The same table is actually my sick reader

Chapter 126 125. Their relationship has eased
The question of how long Shiraishi Chien has loved Kurose Izumi can be traced back to about a year ago.

From seeing Lie Xinxi, loving the house and Wu, to gradually becoming interested, and planning step by step.

The ending of the novel is second.

For a long time, Shiraishi Chirei's target was Kurose Izumi.

Otherwise, she would maintain Kuchiki Toko's identity to the end, so why bother to arrange the follow-up?

She just wanted to give Kurose Izumi a dreamy encounter and make him fall in love with her.

Shiraishi Qianlian knows that she is excellent and loved by everyone.

But does that work?
I have been at the same table with Kurose Izumi for a year, and the daily communication is only to the extent of greeting.

He hadn't shown any affection for her at all, not at all.

The little things I experienced with Kurose Izumi are real, and so is my heart.

She is very happy and happy, and she also wants to continue to maintain such a life with Kurose Izumi, forever and ever.

Therefore, when faced with exposure, she panicked.

It is because he loves Kurose Izumi deeply and does not want to deepen his pain and self-sin, so he restrains the urge to revenge Hirasawa Shintake.

It's a pity that these thoughts and intentions are not known to Kurose Izumi.

The reality is that she played and deceived Kurose Izumi, making it hard for him to believe in himself.

Can this blame Kurose Izumi for being too stubborn and uninterested?
No.

She can only blame herself for being too clumsy to love well, which hurt Kurose Izumi.

"Quan, there are actually some things that I can't forgive myself for more than you."

At some point, Shiraishi Qianrei raised her head, looked at Kurose Izumi, and met his gaze.

Under Kuroseizumi's astonished expression, what was reflected in his eyes was Shiraishi Chirei who was streaming down his face.

"I hurt you and made you so miserable."

"I'm not as good or perfect as you think. I've been deceiving you all this time."

"But my love for you is sincere, I can confirm it, and I can be sure, please believe me, Quan!"

Kurose Izumi pursed her thin lips tightly, and tightly clenched the hand under the quilt until it turned white.

At this moment, he could no longer bear the surging emotions in his heart, and began to want to be desperate.

Kurose Izumi clenched his teeth and roared hoarsely, "How do you want me to believe you?"

"Didn't you pretend to be Kuchiki Toko and want me to do something that I'm sorry to you without telling Shiraishi Chirei?"

"Is it fun? Interesting?"

"Seeing my embarrassment and pain, have you ever been unable to bear it? Have you ever thought that doing so is wrong?"

"You tell me, is this why you love me?"

"If Zhenwu doesn't tell me, are you going to lie to me and play with me all the time?!"

From the beginning to the end, Kurose Izumi couldn't forget what happened that night, and couldn't let go.

He can forgive everything, but he cannot forgive that one thing alone.

When he thought of Kuchiki Toko's disgusting posture, overlapping with Shiraishi Chirei, he felt as if someone was strangling his throat, and he couldn't breathe.

The image of Baishi Qianlian in his heart completely collapsed the moment it was exposed.

"Quan, I..."

"Stop calling me Quan!"

Kurose Izumi stared at Shiraishi Qianrei, the whites of his eyes were bloodshot, and his face was distorted by anger.

"What do you mean you can't forgive yourself more than me?"

"Do you know that the thought of you being Toko Kuchiki makes me so sad that I want to die?"

"do you know!!!"

Kurose Izumi has always regarded Shiraishi Qianrei, who is a white platycodon, as Bai Yueguang, but she is broken.

The once pure white and flawless flowers bloomed in emptiness, so ugly and disgusting.

Whenever Chirei Shiraishi says she loves him, her figure always overlaps with Toko Kuchiki.

At this moment, Kurose Izumi would even question his own love.

He felt that what he loved was the vain Shiraishi Qianrei, and he didn't understand her at all.

"...Sorry." Baishi Qianlian closed her eyes sadly and apologized in a low voice.

It's a pity that the apology is too trivial, so small that neither of them will feel better.

"Didn't you say don't apologize to me? Do you want to be sorry for you?"

"Now—are you worthy of me?!"

"Did I do anything to apologize to you?!"

Kuroseizumi looked agitated, ferocious veins appeared on his neck and forehead, and all the suppressed emotions in his heart exploded at this moment.

It is true that when he promised Toko Kuchiki to keep in touch behind Chirei Shiraishi's back, he was sorry for Chirei Shiraishi.

But he found his way back at the right time, confirmed his heart, revealed everything to Shiraishi Qianlian, and firmly chose her.

Both of them talked about this matter, so it's hard to talk about how sorry they are.

But Baishi Qianlian concealed his affairs, never lost his way, and even went too far.

This made Kurose Izumi unbearable, let alone acceptable!
Under such circumstances, how could he believe in Shiraishi Qianrei's love?

"Izumi, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

"I had no idea that this would make you so sad..."

"It's my fault, you hit me, scolded me, whatever you did to me, I admit it..."

"But please don't leave me, just stay by my side, let me make it up to you, okay?"

"I...please, Izumi...Kurose."

Baishi Qianlian kept begging, and the tears in her eyes kept pouring out, dripping down.

Kurose Izumi looked at Chirei Shiraishi who was begging him so humblely, his heart was twisted like a knife, and he was extremely entangled.

He is actually a very cowardly and indecisive person.

All the while, he was drifting with the flow, without any characteristics.

