There is a bar in Houhai

Chapter 537 Mr. Van Gogh
"I've already looked away. I can already ignore him. If you hate him because he left me, I hope you will also look away." Shen Qingyi said distressedly to her son.

"I hope you can avoid him, ignore him, or even treat him as if he doesn't exist, but I don't want you to live in resentment forever."

Shen Qingyi looked at her son with clenched fists and his face turned blue, and continued to persuade: "Now you have Mo Han, me, and Mo Han's family to live together, and you will have your own children in the future, mother I really don't want any more involvement between you and him, I just hope you can be happy."

Qin Mohan stretched out his hand to hold Shen Fang's tightly clenched left hand, his hand had turned purple from too much force.The psychological unrest caused his hands to tremble slightly.

Shen Fang stood up and said to Shen Qingyi: "Mom, you can forgive him as if he doesn't exist, but I can't, I will never forgive him." After finishing speaking, he turned and walked out the door.

"Ah, where are you going?" Shen Qingyi looked at Shen Fang and asked.

"I want to go out and have a quiet time." Shen Fang dropped a sentence, and Qin Mohan immediately stood up.

"Mo Han, go and persuade him."

Shen Qingyi's words made Qin Mohan pause for a moment, Qin Mohan looked at Shen Qingyi and said, "Mom, I won't persuade him, I'm his wife, I will support him in whatever choice he makes, even if he is against the whole world , and I stand beside him."

After Qin Mohan finished speaking, he bowed to Shen Qingyi, and then followed them out with their coats: "Mom, I'll accompany him."

In the courtyard, I ran into Xiao Nanrong and Qin Ruoxi who had just come out of the corner door of the garage: "Sister, where are you going? Brother-in-law's face was so ugly just now, why did he drive out by himself? Did you quarrel?"

"No, we have something to do when we go out." Qin Mohan said something perfunctory to his sister, and then said to Xiao Nanrong: "Mom, you go into the house to accompany Shen Fang's mother, something happened today."

After finishing speaking, he chased out under the surprised eyes of his mother. At this time, Shen Fang was ready to drive out of the warehouse, and he and Xiao Nanrong just nodded.

Suspicious Xiao Nanrong entered the room and saw Shen Qingyi who was in a daze, and asked, "Sister Qing, did the eldest sister make you angry, I will deal with him later."

"No, Mo Han is a good boy, it's just that Xiaoye..."

"Shen Fang, you wait for me." Qin Mohan stood directly in front of the car, blocking the way of the car: "No matter where you go, I will accompany you, but you can't leave me behind." In the last sentence, Qin Mohan had already Some choked up: "I once said, no matter what you do, I will stand by your side, and you don't want to carry it alone."

"Alas!" Shen Fang sighed, got out of the car, and stretched out his arms to hug Qin Mohan tightly. Shen Fang heard what she and Shen Qingyi said just now: "Actually, you don't need it. Quiet place, my heart is so blocked, I can't get angry at my mother."

"No, I'll be with you." Qin Mohan wiped his eye sockets with his hand, looked at Shen Fang and said firmly.

"Okay!" Shen Fang nodded.

Qin Mohan pushed him to the co-pilot and drove by himself: "Tell me, where are we going? I'll accompany you."

Shen Fang stared blankly at the front, not knowing how to answer, yes, where should he go?It stands to reason that this is my home, and it took me a while before I said to Qin Mohan, "Go to Changyuan."

Qin Mohan glanced at him, his expression was gloomy but determined.Qin Mohan didn't speak, but reached out and found a cloth bag that used to hold a sachet in the armrest box. There was a key in it, and Shen Fang really put it here.

Changyuan and the other three residential areas named after the garden together are the first overall planning residential area in Yanjing City, located on the southeast second ring road, not far from Longtan Park.

In the 90s, this community was regarded as a rich area in Yanjing. At that time, it was 1200 yuan/square meter.Jin Luo and Shen Qingyi spent more than 90 yuan to buy this 8-square-meter house in 75. At that time, they borrowed the money from Shen Haiyang.Jin Luo kept emphasizing that it was borrowed, maybe it was this incident that hurt his self-esteem back then.

Now this community is dilapidated, and the first batch of old residents may have moved out. At present, except for some old people who are really attached to this place, most of the rest here are migrant workers who came to Beijing from other places.Although it is an old community, the supporting facilities are fairly complete, and the city heating is also open.Qian Bin's arrangements are also in place. Every two weeks, a housekeeping company will come to help ventilate and clean the house, and the house remains as it was.

Qin Mohan parked the car and looked at Shen Fang who was walking silently ahead, feeling extremely distressed.

If he really vented out like an ordinary person, yelling, smashing things, throwing things, and then venting out, Qin Mohan would not be worried.Now he is like a dead volcano, without any trace of eruption, but as the person who is most familiar with him around him, Qin Mohan knows that he is suppressing himself with his strong self-control.

He is always restraining and suppressing, and he is able to take into account other people's emotions very rationally.Qin Mohan really didn't want to see him suffer so much, and didn't want to see him always suppressing the sadness in his heart.

