The days when I sold coal in the coal mine

Chapter 381
Everyone's life is a line, once crossed is fate.However, more are parallel to each other.One in 60 billion that can overlap with your lifetime.

Yue Nan lives.

Zhang Xiaobei.

One south and one north, maybe it is destined not to go all the way.The two straight lines intersected for a moment, and then quickly separated again.

When they got home, Yue Nanqi had just got off work, but he seemed in a normal mood.

"Xiao Nan, let's have a chat, take it easy." Zhang Xiaobei now feels that he and Yue Nanxi are talking a little "politely".

Yue Nanxi smiled slightly, and sat down too.

"Now, although I can't figure this out, I have accepted the reality."

"However, Xiao Nan, we have already gone through five years since college. I am a little bit confused. What does these five years mean to us?" Zhang Xiaobei asked lightly.

"Xiaobei, it is a rare opportunity for me to be a human being with thoughts, love and hatred, one in a million."

"It's the same for you. There is a chance of one in ten million to have a human body. This is all luck."

"It's not easy to meet in the vast crowd, that's one in a million."

"But a fate, in the universe, is just passing by."

"As I said, you are a responsible person. As far as I'm concerned, you've done a good job as a husband and lover."

"It's just Xiaobei, people are alive and carry too many things, either they will become stronger, or they will escape. I chose the latter."

"My father is already like that, and my mother is so indifferent. I can't have a son and a half for you. Sometimes I wonder, what is the value of my existence?"

"I chose to escape, maybe because my ability to bear pressure is too weak, maybe because I don't want to torture myself anymore."

"Actually, the people around me didn't say anything about me, but I felt that others saw me differently."

"You didn't tell me what to do, but I always feel that no child is sorry for you."

"I'm not a self-important person, but I can't be selfish."

"In addition, in the process of worshiping the Buddha, I can find a trace of tranquility and a trace of balance. At least I know that I have sorry for you in this life, and hope to pay it back in the next life."

"When a person is alive, there must always be a support point. I found it, so I want you to let go."

"If loving and being loved makes either party feel pain, it can only be said that fate is over."

"As I said before, I've forgiven everyone and everything, including myself."

It was rare for Yue Nanxi to say so many words, half of which was melancholy and half yearning.

Zhang Xiaobei felt helpless when he heard it, and sighed in his heart.

In fact, no one is stupid in life, it's just that everyone's world view changes with age, according to their own personality and mental journey.

In other words, everyone perceives reality differently.

There is no right or wrong in this, it can only be said, whether to break up or not to break up, which choice will cause less harm.

Yue Nanxi was a tomboy since she was a child, but after meeting Zhang Xiaobei, her personality changed obviously. Undoubtedly, she loved Zhang Xiaobei and was willing to change herself for Zhang Xiaobei.

But since she was a princess since she was a child, she was afraid of melting in her mouth, and afraid of falling when she held it in her hands. Suddenly Yue Yuan sang such a song, and her mother's attitude was even colder—because she was also under a certain amount of pressure.

Only Zhang Xiaobei played the role of father, mother, husband and even child in Yue Nanqi's life.

In Yue Nanqi's life, Zhang Xiaobei seemed to be the only one left.

But people's hearts are fleshy. In Yue Nanqi's view, Zhang Xiaobei has become her everything, but she is also afraid!

In case one day lost Zhang Xiaobei, wouldn't he return to the state of having nothing?

At that time, do you still have the confidence to continue living?
Once the pessimistic mood is triggered, it will be out of control.

Zhang Xiaobei is also tired, whether at work or in life, there is also tremendous pressure, but he can bring nothing to Zhang Xiaobei, he has not cooked a single meal, and his clothes are also washed in the washing machine.

Especially about the child, I seem to have been unable to let go of it.

It was not until he read the Buddhist scriptures that he seemed to have found a support point for his psychological balance. Maybe it was Zhang Xiaobei who owed him in his previous life!

But even if he owed himself, it was a matter of his previous life!In this life, I really can't see it!
So the repetition of emotions has always existed.

However, it wasn't until he made the decision to separate from Zhang Xiaobei that he felt that his life had regained a glimmer of light and found a reason to live on.

Because I found out that apart from Zhang Xiaobei, I still have things to do, as well as reasons and support points to live on.

So, she persevered and made up her mind.

Determined to let go, let go of Zhang Xiaobei.

After Zhang Xiaobei finished listening, the left atrium was bleeding and the right atrium was crying.

But there was no way to express the blood and tears that filled his heart.

Zhang Xiaobei knew Yue Nanqi too well, even though she looked weaker, once she made up her mind to do something, even nine bulls couldn't pull her back.

Too stubborn.

At school, Zhang Xiaobei misunderstood Yue Nanqi, but what about Yue Nanqi?

If you don't ask, I won't tell.

Sometimes, Zhang Xiaobei followed Yue Nanqi's bad personality, hating him so much that his teeth itch, but he couldn't say anything.

It's all right now, I don't have to itch at the root of my teeth anymore, my heart is full of blood and tears, and I don't feel itchy anymore.

"Xiao Nan, give me some more time, I think I will figure out a lot of things." Zhang Xiaobei lit a cigarette and said lightly.

There is no way, you can only say lightly that at this time, only this emotion is the most appropriate.

"Yeah." Yue Nanxi seemed to be obedient this time, and even snuggled up to Zhang Xiaobei's body.

However, what Zhang Xiaobei felt at this time, Yue Nanxi's body didn't seem to be so warm, but a faint coolness.

Zhang Xiaobei didn't stay at home that night. To be honest, he came back to have a look.

But this time back, Zhang Xiaobei has fully felt the changes in Yue Nanqi.

This time, I'm afraid I really let go.

The whole person has no excitement, which means that the idea has been made.

Zhang Xiaobei went to the bar alone and opened a bottle of foreign wine.

It's not because of anything else, but the taste of foreign wine is the most difficult for Zhang Xiaobei to swallow.And the taste of this wine is just like what happened to Yue Nanqi now.

Zhang Xiaobei just drank it plain, without adding ice or mixing it with a drink, just sipping the unpalatable taste little by little.

At this time, there was a singer offering a song, the name of the song was "A Song of Red Dust", Zhang Xiaobei listened to it, and unconsciously burst into tears...

(End of this chapter)