I want to work hard too!

Mr. Zheng got up and said, "I haven't eaten yet. You can drink a glass of wine with me. I haven't had a drink for a long time, and I don't like it. Since you brought me Moutai, I have to drink it, but I don't have any." But, it’s impossible for you to take it back with you, and it’s useless if I ask for it myself, let’s have a drink, it’s like celebrating the New Year with me.”

Zhao Mingyang got up and took off his clothes, got up the sleeves of his shirt late and said, "Okay, I'll cook a few dishes for you, and I'll handle the seafood."

"You know how to cook?" Teacher Zheng said looking at Zhao Mingyang.

"That's right, let's take a look at my craftsmanship." Zhao Mingyang opened the foam box and started cooking.

In the kitchen, two men were busy.

Zhao Mingyang asked Little Hulu to eat something first, he had to have dinner with the teacher, and he would go back later.

Xiao Hulu was chatting with his younger sister and sisters in the car, and sent a few red envelopes in the family group. The group red envelopes can be given out with a large amount. He sent out 2015 for family members to grab red envelopes. He sent out ten 2015 red envelopes. , He also asked his sister to look at the house. He bought a small apartment for his sister before marriage, and her sister must also have a house. He wants the old house at home.

Little Hulu also lives for his family, he values ​​family affection too much, because without his parents, there are only elder sisters and younger sisters, and he doesn't want the two of them to be wronged.

As long as he sees them living well, he will be extremely happy and happy.

His parents told Xiao Hulu that he was a boy and he had to take good care of his elder sister and younger sister and protect them. He fulfilled his promise to his parents.

As a result, some people may be lucky enough to earn 100 million, and they will go through the next round, but their next round can be played once for 100 million, which is still ten chances, but there is [-] million there, and the remaining Nine of them still have three or four knives inside, and if they are drawn, they may be knifed.

"It's not very clear yet, teacher, tell me." Zhao Mingyang held up the wine glass and clinked glasses with Teacher Zheng.

The same is true for Chinese New Year, a year is a period of time, just like a checkpoint, whether people play this checkpoint smoothly or not, they have passed, this checkpoint is passed, they are all passed, and the second checkpoint is passed. End of the year.

I also made a will early on in the house I live in now. When I am gone, the house will be distributed to my brothers and sisters and descendants. This should pay off their kindness for my education, right?People, sometimes a wrong choice is a lifetime.

I remember that she and I both love the vegetable soup in the cafeteria. I can drink three bowls of free vegetable soup in the school cafeteria, because there is a bit of oil and water in it, and she also likes to drink vegetable soup.

I shrink back, I also want to see the outside world, I am even more afraid of taking responsibility, I want to marry her and I don't know how to support her.

At that time, when I returned to our place as a teacher, I was demoted and my salary was reduced. The junior high school you studied in used to be our high school. Some areas in the county and urban areas merged. The original county high school became an urban middle school. Our village has also become an industrial park, and the only thing left is the school, and the one-third of an acre of land is still there, which proves the memory of her visit.

In school, I basically read books in addition to studying. I dare not waste a minute or a second. I have no friends, I don’t like to talk to others, and I don’t feel a sense of participation in what my classmates say, until I met her. , we are from the same place, and we all take the same way home, and her family is also poor.

In this school, I feel very at ease in my heart. I walk around the school every day. Although the school has changed, the playground has not changed much. I like to sit alone on the playground in a daze.

I thought, I thought I would be fine after I went to college. When the college notice came home that year, our family was so happy. My parents had never seen a smile, confidence, and pride on their faces. It appeared on the Internet that my dad's waist is walking straight.

"Mingyang, it's a good time for you to live in, it's really good, you have choices, we really didn't have a choice in that meeting.

So, we still have to pay attention to this festival. It's terrible that the people at the bottom have no hope.I am alone now, and my only hope is that this day will get better and better. I want to live well and watch the changes of the times. Everything will be better. Come on man, let’s go one more time. "

Some people say that she went to the school to take a look before she left. Our school in high school sent me a letter, a farewell letter. She still asked me to go to school and see the world for her.

At that time, as long as I had a little courage, just a little bit of courage, I chose to keep her. The outside world can be seen at any time, but it is a lifetime to miss someone, but I didn’t have that courage. I didn’t dare to speak. She was lost I can still see his back now.

What do you think I told her?I can't say anything anymore, I saw her once before I left for college, her eyes lost light, she seemed to have aged ten years in an instant, and her hands had become rough.

Their words again and again are shackles one after another, especially it is not easy for me to study, I have to study hard and don’t let my family down, these words make me suffocate.

The two of us are so poor together, because only the two of us eat the same food every day, steamed buns, pickled vegetables and rice porridge. There were a lot of people who ate this in our time, and it was a little bit unbearable, so everyone looked pale and emaciated, malnourished ah.

I didn't even have the courage to speak up for her. I was still afraid, afraid that if I went like this, people would spread gossip and my parents would lose face, and I was afraid that my parents would not be able to bear the harm caused by such gossip.