"Mom, it's okay, I'll accompany her. Tell Aunt Qing, I'm in Changyuan with him." Qin Mohan made a phone call with his mother, then took out a bottle of whiskey from the trunk, thought about it, and then Grab a bottle of red wine.

"Sister Qing, they are now in Changyuan. It should be in your old house." Xiao Nanrong hung up the phone and said to Shen Qingyi: "You don't have to blame Xiaoye, he can't get over this hurdle in his heart, you also said, this A child is precocious, and the more precocious a child is, the easier it is to get into a dead end. Let Mo Han persuade him."

Qin Mohan explained to Cheng Yue and Li Hui who followed him, and arranged for them to go to the stewed vegetable shop at the gate of the community to buy some stewed vegetables.Then Qin Mohan came upstairs with two bottles of wine and stewed vegetables, the door was closed, and he pushed the door to enter, while Shen Fang stood at the bedroom door in a daze, the size marked on the door was still there.

"My dad also marked me on the door frame back then, but after the second year of junior high school, I never asked my dad to measure it for me." Qin Mohan put the stewed vegetables on the table and said to Shen Fang: "Because Since the second year of junior high school, I haven't grown up for a year, and I feel a little lost."

"This is not my height before. This should be reproduced by Qian Bin based on the photos after he bought the house. Although it is very similar, but it is not." Shen Fang shook his head: "Not only this door frame, but also this sofa, this Neither is the coffee table or the piano inside. Some things are lost, and even if I try to find them back, it is not the same home as it used to be, and it is not the same as it used to be, and we will never return Once upon a time."

Qin Mohan opened the whiskey, went to the kitchen to wash two glasses, and put them on the table: "Can you tell me about your childhood? We have known each other for so many years, and you have been avoiding it, but I really want to know ,I think……"

Shen Fang sat on the sofa, poured himself a glass with the wine bottle, and drank it all in one gulp. The pungent taste made him choke and cough.Qin Mohan hurriedly brought him a bottle of purified water.

"People say that a child's memory before the age of seven is messy, but I seem to remember it very clearly." Shen Fang took a sip of water, and then poured himself another glass: "When I just moved into this house, it was 90 years old. , I was just four years old. I clearly remember how happy my mother was, finally not having to squeeze the whole family into a tube building of thirty to forty square meters, with no heating in winter, and having to go to the stairs to go to the toilet.”

Qin Mohan looked around the house: "90 years, wow, this house is bigger than me." Then he stuck out his tongue in embarrassment, then poured himself a glass of wine, raised his head and took a sip, a little rushed, I really don't know them How do you like to drink such strong wine?

Shen Fang took the cup in her hand, and then found a screwdriver from under the coffee table to open a glass of red wine for her: "Don't force it if you're not used to it."

"Sometimes, you just can't force it." Shen Fang shook his head: "My mother was the main buyer of this house back then. At that time, their savings were only 5000 yuan or even less. He disagreed back then, thinking that this house The house exceeded the income of the two. Later, the two quarreled. This is the first time the two quarreled in my memory."

"Uncle brought 8 yuan and said it was for my mother's dowry." Qin Mohan didn't intervene, but just held the red wine and looked at him quietly in deep thought. Shen Fang took another sip and continued: "I guess His self-esteem was touched at that time, and he wrote an IOU to his uncle, saying it was a loan."

Qin Mohan didn't stop him from drinking, and she also wanted Shen Fang to get drunk. She listened to Shen Fang talking about her childhood, and she gradually understood in her heart.

Because of buying a house, Shen Qingyi just wanted to improve the living environment, and Shen Haiyang just felt sorry for his younger sister and nephew and offered to help. However, this planted a thorn in Jin Luo's heart, which made him have a The idea of ​​doing business in the sea.

Shen Fang was drunk, and in a trance he went back to the day when his father moved out of this house.

"I, Jin Luo, am a descendant of the dignified Aixinjueluo family. I am not someone who eats soft food, and I am not a lowly person who has risen by relying on his wife's family." He walked with such determination and without hesitation.Not only did Shen Qingyi cry with pear blossoms in the rain, but it also made Shen Fang's body cold. At that moment, it seemed that he had become an orphan again, a helpless orphan.

Shen Fang stood up whirlingly, Qin Mohan wanted to help him, but Shen Fang refused.Qin Mohan watched him staggeringly take out an acoustic guitar from the bedroom, and then sat here again:
"Whose father died

please tell me how sad

whose lover is gone
please tell me how to forget

we are born alone
we are born alone
......"

The lyrics are straightforward and clear, and the voice is not as warm as when he used to sing ballads, but more cruel and decisive, mixed with hopeless waiting.Qin Mohan, who was listening on the sidelines, couldn't help but burst into tears. He didn't wipe it with his hands, and just let it flow quietly. It turned out that he was once so lonely in his heart, and he was once so helpless.

At the end of the song, Shen Fang began to choke, the guitar fell weakly under the sofa, and the whole person curled up on the sofa like a cooked shrimp.Qin Mohan got up, came to sit beside him, let him lean in his arms, and found that he also had tears streaming down his face.

