch who was following him immediately gave him a wink, beckoning him to stop where he was, and stay away from the two of them. .

(End of this chapter)