The girl I like, she had no choice at the beginning. We were shackled by a shackle and lost a lot of courage, even lost our self. She lost my self, and I lost my self.

If I had chosen not to study and married her, she would have married me, and I would have supported her family, so at least we could be together. "

I'm relieved, I don't have to think so much, you know, my family is also poor, the shoes I wore when I was in the first year of high school were still sewn up with needles and threads, and they would break apart after a few steps, I dare not When running, my clothes are covered with patches. I put together the clothes of several children in my family. It looks like the tattered clothes worn by beggars in movies and TV dramas.

You said that if she didn't have that kind of family, how beautiful her life would be. Maybe it's all fate. The fate of the bottom people is sometimes so cruel, so cruel that there is no choice, just like ten blind boxes. One hundred yuan can be drawn once, one is empty, and the other has ten thousand in it. Children from poor families have only one chance, either they win or they don't.

She smiled at me, didn't speak, and left quickly, looking at her back, my words are stuck in her throat, I can't say it, I can't say it~ I want her to go away with me, fly away with me, fly away with me Let's go see the outside world together, but I don't have the courage to speak out, what will happen after we leave?Where should I take her?How to deal with livelihood?How to let the family face gossip?

Afterwards I went to college and saw a lot of things in the world. I wrote a letter about what I saw and heard and sent it to her, but I wrote dozens of letters, but I didn’t send a single one. I dare not send it. Going out, I'm afraid, really afraid, I don't know what I'm afraid of, I'm just afraid, maybe what I'm afraid of is what other people will think when they see this letter?Will the gossip refer to me as Ximen Qing?

Farewell, this time is a farewell, I no longer have to be afraid of the consequences and bad influences I will have because of her, and I no longer have to worry about some problems.

Teacher Zheng picked up the wine glass and said to Zhao Mingyang: "Do you know that Chinese New Year, Western Christmas, and other regions have something in common?"

If you are lucky once, you get [-], but in the next round, whether you draw [-] or ten blind boxes, we have to gamble on luck again. How many people can survive this round?
Most people just stop playing, and they accept it when they see a good deal. If they dare not play, they stay at 100. This time, there are [-] million in the blind box. If you play, you have to fight for luck, and if you have a fortune, it is trial and error .

When I went home during the summer vacation of my freshman year, I heard that her life was very bad, very bad, because she was not pregnant, and she was treated coldly by her husband's family. In addition, her mother's family didn't care about her. It is said that she was often beaten and scolded by her husband. .

The age is different, and everyone's situation is different. Maybe he chose not to go to college at the beginning, and it might not have been a correct choice. He has not been in love these years, but because of guilt, and he can't convince himself to forget this guilt.

At this time, no one dared to gamble on luck anymore. They were betting on their lives, and another group of people gave up. The lucky ones won the bet, but what about the group of people with background?Even if the knife is drawn, someone will take their lives for them. Continue to draw, continue to try and make mistakes, and the last [-] million will still be theirs.

Teacher Zheng sighed and drank the wine in the glass. Zhao Mingyang filled it up for him. He covered his face with his hands and said, "She came to me before she got married and asked me to study hard for the exam and go to a good university. Go to her for her." Take a look at the outside world.

From being strangers at the beginning, with the same low self-esteem, to chatting, we have endless conversations. In the end, the two classes were merged into one class, and we became classmates. Because the teacher left several times, it is said that they all went to teach in the city. There are not enough teachers left, so we can only merge classes,
It was the happiest time in my life at that time. We wrote some secrets to each other in a notebook. Gradually, we knew what is love and what is friendship. We are not friendship, we are love.

But the next day, the school said she would not go to school, and when I went home, I realized that it was called goodbye, and a goodbye was a lifetime.

A few years after she left, her husband married another daughter-in-law, but she was still not pregnant. They insisted on asking him to go for a checkup. It turned out that it was his problem. The man was infertile. The girl is innocent, but who still remembers her?
There is a small mound in her tomb. If I don't remove the weeds for her, no one will go there, but who knows that I removed it in the middle of the night?
After graduating from university, I worked in other places for a few years. I felt uneasy and uneasy, so I wanted to come back.

Zhao Mingyang went to bed with his back to rest, he might really need to get drunk, his family might blame him for humiliating him because he wasn't married, or even say worse words than outsiders.

If you win, you will make money. If you don’t win, it will be difficult to turn around. If you have nothing, you will get worse and worse. It depends on luck.

What a great invention this is. Chinese traditional festivals are the greatest crystallization of wisdom left by our ancestors. If you don’t pay attention to festivals, especially festivals like the Spring Festival, then this person basically has no hope. No hope means no hope. , Without hope, you will always be trapped in an emotion and cannot get out.

If I stay at one level forever, I will be trapped in this level. I have been paying attention to the Chinese New Year these years, and I don’t want to stay in this level anymore.

