One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 13 Dusty Memories

I went home from get off work tomorrow, but I didn’t feel very happy in my heart. Instead, I liked this kind of busy life, so I didn’t have the energy to think about those messy things, not to mention the more interesting things at work.

At night, there was a violent storm outside the window, and she was not sleeping soundly, and her forehead was covered with a dense layer of sweat.In the dream, it was as if the whole person was pressed on the bed, except for the eyes, which could not move, but the horrible thing in the eyes was getting closer and closer, and there was no way to avoid it, even her breath was That's scary.

I don’t know how many dreams like this I’ve had, I know it’s a dream, but I can’t get used to it, I’m always so scared, tears are streaming down my face, I’m constantly praying in my heart to wake up quickly, to end my life as soon as possible nightmare.

The dream lasted for a long time, and it was dawn when she woke up. After being tortured all night, her eyes seemed lifeless, and she couldn't help but smile bitterly. When will such days end? It's really painful.

After going home for a few days, apart from eating and sleeping, there was endless talk from my mother, so let’s just take it away, because there is no meaning at all, and I don’t even want to add the slightest emotion to it.Sitting and waiting to go to work, she may not realize that she has never looked forward to going to work so much.

"I'm coming!" Yuxi opened the door of the pavilion excitedly, and saw the smile on Qingrui's face even more excited, isn't she a lively and lovely look like a little girl! .

There was no surprise on Han Qingrui's face, obviously he knew she would definitely come.

"Sit down, you look very happy today."

"Hey, it's nice to see you."

"Really?" Qing Rui raised his eyebrows, with a signature smile on his lips, which is always so handsome and dazzling in the eyes of some people.

"I lied to you as a little pig." As he spoke, he raised his nose up with his hands, funny and cute, his eyes were full of starlight, especially when he saw Qing Rui's smile and listened to his clear voice like a violin. I was so excited up and down.

"Little pig, trust you, I love hearing that."

The little girl looks so cute, her smile is really healing, and the work clothes can't hide her beautiful face, and she has added a bit of maturity. She is really a flowery age, and I am 38, so old!
Han Qingrui couldn't help sighing in his heart, and suddenly remembered a sentence he saw in Moments during the break, and asked suspiciously: "I saw you posted in Moments the other day that you have a home or even no home. What happened? "

She put away her smile for a moment, and glanced at him faintly: "Nothing happened, I just remembered something from the past. I just told you a little bit before."

"It's just a pity that I don't have many good friends until now. The first good friend in my life was just because she said that her mother didn't care if she didn't buy her clothes, and her parents criticized her for being unfilial, ignorant, and trying to please them. The face is very ugly. The second good friend, I kindly gave my mobile phone to my mother, and then they found a photo in the album, just because he lost a bet and painted a few beards on his face, my dad said Said that my friends beat me, and I couldn't even tell how badly they scolded me. At the age of 14, I asked my family if I could get an ID card because many of my classmates did, so my mother told my aunt that I would run away with men outside. High school entrance examination I got heatstroke during the sports exam, and they scolded me for being stupid and pretending to be sick."

A few simple words summed up the pain in the past, although it seems casual, it still hurts in my heart.

Now only in front of him can I have the courage to tell the pain hidden deep in my heart. Even Xiang Wan doesn't know about her unbearable past.

"Look at my hands, aren't they ugly?" She stretched out her hands, and she seemed to be able to see that the slender fingers were slightly disguised.

"That's because I only know to hide in my room and cry secretly. I have frostbite in winter, and my ten fingers are so badly festered that they bleed when I touch them. It's not an exaggeration. The rotten appearance is disgusting. For more than seven years, I have never No one said to take me to see a doctor, only occasionally when I was at my aunt’s house, my aunt would give me medicine and shed a lot of tears for me, and when people asked me, I could only say that it could not be cured.”

"Can you believe it, I didn't speak for a year, and finally my aunt told me that my aunt is also a mother! I can speak slowly."

"But my family can only speak ill of my aunt and the others. They think how good they are to me. They never know the pain they bring me and want to die. But how sad my aunt and aunt should be." The older child can't just disappear like this.

"Do you want paper towels?" As the saying goes, every family has its own hard-to-read scriptures. Knowing the conflicts in her family, I thought it was just arguing with my family, but I didn't expect the story to be so tragic. Even though I feel sorry for this girl, I don't know what to say for a while. Just comfort her.

Yu Xi rolled her eyes: "No, I'm the strongest." After so many years, the wound has healed long ago, although it still hurts occasionally, it's not a big deal.

Seeing her smug little face, Han Qingrui felt even more distressed, even though the wound had already grown, the devastated scars would still feel distressed

Lin Yuxi doesn't care whether Han Qingrui is willing to listen to his past events, but let her talk enough of the armor she finally took off.Sharing with others may also reduce the pain in the heart.

"In seven or eight years, I couldn't laugh, and I couldn't speak a few words. Every night, I either cried or had nightmares. Even if it was secretly, I couldn't escape my parents' scolding and talking."

"So I don't go home. I really can't stand a place full of negative energy. My mother was abused when we were young. It was a hundred times more tragic than the tragedy on the TV series, but I really answered that sentence. Hateful."

Sighing silently, I always say that I am used to it, but in fact it is not so easy to get used to it, every time I think of it, my heart always hurts.I can only blame myself for my bad life. I was born in a patriarchal family. My mother’s life is not easy even if the daughter-in-law is an outsider. I can only blame myself.

"When you are unhappy, think about your aunt and the others. At least they are still there. Forget about the unhappiness in the past. Your life has just begun. Don't be affected by those unhappy things."

Han Qingrui said earnestly, he listened very carefully, and admired this girl's tenacity in his heart, and couldn't help but lament that everyone's life will have an unsatisfactory past, including him.

"You see, I am happy every day, saying that I have the best mentality, but I still have a lot of troubles, you don't know. I can't stand it. If it weren't for the children, I would have divorced a long time ago. The important thing is to learn to self-regulate , as long as the sky hasn’t fallen, it’s no big deal.”

(End of this chapter)