All living beings in hell

Chapter 192 - Old Zhang, Thoracic Surgeon
The lotus lantern at the entrance was lit up, and the office welcomed the 140th customer No. [-].

An old man with the appearance of a scholar wearing wooden round glasses walked in.He was wearing a white coat, with a bald spot on the top of his head, and curly white hair curled around his head like a cloud.Both hands are wrinkled, and there is a large age spot on the left cheek.His bags under the eyes are huge, and it seems that there is a bag of ink hidden inside, which is about to overflow through his pores.

"It's a bit late, sorry to bother you."

"Don't disturb, please sit down."

The old man yawned big, holding a black mug in his right hand.He took a sip of the liquid in the mug, and I smelled the long-lost coffee.

"What should I call you?"

"My surname is Zhang, just call me Lao Zhang."

"Old Zhang, why did you come to me today?"

"It's nothing important, let's chat casually."

"Okay, let's talk about your life."

"Before I was alive, I was a doctor, can you tell?" Lao Zhang rubbed the top of his bald head, "It is true that I have to spend money on studying medicine. I had this hairstyle in my early 30s. When I died, I was 76, or This hairstyle haha."

"How did you die?"

"Actually, most doctors are not in good health. I am a thoracic surgeon, and each operation takes an average of five or six hours. If I stand for a long time, I get varicose veins in my calves, and my knees are not very good. It is high pressure again. For homework, when I was younger, I could do two to three surgeries a day at most. Thinking about it, it was like crazy. I really thought that if I could save one, it would be a good thing.

After seven or eight years of doing this, I have exhausted myself.

My stomach is broken because I don't eat regularly.With chronic gastritis, I couldn't drink a drop of wine, and even before my death, I felt very uncomfortable when I vomited whatever I ate.

My eyes are not good, and I can't find a symptom when I check it. I just stare at something for too long, and I feel dizzy and I can't stand firmly on my feet.

Speaking of which, this has something to do with my death. "

"Tell me."

"It's really fun to talk about. I'm standing in the gallery and I'm looking at a painting by Xu Beihong in his early years. The painting is two shrimps playing in the water. Although the painting style is immature, it is early to show everyone's clues. I After staring at the painting for a long time, I suddenly came back to my senses and found that my head suddenly became dizzy.

The gallery was on the second floor of a small alley, and the alley stairs were wooden, old and old, and they had to turn sideways when walking, and they creaked and screamed.I walked down the stairs sideways, my head was so dizzy, and I stumbled and rolled down chattering.

This roll, the crotch was broken.

Well, I have been a doctor all my life, but I know that if this crotch is broken, there is no way to save it.

This fall, good thing, directly threw me from an expert director to a retiree at home.I couldn't attend any seminars at the hospital, so I just lay in bed to recuperate.

Let me tell you, this person has to work, especially the elderly, so they cannot lie down.

When I lay down, my hip bones were not properly nourished, and my heart was no longer nourished.

At that time, I thought to myself, I am 78, and I don’t have the recovered spirit of my youth.From then on, it is estimated that walking will become difficult. Will I become the kind of old man who is often seen in the hospital being pushed in a wheelchair?It's scary to think about it. I usually exercise regularly just to keep my legs and feet convenient. This is great and I'm done. "

"and after?"

"Let me tell you, my illness, I really scared myself to death nine times out of ten. My children live far away, and I don't want to trouble them. I have enough savings, so I asked someone to take care of me. .

At that time, my wife had been gone for more than ten years, and sometimes I felt desolate when I thought about my current appearance.The nurse leaves after [-]:[-] pm every day. If I die in the middle of the night, no one will know.

I was so scared, so scared to death.Having witnessed so many lives and deaths on the operating table, I am still afraid of death.

Then I got a little nervous. "

"You mean, you're getting a little nervous?"

"Yes! In order to have someone at home 24 hours a day, I hired three nurses to take care of me in turn. Without my permission, don't leave me for half a step. But I am used to living alone for a long time, and there is someone next to me Watching, I feel upset again.

Later, my temper became bad, and I often yelled at the nurses.What a worthless old man, taking all his anger out on those poor young children.

Some of the children tolerated me at first, but they also ran away. No matter how high the wages were, they all ran away.I feel so cold in my heart, I feel that I have become a bad old man who is hated by others.

A year has passed, but the hip is still not healed, and I have to use a wheelchair to go in and out.I really thought, if I pretended to fall from the stairs one day, I would die like this, but I felt so painful, wouldn’t it be a waste of suffering if I couldn’t die?
In the end, there was only one nurse who was willing to take over for me, a down-to-earth young man with skin as dark as pitch.

