One-man puppet Xi

Chapter 54 What's the use of being beautiful?
There are indeed many beautiful things in life, but no matter how beautiful it is, what's the use of it? If you can't get what you really want, what's the meaning of life if you can't get comfort in your heart.There is no family affection, no love, and very few friendships.Everything is lost, what am I doing alive?
"How could I not care about you, I will definitely take you to see a doctor." Mu Nan couldn't control his emotions, and couldn't help but tapped her forehead.

"Then give me some time, please." She is really tired now, and she just wants to lie on the bed.

"Then you promise me that you won't do stupid things anymore, and eat your meal now."

"it is good."

Mu Nan opened the food, but fortunately, it was relatively light food, and the medicine should have arrived after the meal.

I took the phone and sent a long-lost circle of friends

"There is always someone in my heart, even if I don't contact, I will always be in my heart."

Mu Nanhui thought about this circle of friends, and couldn't help but smile wryly, Xixi, why do you like him so much!

Han Qingrui naturally also saw this circle of friends, and if you look closely, you can still see the corners of his mouth upturned, but he couldn't send her a WeChat message, but he didn't know because Yuxi was in a dire situation.

Looking at this circle of friends repeatedly, I suddenly felt very sad, and my heart throbbed with pain. His child is in elementary school, and he can still recall the joy of being a father at the beginning, but this time his little feather is pregnant. Without hesitation, he abandoned the child who should not have been born.

Little Feather, sorry for making you suffer.But I can't do anything, I want to, but I can't give up this family, and I don't want to make you sad, but I always make you sad.Little Feather, what should I do, I can't even coax you, I can only continue to walk with you, let nature take its course.

Or do you want to let go of this wrong relationship?
What should I do to make each other have no regrets for the rest of their lives, but Xiao Yu, just like you said, even if we don't contact each other, you will always be in my heart.

In the next few days, Lin Yuxi still looked blank, without a smile or upgrade, and went to the hospital to see a doctor at Mu Nan's insistence.Then such a small city does not have a more professional cardiology department at all, so it can only go to a big city for treatment.

In City A, I received a series of professional examinations. The chief physician looked at the beautiful girl in front of me. I don’t know what kind of experience caused me to suffer from depression since I was a child. I have been suffering from depression for so many years, and now I am here for treatment. It is also a good thing, although there are quite a lot of girls suffering from depression now, but every one of them is like her.

"Girl, severe depression, severe anxiety, must be hospitalized."

"I don't want to be hospitalized, just give me some medicine." Lin Yuxi was not surprised by the result, but still rejected the suggestion without hesitation.Severe depression doesn't really matter if it's treated or not.

"No, listen to the doctor." Mu Nan had a tough attitude, and turned to talk to the doctor directly: "Doctor, arrange to be hospitalized."

"I don't want to be hospitalized, Mu Nan, please leave it alone, I'm really fine." She doesn't want to be treated, she has been here for so many years, there is nothing she can't live with.He really didn't want to step into the hospital.

Looking at her almost dim eyes, Mu Nan felt pain in his heart.Patiently persuading him, since they all came to the hospital, no matter what, they must be cured this time.

"Severe depression is very dangerous, whether it is physical or psychological, so it is better to be hospitalized. In this state, drugs alone are not effective, and the pain cannot continue."

"I'm really fine, and if I'm hospitalized, I can definitely be cured? I don't think it's necessary." It's not that she doesn't believe in the current medical level of medical conditions, she just doesn't believe in herself.

There is a thorn stuck deep in the heart, and if it is pulled out, it may cause death due to excessive blood loss. If it is not pulled out, it will be accompanied by constant pain, so how to choose.

The doctor also persuaded: "The chances of being cured of depression are still very high. The main method is electroconvulsive therapy. This is the best way to treat depression. The treatment process is short, but part of the memory may be lost,"

Depression can torture people's minds the most, and it may be life-threatening at any time.She has seen many people walking on the street and breaking into traffic without warning, all because of depression.

Mu Nan said firmly: "It doesn't matter if you lose your memory, the main thing is to cure the disease, doctor, arrange it, we will be hospitalized."

"it is good."

In the end, he was hospitalized, and Lin Yuxi was entangled. He didn't know how to explain to his family, how much gossip the family would gossip about, what to say to Han Qingrui, or how to talk to the company leaders. explain.In her opinion, depression is a small thing, not a major physical disease, but she has to trouble so many people and make so many people worry about her, she is really sorry.

And he was also afraid that the family members would look strangely at him, she really didn't want them to know.

"Don't worry, just let me stay with you during this time, anyway, I have nothing to do at home." Mu Nan looked at her serious face, knowing that she didn't want to trouble anyone, but at this time, no one can Stop him from taking care of her.

He knows that he can't be the one she loves the most, but he can be the most important friend in her heart and take care of her silently, so he is satisfied.As long as she is good, he is good.

"I don't want to cause you any trouble. It's okay. My elder brother and elder sister's family is in City A. I'll just let my elder sister take care of me."

The eldest sister is the eldest child of the aunt's family. Usually the aunt is busy with the eldest sister and the second sister taking care of her. The eldest sister is an adult and she walks slowly. During the years of studying in technical school, the elder brother and elder sister take care of her. The elder brother is the husband and godfather of the eldest sister. Son, the relationship has always been good and he takes good care of her.

But I'm struggling with how to tell them.

"Our relationship is troublesome or not, don't worry, everything is up to me!" Given this rare opportunity, he had to perform well no matter what.

"Thank you!"

The two looked at each other and smiled, she compromised, ready to face all this calmly.

The hospitalization was arranged, and the doctor's certificate was ready before I was ready to tell the company leader.After thinking about it, I decided to send Han Qingrui a wechat message first. I wanted to make a phone call, but I was afraid that I could not help but cry and make him worry, although I really wanted to hear his voice.

"Brother Rui, I'm going to take sick leave. I have severe depression and severe anxiety. The doctor requires hospitalization. The initial period is one month. I will trouble you during this time. I really can't stand it any longer. I will call later To the leaders, thank you for your hard work."

The tone was full of apology. If one person asks for leave, his work will naturally fall to other colleagues. What's more, he still asks for a month's leave. I can only apologize for this.

I called the leaders one by one and officially prepared to be hospitalized. This seems to be the second hospitalization in my life. It feels quite amazing.Recalling that I was hospitalized with a broken arm in the sixth grade of elementary school, in a separate ward of a private hospital, accompanied by my mother and my second sister who was about to give birth.But this time, it was Mu Nan, who will never forget this kindness.

　If you haven't experienced it, you may never know how painful depression is. .

　　
　
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