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Chapter 133 132. The Helpless Shiraishi Chirei

The next morning, at 23:[-] am.

"Spring, spring."

In the haze, Kurose Izumi heard a voice in his ear, as if someone was calling him, the voice was very soft and ethereal.

Immediately, there was a slightly cold touch and kneading sensation on the face, and the body also shook slightly.

"Well……"

After Kurose Izumi murmured, he slowly opened his eyes and looked at the source of the strange feeling.

In a daze, he saw a person beside the bed, half bent down, pinching his face with his hands, playing with it wantonly.

And there was a faint smile on that person's face, as if he was amused by playing with his face.

"Shiraishi...?"

Izumi Kurose looked at that person—that is, Chirei Shiraishi, still unable to understand the current situation, and his consciousness was still a little confused.

But in the next second, memories flooded into his mind, recalling everything from yesterday.

It seems that I slept a little late last night in order to write the script.

Remember the time to fall asleep, it was after two o'clock in the morning?

"Good morning." After greeting, Shiraishi Qianlian pulled his face with a smile, "Sleep for a while before you wake up?"

"...Do you think I can sleep in this situation?" Kurose Izumi watched Shiraishi Chirei playing with his face recklessly, the corners of his mouth twitching slightly.

This woman... is completely too arrogant!
It's fine to break into a private house, and disturb the owner's rest, it's simply hateful!
"If you sleep any longer, you will be late." Shiraishi Qianrei pointed to the wall clock on the wall, it is now 23:[-].

... At this point in time, going to school is more than enough.

After all, the first class is only at [-]:[-] in the morning.

"So, why did you appear here?" Kurose Izumi grabbed his messy hair and half sat up, "Even if I'm late, it has nothing to do with you, right?"

"Don't say such heartless words."

Even though Izumi Kurose had a cold attitude, Chirei Shiraishi still showed indifference, with a soft smile on her face all the time.

Seeing this, Kurose Izumi didn't bother to worry about the reason why she appeared here, and said instead: "Okay... I'm going to change clothes."

"Change it."

"...Why are you still standing here? Could it be that you want to change it for me?"

"It's an honor." Shiraishi Qianrei's eyes lit up, and she reached out to take off Kurose Izumi's shirt.

"Stop, stop, stop! Who asked you to change it for me! I can change it myself! Get out!"

Kurose Izumi yelled shamefully and angrily, and quickly covered his chest, looking like a weak woman about to be molested by a greasy uncle!
Baishi Qianlian curled her lips, and said in a tone full of regret: "It's really heartless, obviously I really want to help Quan change clothes. Besides, it's not like I haven't seen it before."

"Okay, you go out quickly! I really need to change my clothes!"

Under Kuroseizumi's urging, Shiraishi Qianlian reluctantly walked out of the master bedroom and came to the living room to wait.

At this point, Kurose Izumi breathed a sigh of relief and began to change clothes.

He took off the slightly messy and wrinkled pajamas, and then put on straight ironed shirts.

Then, he put on western-style school uniform pants, and lazily put on a tie...

It was already 5 minutes before I changed my clothes.

"Ha~"

Izumi Kurose yawned, walked out of the main room, and saw Chirei Shiraishi sitting in the living room like a hostess at a glance.

At this moment, her eyes were also looking towards Kurose Izumi.

Facing Shiraishi Qianrei's gaze, Kuroseizumi said with some doubts: "What, what's the matter? Looking at me so directly."

"Quan..." Baishi Qianlian called softly, stood up from the sofa, and came to him.

Then, she stretched out her hand, untied Kurose Izumi's looser and more casual tie, and tied it again.

After tying the tie, Baishi Qianlian took a step back, nodded with satisfaction and said, "Quan, you should also tie the tie well? You are so handsome, but you have to be so casual."

Kurose Izumi glanced his head over and muttered softly, "...it's more comfortable this way."

"Go wash up? I've already made breakfast, and we'll go to school together after you finish eating."

"Are you my nanny? You don't have to do these things, anyway..."

"Why is it unnecessary?" Baishi Qianlian interrupted softly, "I want to do these things for Quan, and I feel very happy to take care of Quan. Isn't that necessary?"

"Forget it, I can't talk to you, so it's up to you."

Kurose Izumi sighed, turned around and walked into the bathroom to wash, feeling a little distressed.

It was so mean.

Saying the words that touched his heart in such a tone and tone.

In this way, wouldn't he be able to speak ironically again?

"Oh, Qian Lian, I really can't match you..."

While thinking about this, Kurose Izumi walked out of the bathroom after washing, picked up the schoolbag in the living room, and was about to go to school.

At this time, Baishi Qianlian was slightly worried: "What's the matter, don't you have some breakfast first? What if you are hungry during class?"

"I'm not hungry, so let's leave it for now. I'll heat it up and eat it when I come back at night."

"It won't taste good at night."

"...I have no appetite right now."

Faced with Kurose Izumi's various rejections, Shiraishi Chirei could not help showing loneliness.

