imperial psychologist

Chapter 108 Examination
After nightfall, Chengqian Palace is brightly lit.

After You hour, Qu went to the Dongpian Hall alone, while Liu Baoyuan and Zheng Shu waited in the main hall.

Beside the candlestick in the main hall, Bao Yuan was sewing something with a needle and thread in his hand.

From time to time, she stopped to think for a while before continuing to stitch. However, when she looked at the previous stitches when she was drawing up the thread, most of them were crooked due to hesitation and uncertainty.

She sighed. Needlework is a handicraft that cannot be faked at all.

"You said that this Physician Bai's family is also very interesting. Instead of teaching his daughter to be a female celebrity, his son has a pair of skillful hands. What does that father Bai think?"

Baoyuan smiled and raised her head, but saw Zheng Shu standing by the door alone, looking in the direction of the east side hall.

That expression was extremely focused, obviously he didn't hear what he said just now.

"Grandma Shu!" Bao Yuan shouted again.

At this moment, Zheng Shu's shoulders trembled slightly, and then she turned around, frowned and looked at Baoyuan with some displeasure in her eyes, "What's wrong?"

"I was talking to you just now!" Baoyuan put down the needle and thread in her hand, walked to the door, and followed Zheng Shu's gaze to look at the east side hall, "What are you looking at here, so engrossed?"

"I didn't see anything, I just thought about something."

Baoyuan laughed, "No matter what you think, the empress won't come back right now, let's wait a little longer."

Zheng Shu touched her heart lightly, gave Bao Yuan a slight look, then turned around and returned to the table where Bao Yuan was sitting just now.

She glanced at Baoyuan's needle and thread on the table, "When is this, you still have the mind to think about this..."

"If you don't think about it, you can't do anything else." Bao Yuan smiled and said, "It's useless for us to be anxious here, why don't we do something else."

Zheng Shu sighed again.

Baoyuan immediately covered her ears, "Stop sighing, yesterday it was your empress, and today it's you... If you keep listening, I will become a little old lady who sighs and sighs tomorrow."

"Aren't I in a hurry... Tomorrow night is the garden party, and the empress is still so hesitant, she doesn't even have a determination, how can this be done." Zheng Shu replied softly.

"What did the old lady say, did she let the empress go or not?" Baoyuan asked curiously.

Speaking of the old lady, Zheng Shu felt a little headache again.

"The old lady said, it's up to you whether you go or not." Zheng Shu's eyes fell on the ground, "I think this time, the old lady has completely chilled our mother..."

Zheng Shu twisted her sleeves with her hands, her eyes were still looking out casually.

Thinking of the conversation between Bai Ling and herself in the afternoon... Zheng Shu was still uneasy.

But besides trusting her, there was no other way at this moment.

……

Candles were burning brightly in the east side hall, and the windows on the east side were open. The leaves of the ivy outside had not yet fully grown, and there was a slight sound when the wind blew.

In the room, Bo Ling and the imperial concubine sat diagonally across from each other. There was a small round coffee table between them. On the coffee table were two or three wet handkerchiefs and half a cup of warm water.

The door was locked from the inside, but Qu's every word was still very low. Bai Ling leaned forward slightly to Qu's side, distinguishing every word she said from the thick nasal voice.

The second consultation was not much different from the first one, and the person who spoke most of the time was still the imperial concubine.

She really has so much to say.

At the beginning, I just laughed and said that I couldn’t recognize myself in the mirror when I was dressing up yesterday, as if I was telling a story about someone nearby.

Then it was as if a thread was pulled out of the chatterbox—as long as the words continued, the grievances and patience of these years seemed to spring up in my heart like a landslide.

The elder brother Quxiu's official career has been prosperous in recent years, and several family awards from the Qu family... She has listed everything she has done for the family over the years, one by one.

It's just that when mentioning the disputes of the previous dynasty several times, Qu Shi hesitated to speak, and finally brought it up hastily.

As she spoke, she shed tears, and was secretly surprised in her heart—this was something she had never thought of. She had never spoken to anyone in the past, but she remembered everything so clearly in her heart.

The narration itself brought a strong sense of shame—she couldn't help thinking, if the person in front of her was not Berlin but her mother or her brother, what kind of vicious words would they use to humiliate her?
shrewd?Care about?Petty?Still not seeing the big picture...?
Why do you want to say this to Berlin in front of you?Do you still expect her to uphold justice for herself?

At this moment, countless voices laughed at her in her heart, and a certain feeling of futility came over the sky again, holding her in the center of the storm.

Every thought of doubt is like a tarsal maggot, or a whip that falls for no reason.

...Talking is just as painful.

Qu Shi stopped, and she looked at Bo Ling with tears in her eyes, feeling a little at a loss for a moment, not knowing how to describe her mood at the moment.

She heard Burling sigh softly.

"Maybe I've talked too much..." Qu muttered.

"No," Bo Ling shook his head, "My lady's words gave me a... um, very strange feeling."

Qu Shi was stunned for a moment, and suddenly became a little nervous, "...you are, how do you feel?"

"When Your Majesty said this to me..." Bai Ling lowered his eyes, and also tried his best to find words in his mind, "I feel that the old lady and Master Qu are also in this room, staring at We, scrutinize every word we say."

She was obviously also thinking, and said slowly, "So I feel... very depressed and very uncomfortable."

Qu Shi only felt tears welling up again.

She didn't know how Bo Ling did it, but when she heard "the old lady and Mrs. Qu are constantly examining our every word", she felt a slight shock in her whole body.

During these years of getting along, she knows her mother and brother too well, and what kind of evaluation her words and deeds will get in exchange has almost become an instinctive reaction that does not require thinking.

At this moment, the self-blame and guilt that were still buzzing in his mind just now disappeared.

She couldn't speak for a while, so she had to grab a handkerchief beside her and temporarily pressed it on her eyes.

Under the cover of the wind, the low and subdued crying could only be heard in this room.

"why?"

After this burst of emotions passed, Qu Shi finally raised his head, and said with some confusion, "...Why do you think so?"

"Because there are a lot of justifications in everything the empress said, as if they were used to respond to some sharp belittling and accusations... And each of these words made me very worried." Bai Ling replied softly , "Does your empress also have the feeling I said?"

Qu frowned, bit her lip lightly, and nodded.

(End of this chapter)