The origin of the star lotus world

Chapter 1284 Text
Text Chapter 230 Two

"How can I return my youth? It's not unforgivable when I become fat. I know Lin Qicheng that you don't like me, just like no one in the mortal world likes me. I understand. I've been used to it for a long time in my life. I'm done." After I finished speaking, I patted his hand, I don't like people who are too fat, so I just don't want to talk, he doesn't need to force himself to act with me.I wanted to continue talking, but Lin Qisheng held my shoulder tightly and let him go.

"Thinking about when I was in the first year of junior high school, I often saw a female classmate in my class. She was very fashionable, cheerful, and a girl with a personality. After seeing it a lot, I felt good and moved. At that time, I saw Mengmeng. TV dramas, once in a dream, I wanted to see novels in TV drama versions that had not yet been published at that time. The genuine books and novels I bought in bookstores in the city were created by the author in his early years, and TV dramas were adapted and filmed. At that time, they were not the same as TV dramas. Literary books with plots, but I really want to read them. At that time, I really wanted to read them. Some love TV dramas were very popular in those days. They became popular all over the country. It’s so touching. I said in my car that I dreamed of seeing the script novel of the TV series. The adults smiled, and my mother said that I might become famous because of this in the future. When I was in the first grade of junior high school, I used light colors outside the school. Kicking stones with sneakers is not pretending to be simple, but really simple. At that time, simplicity was whiter than white paper and as clean as pure water. It was really a simple person. That fashionable girl with mid-length hair reaching her shoulders Will take the initiative to say hello to me, she is very outgoing, and I am more introverted, maybe I am more precocious, although the appearance is only ordinary and chubby, but has a very unique temperament. Some male students discuss in private, although they sometimes bully me and make fun of me I was obese, I didn’t study well, and I was isolated by my classmates, but some people commented that I looked very noble, and I had an indescribable temperament. Maybe it was because my family was still rich at that time, or because of something. In fact, it was because of my inner self. I have always felt that I am very strong inside. Even if I am bullied in this life, it is only temporary. Life is a big dream, and the real me is when I wake up. At that time, I took my own car to and from school, my mother, my father or others People drove me to the parking lot at the gate of the school, and then I walked into the school. When I walked to the teaching building in the morning, I often walked through the side door of the teaching building. When I arrived early, there was no one in the corridor. The glass will show my figure. I glance arrogantly and loftily at the blurred side face reflected in the glass. I like that moment very much. It seems that my appearance and temperament have instantly increased to a dimension. Smiling, she continues to act as a fat student who is not very good at studying. Some girls in the class said that when they looked at me in the morning, their faces would glow. It was because I used cosmetics, and the classroom lights were so bright. Confidence, of course I look refreshed and energetic. My skin became fair at that time, but my skin background in this life is a standard yellow skin. I still have to drink a lot of dairy products to maintain my fair skin. Quality, if exposed to more sunlight, the original skin tone will appear, the skin will become dark, and it needs to be restored before it can become white and shiny again. I envy those natural white skin that does not darken no matter how much sun exposure, that kind of cold light white tenderness The skin is great. I didn’t have such a good skin in this life in the mortal world. I used cosmetics and dairy products to maintain it. As the saying goes, white skin covers three ugliness. White skin is good for the image. That fashionable girl, she was kind at that time Kind, sometimes I was bullied by my classmates, she would say something for me, I was very grateful to her, but I didn’t express some gratitude. She used to come to the library occasionally, just sitNear me, I once sat with my back facing. "

"There's a story! What else?" Lin Qicheng stared at me, something I said suddenly caught his attention and vigilance.

"It's nothing, Lin Qicheng, your youth in this life is waiting for the person you dream of liking, but in my youth, I didn't know who the person I dreamed of liking in this life..." After I finished speaking, he lifted his arm from my shoulder He took it off, but he didn't want to let it go, but I forcibly let it go.

I said that I wanted to sit in another seat. There are more than 1 seats in the lobby of this magnificently decorated library. The space is very open and divided into multiple areas, some of which are seats.But he refused to let me continue to sit where I was and chat with him about my past.

"That girl is very nice, I will look at her, she will look at me. In the biology experiment class, the old lady of the biology teacher used small animals to do experiments on the laboratory platform, and observed the nerve response through micro-electric shocks, and other things. Multiple experiments. One time when I was doing an experiment, the female classmate raised her hand and went to the podium to do the experiment according to the teacher's request, and showed the students on the projection screen. I went to the side of the empty seat, and there were no students in that row, so I didn't sit in the original seat. I took off the bracelet I was wearing at that time, twirled the bracelet of white giant clam, and watched the podium experiment and projection display quietly, mainly looking at the girl. The fashionable girl found me watching her in her spare time. Looking at me, it seemed that something changed suddenly at that moment. In the biology class, we used earthworms, rabbits, swallows, fish, toads, and pigeons to do experiments. Many people thought it was nothing. This is biological science. Through physical observation, we can gain a deep understanding of biological knowledge. Some male students at the next table said that I was hypocritical and pretended not to bear to see these things. They said that I didn’t eat meat. In fact, I ate more meat. But I don’t think there is any grievance or enmity with these little creatures. They are not good enough to live. Of course they can be eaten. It’s not necessary. You can watch the videos and pictures of biology class, which also have a teaching effect. In the second year of junior high school, I love beauty even more. A female classmate said that my hands are women’s hands. Because I have not worked at home for a long time, I have become more delicate. I am not ashamed of this. Aesthetics, fat can also be beautiful. In the second and third semesters of junior high school, there was a southern boy in the class who looked like a TV drama scumbag. He treated me better. I mistakenly thought that he was special to me, but these were just my thoughts. He was speaking in class on the first day of junior high school. At that time, the female teacher in the political class asked the students what kind of students they didn't like. The teacher wanted the students to say that they didn't like those who didn't follow the rules and mischievous ones, but this boy said no I like people who are not good at studying, and I was not good at studying at that time, and my grades were at the bottom of the class. Later, my academic performance improved a little, and my total grades were only in the middle or lower class. After graduating from junior high school summer vacation, I sent a text message to express my love, Of course, the ending was bleak. I was texted back saying how attractive I was? I was also insulted by the words of the text message. This kind of lethality was quite powerful. I expected nothing at the time, so I just refused. I didn’t expect to be teased and ridiculed. I think It’s really embarrassing to think about it. Hey, I’m so sentimental. I’ve been scolded by this person before, and I can bear it. I’ve endured it many times. It’s just being scolded. It’s no different from other bullies. I haven’t avoided it for so many years. , It was because I thought too much at that time, it was just my own fantasy, and I regarded other people's little favors as good, and I recalled and strengthened this feeling over and over again at that time, and then I thought about it, why was that, I was really deceiving myself , self-deception. I was in the first year of high school, and I gradually let it go. The environment in the high school class is really much better. There are very few bullies. Everyone is busy preparing for the exam. At the time of junior high school, I was just too eager to get A little bit of care, I really want to be protected, I don’t want to be bullied, I just want to be respected, that’s all. I didn’t know what liking was at that time, some behaviors and emotions were just imitating some plots of TV dramas , It cannot be said to be an illusion, but in fact it is similar. When I grow up, I will clearly understand what is like and what is love, but it is only a half-knowledge. This life is really a long-term reading of other people's stories. "In fact, sometimes being an audience is quite good. Some characters in the story have very brilliant experiences, but not necessarily only good. They may experience many twists and turns and trials. There are many difficulties. Only by overcoming and moving forward can dreams come true.

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