She said in a low voice, "Quan, do you hate me?"

"Do not……"

Izumi Kurose shook his head slightly, turned his head around, looked at Qianrei Shiraishi, and said firmly, "I... like you the most."

But it is because I like it that I am embarrassed and duplicity.

Superficially evading, but not really ruthlessly rejecting.

He has been trying to convince himself that he has to accept Qianrei Shiraishi by himself, but it is still difficult to do so.

Because whenever this is done, Kuchiki Toko's appearance and voice will emerge from the bottom of my heart, overlapping with Shiraishi Chirei.

A simple apology cannot eliminate this grudge.

This is not something that can be counteracted by patient care.

However, Baishi Qianlian was still unwilling, and said reluctantly, "Then... how about eating a little?"

"Forget it, let's put it at night, I really don't want to eat now, sorry."

In the past, Kurose Izumi might have agreed, but now he really has no appetite.

When he stayed up late yesterday, he made some supper, which made him not hungry now.

In addition, due to lack of sleep, my mind is a little dizzy, and I have no appetite.

"All right……"

In the end, Shiraishi Qianrei gave up.

Her face was very disappointed, and so was her heart.

The feeling of being rejected in every possible way is really uncomfortable.

It was as if Kurose Izumi was rejecting her and didn't want to accept any kindness from her.

"Let's go, go to school, aren't you going to be late?"

"……Um."

Walking out of the apartment, the two came to the school silently all the way, with different moods.

Recently, Shiraishi Qianren feels that she is more and more worried about gains and losses.

Every move of Kurose Izumi made her extremely concerned.

When I was rejected, I was obviously sad in my heart, but on the surface I pretended not to care and kept smiling.

And when they are accepted, they will be so happy that they will cheer, sweeping away all the unhappiness.

However, she gradually felt that she could no longer maintain this disguise.

It's ridiculous.

Obviously he is the best at disguising, but he still suppresses the truth of his absence.

He also knew that forcing Kurose Izumi to accept her kindness would embarrass him, but he did it anyway.

He said that he wanted to make Kurose Izumi happy, but in fact he was just satisfying himself.

She wanted to use this as an atonement for her peace of mind.

But this is nothing but self-deception.

Kurose Izumi couldn't forgive her for showing favor like this.

There is no other reason - too deliberate.

It's better to get along with each other normally, so that Kurose Izumi can slowly relax and think about it.

That's how it should be.

Shiraishi Qianrei originally planned to do the same, instead of forcing Kurose Izumi.

But after seeing Kurose Izumi receiving many love letters, she panicked.

She was afraid that someone would take Izumi Kurose away from her.

Even knowing that Kurose Izumi likes her and never forgets her, she is still uneasy and afraid.

What if, what if?
What if Kurose Izumi feels unhappy with her one day and chooses someone else?

At that time, what should I do?

Hate because of love?

This approach is not good for anyone, and no one will be happy.

Baishi Qianlian didn't know what was wrong with her, her mind was in a mess, and her usual reason and strategy all disappeared.

She could only think about what happened to Kurose Izumi, and how to please him so that he could forgive herself.

She no longer wants to deliberately plan anything.

She wanted to impress Kurose Izumi with her sincerity, and tell him her sincere heart without any hypocrisy.

Unfortunately, it's too late.

What Kuchiki Toko had done deeply hurt Kurose Izumi, and it always stuck in his throat.

—he won't forgive, never will.

"Spring, spring..."

Thinking of this possibility, Shiraishi Qianrei suddenly stretched out her hand, grabbed the hem of Kurose Izumi who was walking in front, and called out softly.

"Um……?!"

Izumi Kurose turned his head suspiciously, but he saw Qianrei Shiraishi who had burst into tears at some point.

Her face was sad and helpless, like a domestic cat abandoned by its owner, crying in the wind and rain.

Kurose Izumi could feel her trembling hand grabbing the hem of her clothes.

"Qian Lian, what's wrong with you?!"

At this moment - Kurose Izumi couldn't help falling into a panic.

"Don't, don't leave me..."

Shiraishi Qianrei sobbed and shook her head, unable to restrain the sadness welling up in her heart.

She couldn't think about anything else at all.

The only thing I can think about in my mind is what will happen with Izumi Kurose.

But no matter how you think about it, you are all abandoned.

Kurose Spring will gradually drift away until it disappears and can no longer be found.

And the distance between them will be forever.

Never meet, never understand each other, always strangers...

"Qian Lian, you—"

Kurose Izumi wanted to say something, but suddenly noticed that the eyes of all around were focused on them.

At the same time, noisy discussions poured into my ears.

...It's really, really loud.

"Come with me first."

Ever since, Kurose Izumi took Shiraishi Qianrei's hand and walked with her outside the school.

Shiraishi Qianlian was dragged obediently by him, keeping her head down, sobbing silently.

She was sobbing, tears gushed out drop by drop, fell down Juemei's sad cheeks, and dripped to the ground.

All the way.

(End of this chapter)