The Happy Life of Small Officials in Northern Song Dynasty

Feng Jingyao was a little dumbfounded. Things were beyond his imagination. He could not sleep and had horrible hallucinations when he closed his eyes. He thought it was a common insomnia; For some occasional remorse for what I did before, at best, it was just a flash in my heart, and I never took it seriously.update the fastest

Working hard in this world, after several bloody lessons and several narrow escapes, he realized the truth of the law of the jungle. When he understood this and implemented it, his career flourished; he died in his hands In fact, the direct or indirect human lives are even uncountable to him, and he has never been soft on women, children and children, because he knows that leaving even one flame will cause a fire, so he has never been merciful in this regard.

However, up to now, what bothers him is not the pursuit of his enemies, but this kind of illusory image. Although the insomnia is annoying, he is tortured to sleep and eat, but after all, he will not kill himself. According to Master Xiang, this matter is so serious that it can even influence one's own thoughts, and even cost one's life.

Feng Jingyao felt a little unbelievable, but what Shanxiang said was a little serious, and the symptoms he mentioned were also perfectly matched. He had indeed thought because of his irritability: It would be good if he died; but this thought was only a flash, and even he I take it as a joke, but what Shanxiang said is so serious.

"Master, can't it be so serious? Those thoughts are just flashes occasionally. The disciple just thinks freely when he is agitated. How could he think about what you said and kill himself?"

Shanxiang folded his palms together and said: "Otherwise, it seems to you to be impulsive when you are irritable, but it is by no means so simple in my eyes. Some people in the world make big mistakes, most of them are caused by impulsiveness, and some people are just brains. Once you get hot, you will lose your true self, so you will make a big mistake; if you think about it carefully, is this the truth?"

Feng Jingyao has a very deep memory of the past recently, and Shan Xiang's words suddenly brought back memories of his youth; when he was a young man with a vigorous blood, he devoted himself to learning martial arts from his master, and was innocent and innocent at that time, but one day he I went up to the mountain to cut firewood alone, and met a young woman from the farm who was also cutting firewood in the mountain. It was nothing at all. The young woman was probably old enough to be my own mother; There was a torrential downpour; the rain was fine, the fault was that there was only one cave on the mountain wall, and he and the young woman could only hide in the same cave to shelter from the rain; it was nothing to hide from the rain, the fault was the young woman's thin clothes , After being wet by rain, the bumps and convexities are eye-catching.

At the age of seventeen or eighteen, it was the time when the fire was fierce, and the boring and hard life of learning martial arts all day long, except for the wrinkled teacher's wife, he had never seen such a scented body, so he couldn't control it. He restrained himself and forcibly raped the young woman.

Afterwards, he threatened the young woman not to speak out, and gave all the pitiful copper coins he had saved to the first woman in his life, but the next day the young woman's husband brought dozens of villagers with a pole of firewood. The knife came to the master's house, and the red copper coins that were dyed red by the master's mother for the new year were also becoming evidence.

He was expelled from the master's gate. Although he knelt in front of the master's gate for three days and three nights, under the contemptuous gazes and pointing fingers of the master and his fellow apprentices, he knew that he could no longer be tolerated staying in this place where although he was not In the warm big family; in the past three days, he also wanted to understand a truth, that is: don't be impulsive, but once you are impulsive and do something wrong, then you need to cut the weeds, not pray forgive.

Three days later at night, the first thing he did when he left the teacher's gate was to go into the mountain village and behead the young woman's family of five. understand.

Since then, there has been one less apprentice who brings tea, water, chopping firewood and feeding pigs in the master's school, and there has been an all-powerful Feng Huhu in the world.

Shanxiang's words just hit his weakness, many things were caused by impulse, and his whole life was actually created by that youthful impulse, how could Feng Jingyao not be touched.

"According to Master, if the disease gets worse, will I know my own life in a certain impulse?"

"Amitabha, it's not impossible, but it's not you who killed you, but your inner demon." Shanxiang looked at Feng Jingyao with deep worry.

Feng Jingyao was a little scared. There were so many enemies in this life. They didn't die at the hands of others, but they died at their own hands. If they died, they would get a ridiculous reputation. Besides, he didn't want to die. It was time to enjoy the fruits of his struggle. How could he? Leaving this huge wealth and prestige and power stretching his legs and staring.

"Master, you have to help me this time, this disease is so terrible, I don't want to die at the hands of illusory demons."

"Good, good, this old monk can't help you, and the most famous genius doctor in the world can't help you either."

"You mean... I'm doomed?" Feng Jingyao's eyes bulged, as if angry.

"No, no, this is the inner demon. The so-called inner demon is the demonic obstacle in your heart. The only one who can help you is yourself. Others can only help you, but cannot help you get rid of it."

"This... If I know how to do it, will I still use it in the temple to ask the Buddha to bless me?" Feng Jingyao said angrily.

Shanxiang smiled and said: "Be safe and don't be impatient. Look at you, you get angry at every turn. At your age, when you are in a difficult city and calm, it can be seen that you have been deeply influenced by your inner demons."

