Happy life of fishing youth

Chapter 109

In the afternoon, in a shopping mall in Jiading City, Chen Changyu and Lin Jiaojiao were sitting in a Pizza Hut restaurant having lunch.Pizza, steak, pasta, and Pizza Hut are standard.The pasta that Chen Changyu ordered and the steak that Lin Jiaojiao ordered had different tastes.They sat in the window seats and looked out while eating.It was drizzling outside the window, and pedestrians were hurrying on the road.

Lin Jiaojiao looked away first, looked up at Chen Changyu, then lowered his head again.Chen Changyu still looked straight at the outside world, as if his mind had been completely attracted by the outside world, unable to extricate himself.Lin Jiaojiao bit the steak in his mouth, but felt that it had no taste.Her brows were sometimes furrowed and sometimes stretched out, and the tip of her nose was slightly furrowed, obviously her heart was in a very tangled state.At this moment, Chen Changyu withdrew his gaze to the outside, just in time to meet Lin Jiaojiao's gaze looking at him.The four eyes are facing each other, and there is little disturbance to each other.Lin Jiaojiao hastily withdrew her gaze and lowered her head in a concealed manner.Chen Changyu was a little puzzled, what's going on?
In fact, after coming out of the cemetery, Chen Changyu was very curious. What was he curious about?He was really curious about what Lin Jiaojiao said when he finally ran to Xiao Yi's tomb.He thought about it, but couldn't figure out what Lin Jiaojiao would say to Xiao Yi.Because the two of them had no intersection, never knew each other, and never met each other.It has been six years since Xiao Yi left this world, and Lin Jiaojiao was in college at that time.This really made Chen Changyu very curious, but it was difficult for him to ask her.

Although he is an otaku, it does not mean that he is really an Iron Man.The less trouble, the better.

Seeing that Chen Changyu didn't ask anything, Lin Jiaojiao couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.She was also afraid that if Chen Changyu asked her what she said in front of Xiao Yi's tomb, if she really asked her, she really didn't know how to answer him.It's best if Chen Changyu doesn't ask, and she won't tell him of course.Just like what Lin Jiaojiao said to Chen Changyu when he went to Xiao Yi's grave at the end: "Some words are said between girls."

"Let's chat."

Chen Changyu suddenly broke the silence, raised his head and looked at Lin Jiaojiao, his eyes never evading.

When Lin Jiaojiao first heard the words, she was flustered for a while, but when she saw Chen Changyu's clear eyes, she calmed down instead.

"Well, yes. Talk about something?"

Lin Jiaojiao answered the question and asked Chen Changyu.

Chen Changyu thought for a while, then faced out of the window again, and when he turned around again, he began to softly tell Lin Jiaojiao about the past between him and Xiao Yi.He was finally able to freely tell others about this memory.This feeling is really, really amazing.He doesn't know why.

"We met when the School Psychology Association was established. I am from the Department of Literature and Communication, and she is from the Department of Engineering Management. I have been enlightened since I was a child, thanks to my grandfather's teaching, so I have always been very interested in words , when she was in high school, she participated in various literature competitions and submitted a lot of manuscripts. She, like me, is a lover of literature, but she is more interested in mathematics, physics and chemistry. The Psychology Association is led by our college. It was established, and all the schools and departments in the whole school had people to set it up, and it was to participate in the national psychology competition at that time..."

Listening to Chen Changyu's narration of the past, Lin Jiaojiao felt that he should have let go of something, but she didn't know what he had let go of.But she listened really seriously, she really wanted to know about this man's past.He himself said it to himself, and others told himself, are two different things.No one would easily tell anyone their secrets, would they?

Lin Jiaojiao listened carefully to what Chen Changyu said, she was immersed in it, immersed in the memories Chen Changyu said.Her mood fluctuated with the level of Chen Changyu's voice, and changed with the texture of Chen Changyu's voice.Her heart is like a small boat, floating in a sea of ​​memories, rising and falling with the waves.Her expression, her emotions, are all changing according to Chen Changyu's memories.

Chen Changyu suddenly stopped, no longer speaking, but turned his head to look outside again.He still couldn't face the result, couldn't face that incident, couldn't face that blow.He breathed slowly, suppressing the sadness in his heart, and determined to speak out.He didn't know why he suddenly had this feeling of spitting out, but now he just wanted to pour out everything and tell it all.Maybe it was because of the person sitting across from him that made him feel safe enough.

