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Chapter 619 Do you have any regrets?

Xie Yuan had never thought about the problem from this angle, she raised her face and thought for a while and said:
"Before I came out of the house, I never thought that those who didn't eat or drink would suffer. I just felt...the house was too rigid, I couldn't bear it, and I couldn't bear it. After I left the house, I realized that it turned out that leaving home was so difficult. bitter."

"Oh...you are so courageous, you dared to run out without knowing anything. Fortunately, nothing happened, otherwise your parents would not have cried to death....What happened later? After suffering, there is No regrets?"

Xie Yuan said: "I did, but when I think about it, nothing will change after I go home. I really can't stay any longer. I endured it and regretted it. Then I got used to it. It has been many years. I haven't been home yet..."

Madam Guan showed pity for her again, and asked:

"Then do your parents know your current situation?...What do they say?"

Xie Yuan listened to her words, thought for a while, poured out the sewage in the basin, and said:

"I should know, I haven't written to them, maybe they are waiting for me to go home."

Mrs. Guan chased after her, feeling that Xie Yuan was so beautiful holding a basin and pouring water, so she couldn't help but take another look, raised her face and asked: "Then...then you don't want to go home?"

Xie Yuan was stunned for a moment, and Danfeng's eyes flickered, thinking about what her parents said before, and thinking about the result of her current crushing defeat.

To think that they might be glad that she had failed, that she was finally home.He will say look at it, we have already told you that if you don't listen, you have to mess around.She couldn't help being sad.

Xie Yuandan lowered his phoenix eyes halfway, concealing the coldness in his heart, and said coldly:

"Do not want to."

"Then, will you continue to be a general in Wei State in the future?...Did they agree to let you be a general?...It's also possible. yes, right?"

Xie Yuan frowned suddenly, surprised by the contradiction in Guan Niangzi's words.

Barbaric and uncivilized, but she can tolerate her being a female general... Is the word barbaric good or bad?
Lady Guan looked at Xie Yuan and said nothing, Xie Yuan also looked at her like this, and the two of them stared at each other for a long time.Xie Yuancai said:
"I do not know."

If Wei Guo really allowed her to be a female general, would she continue to go?for what?Fight Song for Wei?

She doesn't want to.

Although Song Guo had disappointed her to the core.

But Fang Bo, and the fool, there are many people in her memory, they are all soldiers of the Song Dynasty, they are ordinary people who just want to have enough food to live a peaceful life.

She has met and got along with each other before, and knows that they are not just numbers on the battlefield, but real people.

Then how could she change the sect and lead soldiers to kill them instead?
And most of all, for what?
She used to think that being a general could realize her ambitions, realize her own value, and protect many people from being invaded by soldiers and bandits.Maybe one day, the whole territory can be unified, the chaos of war can be eliminated, so that there will be no more orphans like Yifei and Xunya in the world.

But reality slapped her hard.

In the past few years since entering the court from the border, apart from fighting for power and profit, she has worked hard and exhausted for the stability of the Liu family. Is there anything she does that has anything to do with what she wanted at the beginning?

At the very beginning, she still thought that as long as the court is stable and everyone is united, she can train troops later, forge weapons and upgrade equipment, and wait for the opportunity to destroy the State of Wei.

However, the stability of the court alone is difficult to pass and cannot be completed.

There is no unity of the people, only endless eagerness and wolfish ambition, and the intrigue alone has consumed a lot of her energy, so why talk about other things?

Perhaps this is what Shen Liuzhen said, the position of the emperor is not something ordinary people can do, and forcibly supporting him will only go against the law of the sky, and the morality will not match, and he will suffer the consequences in the end.

"Ah?... I don't know? Don't you want to be a general? I see you get up so early every morning, why do you practice martial arts so hard?... Isn't it a pity not to be such a good martial artist as a general?" Mrs. Guan was very excited. It's amazing.

Xie Yuan's body stiffened again when he pulled the bucket.

Many of the questions Mrs. Guan asked today were things she had never seriously thought about.I've been so sad and frustrated lately.I didn't even think about what would happen in the future.

"... I've been practicing martial arts since I was a child, I'm used to it... I'm too tired, I never thought about the future." Xie Yuan said frankly.

The words "too tired" were her inner voice, and when she uttered it, it seemed to carry a heavy weight, and when it hit the ground, it could make a hole out of it.

Madam Guan didn't know that what she said was heart-wrenching, so she quickly comforted her:

"Oh, tired? I didn't see that you were tired, ah... I saw you playing sword so fast, 'swish', hehe..." Mrs. Guan smiled honestly,
"Take a rest when you're tired. In fact, it's good not to be a general. You've already been a general. You've become famous and proud. There's nothing wrong with thinking about living a peaceful life in the future."

As she spoke, she carried the bottled water into the kitchen next to her, brought it to the front of the stove, straightened her waist as if remembering something, and said excitedly to Xie Yuan outside:

"I heard that Mr. Shen and you are baby relatives. How wonderful that is... Oh, hey, he's a talented girl... Oh no, it's a talented girl. General Xie is handsome, so Mr. Shen is beautiful. The way he looks at you, I like it, the water is shining... He is good-looking at first, but when he looks at you like that, it seems that there is a moon in his eyes."

Mrs. Guan seemed to be more excited. She covered her chest and raised her face, and said:

"He has such a good temper, he likes to laugh, he doesn't put on airs, he is so polite to everyone, and you are sincere to General Xie, which is really rare.

Moreover, the two of you grew up together, because of the fate of your parents, the fate is just right... I see you two together, and I feel happy in my heart.There are two such good people in the world, and they are still a couple, just thinking about it makes me feel good. "

Xie Yuan's hands froze as he scooped up his clothes and rinsed them. He looked at Mrs. Guan who had a happy face at the door of the kitchen, and didn't know how to react for a while.

Where does this begin?Shen Liuzhen is indeed good-looking, and he is sincere to her, including her marriage.

After being ignorant in childhood, now that she has grown up and seen so many things and so many people, she understands how precious this luck is.

Especially for a person like her who didn't follow the usual path, the meaning of Shen Liuzhen's existence is not only that of a loving fiancé, but also her spiritual backing, the warmth of retreating in the corner, of course she is thankful.

But...it's a bit far-fetched to say that he is a good person...very far-fetched.She didn't even know what expression to put on her face.

At this moment, Shen Liuzhen appeared at the corner, beckoned to her, looked a little solemn, and said:

"A Yuan... Zhang Qing is here and said he has something important to tell you."

(End of this chapter)