Sick and beautiful people are not allowed to be white moonlight

Chapter 123
"what?"

"More than one suicide."

Lingyan looked at him from the side, feeling very uncomfortable and uncomfortable, she slowed down and asked softly: "Why?"

The air was quiet for a while.

In order to create a sensational atmosphere, Shangdu did not turn on the lights, and opened the curtains to let the moonlight shine in and shine on the ground.

The darkness blurred his facial features, only his slightly moving lips could be seen speaking slowly.

"I have a younger brother named Shangxiu."

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Shangdu was born in a wealthy merchant in the capital, his father's name is Shanglu, and his mother's name is Shen Yi.

Shen Yi started to hate Shang Du when he was one year old, because Shang Du always kept quiet and stared out of the window with dim eyes, not knowing what he was looking at.

She was very superstitious, and cautiously thought that Shangdu was looking at something evil. During that time, Shen Yi was a little postpartum depressed. She looked at Shangdu and didn't speak. She was sensitive and suspicious. When she got angry, she would scratch him and put him on the face. Scratched full of scars.

Shang Lu, who loves his wife very much, felt distressed when he found out, and immediately took Shang Du to Mrs. Shang to raise him.

It was not until Shang Du was two years old that he was taken back. At this time, Shen Yi gave birth to a younger brother named Shang Xiu.

Shangxiu is a small one, always loves to laugh, at the age of eight months, he can walk stumblingly while supporting things, calling "Dad", "Mom" and "Brother" in a childish voice.

And as the elder brother Shang Du who is two years older, he rarely called Shang Lu and Shen Yi, and once in a while, he would get scared looks from Shen Yi.

Adults always think that children are ignorant, but they actually know everything. Shangdu knows that Shen Yi doesn't like calling her, so she seldom calls.

The birthdays of Shangdu and Shangxiu are only one day apart.

In order to save trouble, both Shen Yi and Shang Lu will choose Shang Xiu's birthday to celebrate together.

Shangdu wants to blow out candles, wear a birthday hat, make a wish...

But Shen Yi stopped him with a stern face, and said: "Shangdu, you are an older brother, you must give way to younger brother."

This sentence runs through Shangdu's entire childhood.

It was Shangdu's first birthday, and there were no candles to blow, no birthday hat to wear, and no one to sing a birthday song to him.

Seeing Shang Lu and Shen Yi happily kissing each other on Shang Xiu's face, laughing and laughing, it has nothing to do with him.

Shangdu lost his temper, wanting to get attention, he closed himself in the room, hid in the closet, thinking: as long as my parents come to apologize to me, I will forgive them.

But that day, no one came to look for him until after midnight, and everyone forgot that Shangdu was also the protagonist of his birthday.

That day, Shangdu carried the stool downstairs and put it in front of the refrigerator, stepped on the stool to open the refrigerator, tasted the leftover cake, and cried, "This cake is really unpalatable."

Later, he never had a birthday, nor did he eat cake, let alone make a wish.

When he was seven years old, Shangxiu was five years old.

Shangdu likes to play with scalpels, computers, and computers, but Shangxiu likes to draw and play the piano. Shangxiu likes to pester Shangdu and want him to accompany him. If Shangdu doesn't want him, he will cry.

A crying child has candy.

Shen Yi immediately made up his mind to let Shang Du learn painting and play the piano with Shang Xiu.

Shangdu is not a person who fights for himself, he takes what others give him, just like himself.

Everyone was happy, and Shang Lu rarely praised him: "Shangdu is sensible."

Shangdu didn't speak, watching his parents and younger brother laughing and chatting happily, he felt lonely again.

Later, in order for Shang Du to take better care of Shang Xiu, Shen Yi specially delayed Shang Du's school time, so the two brothers were in the same grade.

Shangdu has good grades, he can get full marks in every exam, and the certificates he got from childhood to adulthood can be plastered all over the wall, but Shangxiu's grades are not ideal. Since junior high school, he has been playful, likes to fight, and has made a group of cronies. He has a sweet mouth and can make Shang Lu and Shen Yi happy.

Shang Du got the perfect score in the test paper, Shen Yi could only say lightly: "Keep going."

As for passing the Shangxiu exam, Shen Yi would smile all over his face and say proudly: "We Xiuxiu are so good that we passed the exam, keep working hard!"

Shang Du, who was holding the perfect test paper, looked at them blankly, then went into the room and put on his earphones.

Shangdu has been withdrawn since he was a child, he doesn't get along with others, he doesn't fight or grab, people in the circle will speak ill of him behind his back, many children will specifically bully him, scold him, isolate him...

When I was ten years old.

Shang Xiu lost the scalpel he sharpened himself, and he wanted an apology.

Eight-year-old Shang Xiu cried heart-rendingly. Angrily, Shen Yi picked up a stick and hit Shang Du, cursing at the same time: "Why are you so ignorant? You are an older brother. You should let your younger brother do it. No! It’s just a broken knife, you stare at it like a fool every day, do you know what people say about you, can you understand something!?”

The beating hurt, but Shangdu gritted his teeth and didn't cry or shout.

After Shen Yi finished venting, she carried Shang Xiu up to the second floor. At this moment, Shen Yi spoke very softly, the kind of gentleness that Shang Du had never heard before.

"Stop crying, Xiuxiu. If we cry, we won't be men anymore. Mom will make you a small cake and accompany you to the playground, okay? Let's not get angry with that annoying brother brother, be good..."

After hearing the word "hate", Shangdu suddenly cried, crying very sadly, but no one came to comfort him.

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in his time.

The merchants have a big business, black and white take all, and offended many gangsters.

That day, Shangdu and Shangxiu were sitting in the same car, when suddenly a large truck sped up and crazily bumped into the front of the car.

Shangxiu was 16 years old that year, and Shangdu was eighteen years old.

In an emergency, Shangdu wanted to make Shangxiu jump off the car, but Shangxiu didn't dare, saying he was afraid.

There was a delay, and the vehicle was hit by a truck and fell down a five-meter-high landslide.

When he finally woke up, Shang Du still wanted to save Shang Xiu who had passed out, but he was human and overestimated his own strength, the blood from his forehead got his eyes, his world turned red, and then he passed out.

When he woke up again, there was no one around him.

Later he found out that Shang Xiu and the driver were both dead.

Shen Yi cried and trembled all over, rushed into the ward and shouted like crazy: "Why didn't you die! Why! We are only 16 years old!"

Shang Lu walked in and said indifferently: "Shangdu, you killed your brother, why didn't you save him."

For a moment, Shangdu seemed to have tinnitus, his mind went blank, he opened his mouth to say: I want to save him.

But no one will listen.

There was crying in the ward.

As if everything was his fault.

That night, Shang Du sat on the balcony and picked up the scalpel again.

Blood spurted out.

Shangdu was lying on the ground, looking at the blue night sky, showing a long-lost smile.

(End of this chapter)