The young man speaks with an AH accent. I used to have a child with an AH accent. It sounds very kind.

I don't know if this kid is stupid or slow, no matter how I lose my temper at him, he acts as if nothing happened.He still takes care of my daily life, wipes shit and urine, cooks and lays quilts.Of course, the money I gave was not stingy, and the young man was required to be on call 24 hours a day, and the young man never complained to me.

Another year passed, and the boy suffered from my temper for a year, and he lost a lot of weight, but he still smiled like that foolishly.I watched him lose weight, and I felt bad, so I wrapped him a red envelope of [-] yuan in the New Year, and asked him to take it home to have a good year.

The young man looked at the red envelope, and the corners of his mouth almost went up to the sky.He told me for the first time about his family situation, that he has a younger brother who is going to college and a mother who has type [-] diabetes.My mother has to take insulin all the year round, and my younger brother is waiting for the money to go to college. The family relies on his father to farm the land and him to work outside the home to earn money.He also said that I was his benefactor, and his brother's tuition was settled.

It was very sad to hear him say that, and another [-] was stuffed into him.

If I had known that I was going to leave during the Spring Festival, I would have given him another 20 yuan and recommended the best doctor in the country to treat his mother.I was still thinking about it at the time, but who knew that I left first. "

"How did you die?"

Lao Zhang looked at me with vicissitudes in his eyes: "Actually, I foresaw my own death the night before I passed away."

"In a dream?"

Lao Zhang nodded: "In the dream, I saw myself falling from a very high place, and it just disappeared. There was no pain in my body, and I felt that I was living a good life. I really still think about it. Thinking about that child, wondering if he would feel guilty when he came back and saw that I was gone?"

"The next day, did you really fall?"

"The next day, I deliberately climbed up a very high wooden ladder and waited for the wooden ladder to fall. After waiting for 10 minutes, my legs were sore, but the ladder didn't fall! It's done, it seems that I was thinking too much.

I went to cook myself a bowl of poached egg noodles, ate it in a daze, and then went to take a nap.

When I took a nap, I felt quite peaceful, and then I left. "

"That's fine, and it's not painful."

"It's really funny to say that my own child doesn't miss it, but that young man."

"Is this your only regret in life?"

"Regret? If you want to say that there are many regrets, that may be the most capable regret. It is even more regretful to be casual."

"Actually, you have already done a good job, let him go for the rest of his life."

Lao Zhang rubbed his eyes and tapped his head again, wondering if he was dizzy again: "I hope this child will live well in the future."

"Dizzy again?" I asked.

"I didn't expect that the illnesses in life would still exist after death, and the soul will also be sick."

"If the soul is sick enough, it will reflect on the body."

Lao Zhang smiled: "If I was alive, I would point at your nose and curse that this is pseudoscience!"

"now what?"

"Now I have nothing to argue with you, I'm dead."

"What are you going to do next?"

"I'm just in transit here, and I'm going to drink Mengpo soup the day after tomorrow."

"Congratulations! You can go back again!"

Lao Zhang waved his hand: "Hey, what's there to congratulate, just be a human again!"

"Do you still want to be a doctor?"

"This time I want to be a young man, so that I can be handsome for a few years."

"Isn't it handsome enough to be a doctor?"

"Hair falls out so fast!"

I smiled: "What are you going to do then?"

"When I was young, I wanted to be a firefighter. I saw them wearing uniforms and holding a large water hose to put out fires. They were so handsome. But then my father told me that all smart people should be doctors, and firefighters are all strong limbs and simple minds. Only professionals can do it, so I will become a doctor.

Going back this time, I have to realize my childhood dream. "

"Maybe a new life will bring new dreams."

"The current dream is very firm, to be a handsome and muscular firefighter."

"Okay, then I wish you a dream come true!"

"What about you? What do you want to do?"

Lao Zhang asked me suddenly, and I froze for a moment.

"I didn't think so."

"I don't think there are many customers in the back, and your work is almost over."

"It's coming to an end... Also, something to think about."

Lao Zhang got up, his body wobbly: "The light here is too weak, if you sit down again, you will faint again."

"Then come here today."

"No matter what you do, don't be a doctor, it's too hard."

"Unless for some lofty ideal or belief."

"That thing can make you breathe a sigh of relief." Lao Zhang adjusted his glasses. "See you later, if there is a chance."

"If there is a chance."

Lao Zhang waved his hand, adjusted his pace, and supported the bookshelf to stabilize his balance. I watched his figure disappear at the door of the office.

(End of this chapter)