Writing novels is to bear the financial burden of the family, and the original intention is not to write;

Imprisoned by Kuchiki Toko, but treated tenderly by the other party, he followed her indecisive side and chose to forgive her for her youthful and ignorant mistakes.

But after falling in love with Shiraishi Qianrei, he really felt that he had something he wanted to do.

That is……

The responsibility to fill the void in her heart.

Because he is Shiraishi Qianrei's lover, this is what should be done and what he is willing to do.

The ridiculous thing is that he found that he didn't understand Shiraishi Qianrei at all, so how can he make up for it?

After a long time, Kurose Izumi took a deep breath, and his ferocious expression from excitement gradually eased.

He said, "...home, have you moved?"

Baishi Qianlian was stunned for a moment when he heard the words.

At this moment, she thought of both good and bad possibilities.

"...it's packed."

After saying these words, Baishi Qianlian anxiously waited for the answer.

"Well, it's early."

In the end, Kurose Izumi still failed to forgive Shiraishi Chirei.

He couldn't let go of just a verbal apology.

If the unforgettable scars can be healed with words and apologies, then there will be not so many tragedies.

Baishi Qianlian, who received the answer, turned pale and bloodless in an instant.

"……I understand."

She said in a low voice, got up and left in a daze.

It's meaningless to stay here anymore, it's better to let each other be quiet first.

And at the moment Shiraishi Qianrei opened the door of the infirmary and was about to walk out, Kurose Izumi's words suddenly sounded behind her:

"Bai... Qianlian, I won't transfer schools."

When Baishi Qianlian heard the words, his lifeless and desperate eyes suddenly lit up.

This is……

Have a connecting flight?

Thinking of this possibility, her heart was filled with ecstasy, and her sorrow was swept away.

Kurose Izumi didn't leave her side, didn't he mean to give her a chance to make up for her mistakes?
"Quan, I will, I will do my best to let you understand my heart..."

With this in mind, Shiraishi Chirei turned her head, took a deep look at Kurose Izumi, and closed the door.

"Ugh……"

Kurose Izumi, who was lying on the bed, sighed softly, and suddenly became annoyed.

So soft-hearted again...

There's no way, Baishi Qianlian was crying pear blossoms in front of him, how could he be so cruel?

Originally, I didn't really want to transfer schools.

Although it would be awkward to get along with Shiraishi Qianrei, it is also better than lovesickness.

If he transfers another school, Izumi Kurose will never see Chirei Shiraishi again.

"I'm really useless..."

Kurose Izumi muttered to himself, smiled wryly, then sat up from the bed, ready to leave the infirmary.

Now, he feels much better, his mind is clear and his body is no longer heavy.

Putting on his shoes and leaving the infirmary, Kurose Izumi returned to the classroom to get his schoolbag.

Only the students who were on duty were still in the classroom, and the rest were gone.

"Kuro, Kurose-san!"

And when Kurose Izumi took his schoolbag and was about to go home, a girl behind him suddenly stopped him.

"Huh? What's wrong?" Izumi Kurose turned his head and looked at the girl.

If I remember correctly, her name seems to be Ayane... well, let's call her Ayane.

She wears glasses so high that she can't see her eyes clearly, she wears a braid, and there are neat long bangs on her forehead.

"That, that..."

Lingyin faltered for a long time, and finally said in a voice like a mosquito: "Is your body okay?"

Kurose Izumi was taken aback.

He didn't expect that there were people who cared about him.

"what……"

The next moment, he came back to his senses and nodded slightly: "It's done, thank you for your concern."

"No, it's fine..."

Ayane stammered, with her hands clenched in front of her body, her expression hesitant to speak.

Looking at her like this, Kurose Izumi couldn't help but say: "If it's my illusion, then I apologize, but I feel that you still have something to tell me, don't you?"

"Ah... yes, yes?" Ayane nodded slightly.

"Yes?"

"um, yes."

"..."

Kurose Izumi looked at Ayane speechlessly, waiting patiently for her to speak.

After a long while, under his gaze, Ayane blushed and said in a low voice, "Just, that's...the answer."

"Answer?" Kurose Izumi couldn't help being stunned, "What answer?"

Ayane lowered her head, her face flushed, and she shouted like a broken can, "Love, love letter!"

"Love letter?" Kurose Izumi muttered to himself, then suddenly opened his eyes wide, "Love letter?!"

love letter?

When did he get a love letter?
He has been asking for leave for the past two days, and only returned to school today, how could he have received a love letter!

But Ayane's appearance doesn't mean she's teasing him, or some truth-or-dare thing, right?

"Yeah, um! The answer to the love letter!" Ayane nodded vigorously, her little face turned red, "Yesterday I put a love letter in Kurose-san's shoe cabinet!"

"I... didn't see it?"

Kuroseizumi looked bewildered, thinking about her shoe cabinet, isn't there only a pair of indoor shoes?
Who would be free to move his shoe cabinet and put away his love letters?
wrong……

Isn't it possible for someone to do this?
Thinking of this possibility, Kurose Izumi immediately said: "Sorry, although I didn't see Ayane's love letter, but I think I refuse."

How could he accept someone else's confession?

Even though he had a cold war with Baishi Qianlian, and the relationship was almost to the point of breaking up, he didn't really say the word breaking up.

Moreover, Kurose Izumi's heart is very small, so small that it has long been occupied by Shiraishi Chirei, and can no longer accommodate others.

(End of this chapter)