"Xiaoyi decided to resign that summer. The reason is actually very simple. The company stipulates that office romances are not allowed. I was only promoted to the deputy director of the department at that time, and she was reluctant for me to give up. And at that time, our life had just started to improve. So, in the end she decided to leave, but I know she was not very willing. But she quickly let go of her burden, and transformed from an engineer into a caring ambassador who is enthusiastic about public welfare. One day she came back and told me that she was going to the mountainous area of ​​Z Province I will be teaching for a period of time, and I will be leaving the next day.”

Chen Changyu stopped talking, fell into boundless remorse and sadness again, and lowered his head on the dining table.Sitting opposite him, Lin Jiaojiao wanted to stand up several times to comfort him, but she didn't expect her tears to fall out first.After a long time, Chen Changyu adjusted his mood, some things always have to face it.The deep voice sounded again.

"I was not very supportive of her going, but seeing her very happy, I agreed with her. I packed her luggage that night. She was very careless and always lost things. We stayed up all night. , she was very excited, and told me what she saw and heard when she was doing public welfare all night. The next day, I drove her to the station and saw her enter the station with other people. We have never seen each other since then I never imagined that this would be our farewell."

Lin Jiaojiao wiped away her tears, looked at Chen Changyu opposite, feeling distressed in her heart one after another.Chen Changyu took a deep breath and continued.

"After she arrived in the local area, she called me and reported that she was safe. In the next two days, she was very busy. The school in the mountainous area was very short of teachers. She used one person as three people, teaching mathematics, physics, and chemistry. I was so busy that I didn’t even have time to video with me. On the fourth day, I accidentally browsed the news and found out that there was a heavy rainstorm in the local area the night before, which caused mountain torrents, which caused mudslides. Call her. After calling countless times, the same sentence is "the phone you dialed has been shut down." I found her non-profit organization and found out that she and two other girls were involved in the mudslide and their whereabouts are unknown. I was in a daze at the time, and I couldn't believe this fact. I drove to the local area that afternoon and drove for a full twelve hours. When I arrived at the local area, when I saw her, She's already in the freezer at the funeral home."

"I..."

Chen Changyu's voice trembled, his hands trembled, and he covered his face.Tears silently slid down his face and fell from between his fingers.To this day, he can't forget the scene at that moment.

"She was covered in mud, with a smile on her face, her brows were slightly frowned, as if she was troubled by something. When I stretched out my fingers to touch her, it was cold, cold into my heart. I cried I don't know how I got out in the end. I gave her parents' phone number to the staff, and I really didn't have the courage to call them. I didn't take good care of their baby, and I didn't take good care of my own baby. We lost her, we lost our loved ones, we lost our love."

"This kind of pain, this kind of sadness, this kind of powerlessness, this kind of torture, has accompanied me to this day."

Chen Changyu looked at the palm of his hand, expressing the sadness in his heart word by word, as if all this was caused by his own incompetence.He really hated his incompetence, and even thought it was because of his selfishness that caused all this.If he was the one who resigned at that time, then all of the following would not have happened.He thinks it's all his own doing, and he can't forgive himself for it.He was extremely regretful, regretful that he was not by her side, even if he resigned and accompanied her to support education.Unfortunately, he didn't do anything, just sat in the office doing his own thing with peace of mind.In the end, let her die in that mountainous area, disappearing into the world where the mountains are full of camellias.

In September, the hillsides there are full of camellias.

In life, there are always things that make you powerless.

"Later, I couldn't take it anymore, so I left Shanghai very quickly. In the end, I was dragged to City Y by Li Yuenan, and it has been up to now. I only come to Shanghai every year today."

Chen Changyu finally finished talking about his memories, he felt as if he had emptied something, but nothing seemed to change.The image of Xiao Yi appeared in his mind again, looking at him with a slight smile, Chen Changyu reached out his hand to touch that pretty face, but it was in vain.

Lin Jiaojiao, who was sitting across from him, was already crying, and the table was full of tissues she used.She was originally a Leo, and she came and went quickly.Seeing that Chen Changyu finished speaking, he stretched out his hand as if he was reaching for something, and quickly stood up and handed him a tissue.Chen Changyu took the tissue in his hand and looked at it with a blank face.

"Wipe it off, your face is stained."

Lin Jiaojiao kindly reminded him, and Chen Changyu finally realized it.

It's really embarrassing.

The two of them were silent again, and just sat there quietly.

The world outside the window is still full of traffic and people coming and going.The sun once again penetrated through the clouds and shone in this beautiful world.Despite the wind and rain, the sunshine finally came to everyone again with strength.

tomorrow is a new day.

(End of this chapter)