Similarly, the elders of this group of people also came here in the same way. At the beginning, they all tried their luck. Only their younger generations don’t need luck. Mingyang, do you understand what I said?No matter how well you are doing now, you are gambling on luck, so you can't do something blindly, be cautious.

All the money I earned later was given to my family. The house was distributed by the unit at the beginning, and I did not buy a house.All the money I earned was given to my parents and other brothers and sisters. It can be regarded as a kind of repayment if they distribute it whatever they want. After all, they paid for my education. Otherwise, what use would it be to them?You are right.

Because of my cowardice, I indirectly harmed her. She jumped into the river when I was in my sophomore year. It is said that she couldn’t bear the beating. Some people said that her husband lost the bet and sold her as a bargaining chip. She couldn’t bear it. This humiliation.

Later, we promised to go to the university in the same place, and then we worked together to make our family better,
We also swore that we could only be married to each other. In the second semester of the second year of high school, she kissed me on the night of the month. At that time, I was completely at a loss and extremely excited. Who are the guests to invite at the wedding, and what are the names of the children.

In the winter of the third year of high school, she got married, and I drank a bottle of white wine on the hillside near her husband’s house by myself, and watched her step by step into the groom’s house. That was the best drink in my life. Bitter wine is a wine that can't be drunk, and it's a wine that declares the failure of my life.

There are fewer people in school who are poorer than me, so my family gritted their teeth and confessed that I went to school. They put all their hopes on me, especially my parents and brothers and sisters.

Everyone will be full of new hopes and expectations for the second year. If there is no Chinese New Year, people will not see hope and have no expectations. This is terrible. Most people cannot withstand this kind of pressure. Chinese New Year is the best Slow pressure method.

When she got married, I cried alone. Our love was ignorant, pure, and free from any substance, but in the end I chose to escape.

I want to share my joy with her, but I dare not go, I am afraid to go, I don't know how to say these words to her, I am not worthy.

I was very inferior at that time. I went from a small town to a county town to go to high school. To be precise, I went from a small village to a county town to go to high school. crossing lights.

And the children with family background just took 1000 yuan to open one by one, they must have won, they don’t need luck, for their number of trials and errors, nine trials and errors, one success, they are successful, and we ?One failure and it's over.

An hour later, Zhao Mingyang and Mr. Zheng were drinking wine, eight dishes, four hot dishes, and four cold dishes.

If everyone is in the same level and can never pass it, how many people do you think will continue to play?
Everyone needs something to look forward to, is it hope, so you said that the New Year is one of the greatest inventions in human history?

I am afraid that my parents will blame me, and I am afraid of disappointing my family. I know that my family is proud of me, because I am a high school student, and I am going to take the college entrance examination. There are not many people in this town who can take the college entrance examination. All the face of my parents is supported by me, a quasi-college student.

Unless you have the chance of trial and error, you can not be afraid to do something, otherwise you can only be cautious and accept as soon as you see it, don't dislike the teacher's long-winded words. "

Teacher Zheng took a sip of wine and said: "It's very simple. Humans have found a way for themselves to hope and relieve their hearts. The earth rotates, and the sun rises as usual. The concept of time is the crystallization of human wisdom, but have you discovered it? , go to school, from kindergarten to elementary school, first grade, second grade, and so on to middle school, just like the fledgling in martial arts novels to Megatron, this is all incremental, just like breaking through the game, after passing the first level, People will look forward to the second pass in their hearts, and they will feel happy physically and mentally.

Later, when she passed away, my love was over, it was over forever, and I would never love anyone again. I was extremely guilty, and I was living in guilt.

Zhao Mingyang picked up the wine glass and clinked glasses with Mr. Zheng. It is true that three people must have my teacher. Mr. Zheng's few words once again made Zhao Mingyang suddenly enlightened. He has a new understanding of the New Year, and he is ready to spend a good time. Year.

"Understood, thank you teacher for your reminder, I will pay attention, teacher, I respect you." Zhao Mingyang picked up the wine glass and toasted a glass of wine. Teacher Zheng was not very strong, and fell asleep with squinted eyes after drinking a few glasses of wine.

Maybe he has such a good temper. He not only encouraged Zhao Mingyang in class, but also encouraged many people. He hoped that every child would not go astray. In this era, everyone has more choices. On the contrary, many people don’t want to study, but how difficult it was to want to study at the beginning , especially the girl he loves.

Zhao Mingyang closed the door of the teacher's house and left. His life ended early because of a choice. Maybe he and that girl stayed in that year forever. She left, and he was helping her see the world. After reading it, he went to the grave Tell her.

Maybe now he dares to talk to her without being afraid of anyone's strange eyes and comments. After all, no one remembers her, only he remembers her.

Zhao Mingyang went downstairs and heard the cheers of children and the sound of firecrackers. A smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. It's a happy new year, and a new beginning has arrived.

If she lives in this era.Will the ending be different?Will it?
Who knows?Maybe he will choose to stay for her?Will it?can you?
Zhao Mingyang got into the car, took a look at his phone, and sent a message.