Xiuxian first lady

Chapter 111 - Rejection
As if startled by Bai Xiaoxiao's sudden presumptuous behavior, Chen Qingcheng, who has always been resolute and stern, did not move at all, let alone shake off his disciple's reckless embrace.

He is still straight, like a poplar that is not afraid of wind and rain, like a sharp sword that frightens the crowd.His posture seems to reject people thousands of miles away.

But he didn't move.

The majestic Beichen Daoist, Taiqing Realm Cultivator, Dean Chen of the Tianwen Sword Sect, if he wanted to dodge a young disciple, it should be effortless.

But he didn't move...

Is it because he knows what she means, or even what she's going to say?
He has lived for so long, what does he not know, what does he not understand?
Bai Xiaoxiao persuaded herself like this, summoned up her courage, and held Chen Qingcheng's hand hanging by her side.

At this moment, Chen Qingcheng slightly shrugged his shoulders, as if he wanted to pull his hand out, but he didn't.

Bai Xiaoxiao realized something was wrong, let go of her arms, and turned to him, and she saw a stream of blood slowly oozing from the corners of his tightly closed lips.

"You...yes, I'm sorry! It's my fault, I..."

She was startled all of a sudden, hurriedly took out the handkerchief and handed it over, and habitually held Chen Qingcheng's arm.

The sourness and entanglement in my heart just now have long been thrown out of the sky at this moment, leaving only worry and guilt.

Chen Qingcheng glanced at her, covered his mouth with a handkerchief and spit out a mouthful of blood, then said in a low voice: "It's okay. You come in with me."

In the confusion, Bai Xiaoxiao felt that he was comforting herself, but she had no choice but to help him into the door, and went to find the elixir sent by Biyou Yuanjun, with some hesitation.

Usually, she would send the pills directly to Chen Qingcheng's mouth, but this time, on the spur of the moment, she had already confessed her love, and she didn't know if he would respond, so she couldn't help being in a dilemma.

Chen Qingcheng returned to his seat, and stretched out his hand to her, asking for the pill to take by himself.He glanced at her lightly again, and said, "You sit too."

"Oh." Bai Xiaoxiao sat across from her awkwardly, not knowing what it was like.

It seems that he should understand the meaning of his actions just now.

It can never be understood as the simple admiration of the disciples for the teacher.

But his attitude is really puzzling.

It should be a matter of course for such a cold person like him not to accept the feelings of a mere little disciple.

But with his temperament, he should have said it face to face, and it was impossible to take her face into consideration.

No, it should be impossible to be hugged by her at the very beginning, and not break free after hugging.

If there was a one-in-a-million chance that he would accept it, he looked too calm and kept his usual estrangement from her.

Falling in love with such a person is not only entangled, but also inexplicable!

Yes, Bai Xiaoxiao knew clearly that she fell in love with this iceberg-like teacher.She adores him, cares about him, and misses him.

Any of his slightest moves can cause her heart palpitations.

And she didn't know where she was in his heart.

So at this time, the anxiety and confusion are doubled.

There was a moment of silence between the two.

Just when Bai Xiaoxiao started to complain about her impulsiveness, she heard Chen Qingcheng's normal voice.

"How old were you before?"

"Ah?" Bai Xiaoxiao was stunned for a moment, and then realized that this nonsensical question refers to her situation before time travel.

"21...almost 22 years old."

"Is it the age of marriage?"

"Uh, sort of..."

Bai Xiaoxiao was a little embarrassed and a little confused, not knowing why he was asking these questions.

Are you worried that you are too young, or underage? ...

Chen Qingcheng showed a clear expression, nodded slightly: "That's it."

What is it?what is it ...

Bai Xiaoxiao listened to him in a daze and continued: "Although our sect is a Taoist sect, there have always been people who have revised the first school and the Quanzhen school. You can't help but practice both. You are in your young age, so it is not surprising to have such thoughts, but I was negligent. If you go down the mountain in the future, if you meet the right one..."

"You, what are you talking about!" Bai Xiaoxiao jumped up in surprise before he finished speaking, with an ominous feeling in her heart, "You think I want to get married, that's why..."

Chen Qingcheng looked at her quietly, with some comfort in his eyes, but in Bai Xiaoxiao's eyes, it was extremely cruel.

"You have been on the mountain for more than a year. You were supposed to be close to the disciples who started with you, but because of me, you stayed on Jiuyao Peak. You spend more than half a year with me day and night. It's because I didn't think carefully, and I didn't avoid suspicion..."

Every sentence is self-blaming, but in Bai Xiaoxiao's ears, every word is ironic.

"Avoid suspicion, um, avoid suspicion..." Bai Xiaoxiao repeated in a low voice, the heat that surged up in her chest before had gradually receded, leaving only a piece of ice cold, "Is that how you look at me? There is nothing else..."

Compared with people in this world of cultivating immortals, she should be considered more open about emotional matters, so she is not afraid to express her likes and dislikes.It's just that now, she feels that bringing up such a thing is simply asking for humiliation.

As a teacher, how could she ever have ordinary human feelings?
Chen Qingcheng's gaze was still looking directly at her, transparent and magnanimous, which was the only way to make people more heartbroken.

"This matter is human nature, you are not wrong, you don't need to blame yourself." He was still comforting her, "But I am not the right person, and the exercises I practice are not suitable for dual cultivation..."

"Enough!" Bai Xiaoxiao couldn't hold back any longer, and almost shouted with the loudest voice, "You don't have any thoughts about me, that's enough! Please don't talk about what you have and what you don't, as if I... as if I were..."

It seemed that she was just impatient, and when she wanted to find a partner for double cultivation, she just happened to find him.

What he said was justified, more natural than the people in her original world.

He "follows nature" and doesn't care about these things, so what should she do?
Should her feelings be treated as a joke?
"I... didn't mean that." As if because of her unexpected outburst, Chen Qingcheng was silent for a while before sighing.

He obviously didn't know that the calmer and more sincere his attitude was, the more annoyed Bai Xiaoxiao wanted to die.

The pain of being rejected by her lover, the loss of being despised by someone she respects, and the shame of being regarded as childish impulse by those who rely on their elders, or the impulse caused by that kind of desire, mixed into a feeling that she couldn't explain clearly. The complex emotions made her feel so oppressed that she almost vomited blood.

And she didn't make any more excuses.

This matter was because she was so wrong. She fell in love with someone who couldn't love at all, so no matter how much she said about it, it was impossible for her to be understood and accepted.

Bai Xiaoxiao straightened her body slowly.She didn't try very hard to calm down her expression without even shedding a tear.

Because the bottom of her heart has become icy cold, freezing through her internal organs.

"Okay, teacher." She said, her voice was not loud, but very clear and calm, "I will take my leave first. I will go down the mountain when the order from the sect master arrives."

"I will definitely do what I should do and try my best, just like a teacher."

"I probably won't be coming back. So, teacher, please take care."

After that, she turned and went out without stopping.

(End of this chapter)