Kyoto Shenyin Love Story

Chapter 329 Embarrassment
Sogu moved a little further, sat on the edge of the bed toward Wuling, and lay down beside him again.

The two looked at the ceiling.

The curtains of the floor-to-ceiling windows were not completely closed, and the stream of light from the street passed through the gaps, shone into the room, and rippled on the ceiling.

"bell……"

"—When I feel sleepy, I'll go back to sleep."

Zongya pursed his lower lip, raised his head slightly, and pushed the pillow towards her.

"All right."

His head fell back on the pillow, and he turned over with his back to her.

Chao Wuling also turned over and stuck up from behind.

"We used to sleep together like this."

"Don't talk nonsense, I still remember it."

"After you fell asleep."

"..."

She put her hand on his waist, "Sometimes you wake up, don't you."

"... At the beginning, I thought that Ling was afraid to sleep alone, so I pretended not to find out."

When they were still in the children's welfare home, the two lived alone in the same room most of the time, with beds facing each other, with a distance of only two or three meters between them.Occasionally she would get out of his bed and squeeze into his bed, and he would pretend not to know when he found out, until she went back by herself.

"Do you still feel that way?" she asked.

Soya shook his head, "Of course not."

"Then what are you thinking now?"

He didn't speak.

Chao Wuling didn't speak again for a while, but just stroked his body, making them fit closer together.

Silence is no match for a street festival, and it won't last long.

"I still remember what you said before."

"what?"

She said softly, "Say, no matter if you choose Jingzi or Hongzi in the end, you won't let me leave."

Soya also remembered immediately.

Although this idea has not changed now, it took him a while to respond: "Of course."

"Why?" she asked again.

"Because the bell is... the bell."

"Childhood sweethearts?"

"Ah."

"What is a childhood sweetheart?"

"People who grew up together...at least for me."

"Yeah." She poked her hand forward, found his hand, and held it together with him, "And then."

"Important person."

"Is it more important than a lover?"

"..."

Zong Gu was silent for a while, turned over and looked at her: "What exactly is Ling trying to say?"

"I want to know what you think of me."

Chao Wuling stroked his cheek, "What kind of existence is the so-called childhood sweetheart to you?"

"...Childhood sweetheart, that is, childhood sweetheart."

She put it another way: "To you, am I different from them?"

He knew very well who they were in her mouth, and also understood what their "label" was at this time, "Everyone is different from others."

"I am family?"

"We are family."

"Then in your family, which position do I occupy? Mother, sister, or wife?"

Soya took a deep breath: "Ring..."

"Don't escape." She pressed his face, not allowing him to look away, "Answer me."

After a moment of silence, Soya held her hand, "If it's just me and Suzu's family, then Suzu will be my wife."

Zhao Wuling was very happy, but what she had to say did not end there.

"You don't need that kind of self-deceiving restriction. Now it's just you and me. Our words won't be heard by a third person. You just need to answer me: Is your feeling for me the same as that of a lover?"

"..."

Is it because we have been together for too long and have become accustomed to each other's intimacy, or is it because he is deliberately ignoring and using his "childhood sweetheart" as an excuse to deceive himself and others?

When he realized that he wanted to avoid this question again, Soya already understood the answer.

"Yes."

He liked her, the way he likes a lover.

"Me too." Chao Wuling leaned forward and kissed him on the lips.

Sogu looked at her, silent as if exhausted.

She kissed his side face again, then supported her body, and kissed his forehead.

"Accepting yourself like this will make you feel better."

"..."

Zonggu raised his gaze, sat up towards Wuling and looked at him.

"The afternoon question, do you think of the answer?"

He also sat up, "What's the problem?"

"That sentence Miss Hanada said."

"Hana field... the so-called worthy of my sincerity, is there only one person?"

"Ah."

"Is it the bell?"

Zhao Wuling shook his head, knowing that he still didn't realize the real problem.

She picked up the mobile phone on the bedside and handed it over: "Let her tell you the answer."

Although it was late at night, Tsukuyomi was definitely not asleep at this time.Soya hesitated for a moment, but still sent him a message.

Received an inquiry, Tsukiyomi's reply was a phone call, and the person on the other end of the call was Hanada Natsuna.

"Mr. Soya?"

"Miss Hanada?...It's me."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry~" Her laughter came from the other side, "I just said it casually, I didn't expect you to be troubled by this problem until this time... Ah, but although I said it casually, it didn't just say it casually That’s right, I think people are quite accurate.”

"..."

Zhao Wuling turned on the bedside lamp, and Soya glanced at her, but didn't tell her that there was someone else who really cared about this matter.

"So, what's the answer?"

"Does Soya-kun really not understand?" Hanada Natsuna asked.

"I don't understand, so I hope Miss Hanada can tell me directly."

"I can't blame you." The other side laughed again, "'Unknowing' can be said to be the label of a person like Soya-kun."

"..."

Sogu frowned.

Through the microphone, Hanada Xiacai seemed to be able to see his impatience, so she didn't go around in circles:
"Okay, let's reveal the answer - for Soya-kun, the only person worthy of your sincerity is yourself."