Some people think that as people grow older, they become mature.Some people think that the sign of maturity is being prudent in doing things, knowing how to behave in the world, not caring about gains and losses, being able to pick up and let go, and not being sad about anything.Most importantly, a mature man should not shed tears.

But is it so?Liu Tianwang of Xiangjiang has a song called "It's not a crime for a man to cry". Men don't cry easily, but they don't reach the point of sadness.If it wasn't for the deep injury, how could he cry like a child.

"Cry, it will make you feel better when you cry." Qin Mohan patted him on the shoulder like coaxing a child, letting him lie in his arms, so that he could have a warm harbor.In the end, both Shen Fang and Qin Mohan were drunk, curled up on the sofa and fell asleep hugging each other.
"Whose father died

please tell me how sad

whose lover is gone
please tell me how to forget

we are born alone
we are born alone
......"

Yes, maybe we are born lonely, and we are slowly getting used to loneliness. Shen Fang, who is immersed in loneliness, feels that there is darkness around him, and he is empty in a strange space, singing this song alone.No matter how he calls, there is no response around, not even an echo.

Maybe I can never go out again, maybe I will die in loneliness.

Silent, confused, constantly falling into the abyss.

Just when he was desperate, he found a little light in front of him,

From one point of light, it gradually expanded, and then one, two, three... like a starry sky.

The night finally dissipated.

Right in front of him, an angel-like figure appeared in front of him, so warm and full of hope.She stretched out her hand to herself, her hand was so soft and warm, it brought her new life and hope.

After waking up from sleep, Shen Fang patted his head and looked at the clock hanging on the wall. Before three o'clock, there was silence outside the window, but he was hugged tightly by Qin Mohan.Looking at her curled up on the sofa, Shen Fang gently picked her up, went to the bedroom, pulled off the quilt, and covered them both.

When Qin Mohan woke up, he found that he was on the bed. It was already daylight, but Shen Fang was beside him.After moving my head, I seemed to finish a bottle of red wine last night.Who says you can't get drunk if you drink a small amount of red wine?Who said red wine has little stamina?
Suddenly, he smelled a smell that was deeply remembered, it was the smell of sour hangover soup. Qin Mohan pulled on his slippers and walked out of the bedroom, and saw Shen Fang was busy in the kitchen that was less than ten square meters.

Qin Mohan couldn't help hugging him from behind, and let his head rest on his back, as if this would relieve the headache caused by the hangover.

"I like the smell on your body," she whispered, "It makes people feel at ease."

"That's because you are familiar with it, so you will feel at ease."

"Hmm. Is this Mom's formula? Have you learned it?" Qin Mohan sniffed and asked Shen Fang.

"No, Mom asked Zhou Qi to send it here. She didn't rest well last night." Shen Fang put down the stirring spoon in his hand, then turned to Qin Mohan and said, "Not only our mother, but also Cheng Master Yue, I also slept in the car downstairs yesterday. Do you think I am too willful?"

"No, you are not capricious. You are venting normally. Human emotions are like springs. They cannot be in a state of pressure for a long time. They need to be released properly." Qin Mohan directly denied his statement and hugged him directly. Tight: "I said, no matter what choice you make, I will stand by your side. If you are happy, I will accompany you to be happy; if you are sad, I will accompany you to be sad; if you are self-willed, I will accompany you to be self-willed. Even if you Damn it, I'll be with you too."

Listening to Qin Mohan's murmur, Shen Fang tightened his arms hugging her a little more: "Thank you, thank you for always being with me."

After the two drank the hangover soup, they felt much refreshed. Shen Fang looked around the old house with nostalgia, and then left with Qin Mohan.Coming downstairs, Shen Fang said apologetically to Cheng Yue who was sitting in the car: "Master Cheng, I'm sorry I made you tired yesterday."

"Young Master Shen, this is what I should do." Cheng Yue smiled at Shen Fang, and he also sensitively felt that Shen Fang's condition is much better today than yesterday.

"Master Cheng, please do one thing." Shen Fang said: "Please sell Changyuan's house, it doesn't matter how much money is, as soon as possible."

"Well, okay." Cheng Yue nodded.

Back in the courtyard, Shen Fang saw Shen Qingyi who was waiting in front of the Chuihua Gate with a haggard face, couldn't help but took two steps forward, and hugged her tightly.

"Mom, I'm sorry."

"Mom is sorry for you, you shouldn't put..."

Before Shen Qingyi finished speaking, she was interrupted by Shen Fang: "Mom, I disposed of Changyuan's house. We will only have this home from now on."

"Well, we will only have this family from now on." Hearing her son's words, Shen Qingyi finally smiled happily, and even Qin Mohan who followed in also smiled.

"Brother, do you blame me?" Jin Yaran, who had been hiding at the door of the west wing room and secretly watching the people, couldn't help asking.

"Why blame you, you are still my sister."

"Well, thank you brother!" Jin Yaran couldn't help but threw herself into Shen Fang's arms and cried.

　PS: Original lyrics and music of "Mr. Van Gogh": Li Zhi.

　　
　
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