Mirror Love Shadow

Chapter 40
Quiet night, silent in a soundless tranquility.

With the remaining emotions in my heart, I was in a lonely and silent chat.I sat on the sofa in the corner feeling melancholy, a complex of lovesickness and tears rolled in my heart, even though a heart that beats in love but couldn't touch it in loneliness and loss was full of sorrow and complaints, I laughed out loud at this unintentional spring breeze !
I picked up a glass of red wine and shook it in my hand, wanting to move forward. The wine wanted to splash in the shaking glass, and the small waves in the glass sometimes surged and sometimes subsided.I want to laugh that this kind of leisurely mood can actually fill up the fragments in my heart, as if I can reflect my past even when I am drunk, but the tears in my heart are unavoidable, and the tranquility at this time is broken innocently.

I shook the wine glass in my hand, and the violent drunkenness prompted me to pour a whole glass of wine into my mouth and rush to my throat. It was a stimulating anesthesia and a comfortable relief, but the tears that could not be concealed in the corners of my eyes couldn't help it. Falling down on my cheeks, the word "strong" forcefully urged me to forget the pain as soon as possible in my heart. I held back all the shouting, wiped away my tears, and finally put down my wine glass, carried my backpack, and ran all the way to Zijian's bar.

The gossiping and laughing of men and women in the bar is just a kind of pastime for inner loneliness.

I steadily picked up a glass of wine, and walked to Zijian's side pretending nothing happened.

The look of haggardness and loss is always difficult to hide, and the flickering tears rolled in the corners of the eyes again. He saw through the boredom in my heart at a glance, and seemed to guess that something happened to me, so he didn't chat with the guests, so he pulled me , walked to the bar and poured me a strong drink.

During our conversation, he knew that I had something on my mind.Under his repeated questioning, in desperation, I told Zijian what happened. His inner indignation struggled faintly on his face, and the pain of gnashing his teeth could not be concealed.

He smiled at me calmly, but the wine glass in his hand trembled violently unknowingly.After a long while, we were relieved in silence. Suddenly, with shaking hands, he lit a cigarette at a loss. He took a deep breath, twisted the ashes, and then ejected the ashes.In the midst of pondering and doubting, he suddenly said to me, "Things may be a little strange."

After puffing happily, he handed me a cigarette.

I pursed my lips and smiled at him faintly and said, "No."

Zijian also seemed to forget that I don't know how to smoke, so he smiled calmly and said to me, "Ignite it, which is to extinguish your inner desire."

I thought about what a profound sentence I said, and smiled at him stupidly for a while. I couldn't wait, and without thinking about the meaning of that sentence, I clumsily lit the cigarette he handed me. This is my first time. I learned to smoke for the first time. When I took the first sip, it seemed that my heart was desperately realizing his intentions in a gray lingering cigarette addiction. This unbearable pain was more unbearable than death!
Maybe time can dilute everything, maybe the amorous feelings in love may not be a kind of complete freedom and relief.

And the overflowing emotions in this bar, the end of the game is nothing but regrettable scars.What this emotion brings is mutual harm, and what it brings is ruthlessness.It's like a piercing sharp knife pierced into our own heart, but we struggle innocently inside.

Our heart is not such a cry!Let all the floating clouds become empty!This is the way the sisters in the bar comfort themselves in this selfish emotional world!

The inner confusion is vividly portrayed in the peaceful imaginary world, I laugh, what a caressed broken willow breaks this piece of infatuated unintentional!
I drank several glasses of wine in succession, passed out and fell asleep in the bar.Dimly, I felt that someone helped me up, opened my eyes, and saw that it was Zijian.He was holding my waist with his broad arms, I was walking staggeringly drunk, but the fresh smell in the air made me wake up gradually, and I couldn't help throwing myself into his arms while hesitating. Weeping loudly, suddenly, his heart seemed to be stabbed, and just like that, he hugged me tightly.

We stood foolishly for a long time before I stopped crying. Soon, he escorted me home before leaving in peace.

The next day, Zijian asked me for Zhipeng's phone number.

He pretended to be my eldest brother and asked Zhipeng calmly on the phone, "Hello, I am Lin Zijian, Jiaolin's older brother. I really want to know why you bullied Manjiaolin like this two days ago?"

Zhipeng answered him very frankly, "I'm sorry, I was really impulsive towards Jiaolin two days ago, but my heart to her is sincere, I'm really sorry! How about it, next Monday at [-] o'clock in the afternoon I will meet you I am apologizing for being a guest at Qingman Coffee, big brother, you should also give me a face. I am really sorry for Jiaolin's behavior, let's talk about it when we meet."

After speaking, they both hung up the phone with each other.

In the continuous story, I was stumbling, and in a state of forgetfulness, I was spending boring bar time. I sold wine to buy drunk, and let the loneliness wash away the loneliness in my heart, but the heart has been folded among the broken, and the love of desire is ignited in the smoke Fire, the combustion between the suction and the carefree...
In the lonely time and the boring years, the past is annihilated in the high passion!The ups and downs of the story are the ups and downs of my beginning; the power of love and words annihilate the boring years of tobacco and alcohol!Ending the time and years of passionate projection that the heart yearns for, and now attacking the longing for happiness in the time and years!

(End of this chapter)