Soya's lips moved, but he didn't speak.

"Although I've only met once, I can tell that Soya-kun is the kind of person who cares about his own image. Don't mind if I make a random guess?"

She continued without waiting for his answer.

"Mr. Zongya is tall and handsome. I heard from Yuedu that your grades in school are also very good, and you are always surrounded by many girls. This is probably the feeling of being surrounded by stars."

"However, Soya-kun is not interested in them. Yueyue said Soya-kun grew up in a children's welfare institution, so I guess something must have happened that made you a little repulsive to the people around you...Of course, you can't Maybe it's just a simple disdain, this is just my unfounded guess."

"It's far away. In short, no one would dislike other people's compliments. Sogu-kun is so popular, he must have received much more compliments than others.

Because Soya-kun is really outstanding, Soya-kun will unconsciously take some exaggerated praises seriously.And the result of this is that even if there is a gap, Soya-kun will try his best to move himself closer in that direction.

Over time, Soya-kun, who is sought after, cares more about his external image than the people who follow him... Well, I think there should be expectations of people who are very important to Soya-kun, such as a certain My favorite teacher and so on.If it is said that the pursuit of ordinary people makes Soya-kun care more about his appearance, and the expectations from important people will make Soya-kun bear too much sense of morality and responsibility...'For the sake of the teacher, I will do a good job Soya-kun must have thought about things like 'children', right? "

"Ah, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, if I don't pay attention, I'm going too far. All in all, when a person's eyes are always on himself, and there is no one better than himself around him, what will happen is already obvious, right?"

Hanada Natsuna paused for a moment, and said the obvious final conclusion:
"That is to say, the person Soya-kun really cares about and likes the most is actually himself—in other words, narcissism."

"..."

"By the way, narcissism and liking others are not contradictory, don't use this to refute me."

"..."

"Am I guessing right, Soya-kun?"

Soya, who was silent for a long time, finally spoke again: "Unfortunately, these are all Miss Hanada's self-righteous ideas."

"Hahaha--"

Hanada Xia Cai laughed.

"I understand, I understand—it's embarrassing to be directly exposed by someone who has only met once, right? Don't worry too much, young people are just..."

"—Sorry, I'm going to bed. Goodbye."

Before she could respond, Soya hung up the phone.

"Well, hang up... Did I talk too much?"

Hanada Natsuna put down her phone, looked at the screen again, and found that she had indeed talked a lot.

Returning the phone to Yueyue who had been silent all this time, he was staring at the monitor in front of him, pressing the handle with his hands.

Although the main focus was on the game, he could hear the conversation between the two of them clearly without missing anything.

"It's over, you must have angered him... Maybe it's all my fault at that time."

She laughed, "What are you afraid of?"

He didn't turn his eyes, "I'm afraid he won't let me go home and give me food."

Huatian Xiacai leaned over and hugged his neck from behind, "What is this, just stay here with me."

Tsukiyomi was silent for a few seconds, distracted for a moment, and was chopped down by the knight with the giant axe.

【YOU DIED】

He put down the handle and let out a long breath, "No."

"why?"

She stroked his body, "Didn't you say you like my place? It just so happens that I like you now too. I'll buy you whatever you want."

Although extremely excited, Yuedu shook his head.

"Ok."

Huatian Xiacai didn't force it either, "At least these few days, stay with me well."

"Um……"

"Now take a bath with me." She stood up, looked at the black and white screen, put down the handle and stood up.

Huatian Xiacai walked to the bathroom and said, "Your clothes are too old-fashioned. Did you find them from grandma's closet? Go to my closet and pick one at random. Tomorrow morning, I'll come back Take you to a shopping mall in Tokyo...what's the matter?"

She turned her head and looked at the phone, looking a little concerned.

"Are you still worried about Brother Soya?"

Huatian Xiacai came over to pull him, "Don't worry. Although he may be a little emotional now, he will definitely thank me in the future."

Yueyue followed her to the bathroom.

"Who made my analysis not bad at all?"

She's not bad at all.

Even his anger from embarrassment seemed to be within her expectations.

After taking a few deep breaths, Soya threw the phone back to the pillow, and looked at Zhao Kirin again.

"Did Ling want to tell me what Ms. Huatian said just now?"

For the convenience of future communication, when the call was connected, he turned on the speakerphone, and she heard Hanada Xiacai's words verbatim.

Zhao Wuling nodded.

"Do you think she's wrong?"

"..."

Soya didn't speak, and Chao Wuling didn't ask.

She understood that he had already listened to it, but he was still unwilling to admit it for a while.

Silence spread in the room.

After sitting opposite each other for a while, Chao Wuling got up and went back to his bed, reaching out to the lamp.

Before turning off the lights, the two looked at each other.

"Don't forget, you're going on a date with me tomorrow."

"……Um."

"Like lovers."

"..."

pat.

The darkness returned before their eyes, and the two fell asleep facing each other in the deeper night with their own concerns.

The impact of Hanada Natsuna's words just now was far deeper than Soya thought.