Feng Jingyao let out a foul breath. He felt that his anger had indeed increased during this period of time. Those of his disciples did not suffer less from his beatings and scolding. They seemed to be acting differently from before. He secretly warned himself not to get angry and try to be as calm as possible. The tone said: "Master, tell me, what should I do?"

Shanxiang raised his eyebrows, and said slowly: "What I've been thinking about for the past few days is how to guide you to get rid of your demons. These things are different from asking for medicine, and there are no ready-made prescriptions to treat the symptoms. What you have to do It is to let go of all those things in the past, and after the mind is calm, the demons will be eliminated; for example, after you converted to my Buddha, your symptoms improved, but you were fishing for three days and two days in the sun, and finally the heart of the Buddha gradually It is far away, and it is not pious to worship Buddha, so gradually the effect will be minimal.”

Feng Jingyao said: "My disciple's sin, it's true that I don't have a firm heart to worship the Buddha, but if I want to give up everything in the world of mortals and really be ordained as a monk, then I might as well let my disciple die."

Shanxiang said: "How do you say this? I am here to help you, not to harm you. I know that it is absolutely impossible for a person like you to be alone, so the method I came up with is definitely not to ask you to shave your head." Be a monk."

Feng Jingyao happily said: "What a good idea is that, tell it quickly, tell it quickly."

Shanxiang said: "I can't guarantee it will be effective. After all, the inner demon is the most difficult to get rid of. I just tried it."

Feng Huhu said: "That's natural. There is no certain cure in the world. If it can be effective, the disciple will definitely gild the Bodhisattvas in the whole temple."

Shanxiang said: "Goodness, goodness, I hope you remember your wish."

Feng Huhu blushed and said: "After going down the mountain, I will immediately ask someone to send the missing donation money. From now on, I will definitely keep my word."

Shanxiang laughed and said: "Very good, with this sincerity, the matter is half successful, and whether it succeeds in the end depends on your own actions."

"Yes, yes, master, tell me how to do it?"

Shanxiang supported the table with his hands, tapped it lightly, and said slowly: "If you want to get rid of the demons, first go to the source of the demons. I don't know what you have done, but there must be many things that make you worry about it." , resulting in remorse, even trepidation, and inexplicable fear.”

Feng Jingyao said loudly: "Joke, what am I afraid of? I have never regretted what I have done."

Shanxiang waved his hand and said: "Don't interrupt me, I am not interested in hearing about your past as an adult. To me, you have done earth-shattering things, and after entering my Buddhist school, it is just a fleeting moment."

Feng Jingyao closed his mouth, but his heart was full of anger. Shanxiang's words pierced his heart. If he really had no regrets, no fears, no worries, it would be fine, but he did, and as he grew older, This trend is getting stronger and stronger.

"The old monk just said that if you want to get rid of the demons in your heart, you must first get rid of all kinds of knots in your heart, such as repentance, entanglement, and fear. To get rid of the knots in your heart, there is one thing you can do in my Buddha, which is the method of repentance?"

Feng Jingyao laughed and said, "Repentance method?"

Shanxiang said seriously: "If you don't think it's necessary, let's stop here today. I have already thought of doing what I should think for you. If you don't want to, I can't do anything about it."

Feng Jingyao thought for a while and said, "Can this work?"

Shanxiang said: "Whether it is useful or not, the old monk has already said that it cannot be guaranteed. "Ksitigarbha Sutra" says: "All living beings in Jambudvipa, every thought and thought, are all karma and all sins. "It's not terrible to make mistakes. What's terrible is that you know you've made mistakes and try your best to cover up your mistakes and cover up your sins, so that bad karma will continue to grow, and you will emerge in the sea of ​​life and death suffering and circulate endlessly. This is the crux of the six realms of reincarnation. If you want to stay away from such transgressions, you need to practice repentance as a countermeasure."

Feng Jingyao's face changed suddenly: "What do you mean? Are you saying that I am guilty?"

Shanxiang said indifferently: "It's not just you who are guilty of sins. All living beings in the world are guilty. We were born in the reincarnation of the world to forgive sins. You have been with me for so long. Didn't the old monk tell you this?"

Feng Jingyao looked hesitant and said: "Repentance method? How to repent?"

Shanxiang said together: "This method is simple and easy to learn, but what is difficult is the pious heart. In terms of the depth of sin karma, there are only three types: one is to practice repentance, which supports the precepts to clarify repentance; this method can eliminate the crime of violating the precepts. Sin karma, the second is repentance by contemplating appearances, this method is to help you understand repentance; this method is the simplest, but it is not suitable for you, because it requires years of prostration to the Buddha and seeking auspicious reflections; and the third method is to contemplate non-existence Confession, this method of supporting wisdom is to express repentance, but the sin that this method repents for is not the reality, this sin karma is not inside, not outside, not in the middle, so you know that this crime is empty from the beginning; it is not suitable for you .”

Feng Jingyao seemed to understand, but said helplessly: "Just tell me what to do."

Shanxiang nodded and said: "Only take the first kind, first give a sacrament, and then the old monk will pass on to you the "88 Buddhas' Great Confession" and recite it every night, every half month. After a few rounds, the knot will be knotted; If there is no mistake, once the knots in the heart are solved, the sins and karma will be eliminated, and the demons and obstacles in the heart will disappear.