Pushing away the inexhaustible fog, all kinds of myths and concerns, and finally fell on one question:

Is his evasion a compromise with many realities, or is it because he likes the ideal Soya Yoshiaki who is perfect both internally and externally, and is unwilling to accept the current situation where he is suffering from violating the moral sense in his heart, and at the same time he is in the middle of desire? The self who is sinking deeper and deeper?

A false self.

The self who tries to make time to fix the problem because of inability.

And no matter what the answer he chooses, some facts will not change: he and them are already inseparable.

"..."

Hearing the deep breathing on the other bed, Chao Wuling closed his eyes and sighed silently.

He needs time to accept himself like this.

But, he doesn't have much time anymore...

Time does not stop for anyone.

The night is long and will eventually pass.

The next morning, Soya woke up first.

The morning sun fell on the translucent beige curtains, illuminating the room brightly.

The ignorance and ignorance when he first woke up quickly subsided, and the deep thoughts from last night surged up again, quickly filling every corner of his heart.

"..."

Soya took a big breath and suppressed all his thoughts.

He sat up and looked at the bed next to him, Zhao Wuling was still asleep.

She was lying on the quilt, her body curled up, trapped in the middle of a big quilt.Wrapped in an overly large bathrobe, she also looks smaller and smaller.

After watching for a while, Sogu got up and got out of bed, and then slowly sat down on the edge of her bed, keeping his eyes on her.

The eyes are closed, and the body rises and falls slightly between breaths.Her short hair covered her ears and half of her face, and her skin was fair and flawless, like porcelain.

"Is it regarded as a 'lover'..."

Putting such a "label" on her always made him feel a subtle sense of immorality, even though they had lived together for so many years, they were already closer than lovers.

She is different from them, Soya thought.

Even without knowing that she has actually lived for more than 1000 or [-] years, and without knowing her relationship with the master of the underworld, she is still unique.

She is his family.

It is nothing more than that when distinguishing from the family relationship of mother and sister, it is necessary to use the belonging of wife to emphasize her difference.

"……bell."

When he came back to his senses, Zong Gu realized that she had woken up and was looking at him.

"Good morning."

"Good morning……"

Zhao Wuling sat up, and the loose bathrobe on her body was unrestrained, slipping from her shoulders to the bottom.

Getting out of her bathrobe, she crawled in front of him naked, raising her hand to stroke his eyebrows.

"What are you thinking."

"I was thinking... Suzu is my family."

"Is this an excuse to comfort myself?"

He was silent for a while, then shook his head again.

Moving her knees, she moved closer, wrapping her arms around his neck.

"I am your home."

Sogu pursed his lower lip, raised his hand, stroked her smooth back, and hugged her tightly.

"Get dressed, let's go downstairs for breakfast."

She let go, sat down on the edge of the bed, and opened her arms to him, like a doll waiting to be dressed.

Taking out her clothes from the travel bag, Soya still chooses to cover the key points first.

Lift up the thin piece of cloth, from the calf to the knee, and then to the heel of the leg, and snap it loose.

"Will you desire my body?" She asked suddenly.

"What did you say suddenly?" Soya picked up the bra on his upper body again.

"Won't it?" Her foot stepped on his heart, then subconsciously moved away, and stepped on the middle of his chest.

"Yes." He motioned her to come closer so he could put the bra on.

"Really."

"Ah."

Her feet kept falling against his body, from his chest to his abdomen, and continued to fall.

Just as he was about to touch the proof between her legs, he grabbed her ankle.

"It will really feel like going down..."

"Can't you?"

"Don't do weird things."

She didn't say anything, then sat up straight and let him put on his underwear.

"Do you want to wear this dress today?"

"Ah."

Getting out of the T-shirt, he shook his head at Wuling, and stretched out his arms from the cuffs on both sides.

Putting on the shorts again, she got up and got out of bed, pulled up the zipper, fastened the button, and completed the last step.

Soya himself moved faster, changed his clothes, and went downstairs together after washing.

Breakfast is provided on the second floor of the hotel, self-service, and there are not many guests at this time.

Holding the dinner trays, the two each picked out a few meals, and found a seat by the window to sit down.

"Today is the last day of the festival."

Soya looked down while eating, and there were few people on the road.He didn't pay attention to when the carnival on the street last night ended, he only knew that the revelers rested in the morning.

Chao Wuling drank miso soup, looked at him again, and said, "When we get back, let's go buy yukata together."

"Do I want to wear it too?"

"Ah."

Soya agreed.

After breakfast, the two left the hotel, strolled around the shopping street in front of the station, and then took the tram to the Aoba district in the north of the city.

The sun was rising gradually, and the scene outside the car window gradually became deserted.

Not long after, they arrived at a site near their destination.

After getting off the tram, he walked for more than ten minutes and walked around the corner. Soya paused, suddenly hesitated.

"..."

Looking at Zhao Wuling who was holding his palm, he took a deep breath, "Let's go."

"Ah."

Walking to the entrance of the institution, a middle-aged man in the guard room poked his head out and looked at the two of them.

"This is Qingye Children's Welfare Institute, who are you looking for?"

　The name was chosen randomly at the time, but I didn't expect that there was really a green leaf district in Sendai.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)