musicians of old

Chapter 620 Main Perspective

"Joan, I remember you weren't angry anymore."

Upon hearing this, Fan Ning smiled bitterly and recalled the scene when the two of them climbed the snow-capped mountains.

"At the beginning, I said that I had little doubt about you but more worries. Later, after planting the historical projection, I helped you to be promoted to the Order Enforcer smoothly. Speaking of which, I also want to thank you for stripping away most of your true knowledge to show me the way right after your promotion. No matter what, I must have wanted to pull you out of this damn trapped place as soon as possible. Even if the risk of pollution cannot be eliminated, at least you stay in the South Country projection to discuss solutions, and the situation will not get worse."

"Oh," the Joan in my mind responded with a long sigh, "It seems that you still have some sincerity. But next time when you leave an occasion like that, you should speak louder. I didn't hear the words 'thank you, sister' clearly before."

"." Fan Ning couldn't help but open his mouth and stood there awkwardly.

Should she be an older sister or a younger student? He felt it was so difficult to determine. Strictly speaking, neither of them was correct now.

"But you misunderstood. I don't mean to be anxious, tormented or urged. Just go at your own pace and complete the things you came out to do, such as the Harvest Art Festival. It's up to you whether you want to come or not."

In fact, at the low point of the seven-year cycle, the Special Patrol Office, schools, churches, and dangerous elements...all kinds of forces will probably turn their attention to the abnormal area this time. Even if Fan Ning doesn't go, he will be swept along.

"No, we don't have to wait until the Harvest Arts Festival." Fanning immediately emphasized, "Logically speaking, this broken window and this passage in front of me may be used again."

When I came here from B-105, I cut through the barrier and used the lighthouse to provide a sense of direction. Now, if I come back here, the spiritual connection of the southern projection can also provide a certain sense of direction. There are "beacons" available on both sides.

But these flesh barriers and connective tissues are very strange. The feeling of suffocation and loss when I came back was also very scary. I didn't know how far I was or what I had experienced. In addition, the change of key No. 1 may be related to the Society of the Advent of God, so Fan Ning didn't dare to go in again rashly.

"Hold on for a while, I will come up with a solution as soon as possible. Put yourself in their shoes, staying in that hellhole, without any normal colors, without any interaction with the outside world, and filled with things of Honkai cognition everywhere. Anyway, I haven't recovered yet."

But Joan said seriously at this time: "To be honest, Carloen, you don't need to come to me right away. First of all, you are wrong. An Order Enforcer does not care about concepts such as loneliness, depression, and lack of interaction. These are the feelings of creatures on the surface of the world, and I am now living in the migration. Then, the influence of the 'ring ruins' and the flashes of other 'perspectives' are also a kind of pollution, but what knowledge is not pollution? They are not a bad experience for me. On the contrary, now I am very much, it is not appropriate to say that I enjoy or like it. Maybe it is, I need it. Need it! Yes, now I really need this state and influence"

"Need? I don't understand." Fanning said.

"All this has made me calm. I am trying to figure out which parts of my past constitute my present self - the whole or the part, which are the main body and which are the references, and which ones really work and determine what I want next."

"."Fanning was still trying to understand but to no avail.

"Carolne, you've made contact with June, right?" "Sheila is still with you, right? You might as well ask her a question first."

The first voice was Sheeran's, the second thought was June's.

They bumped into each other by coincidence. "What do you want to ask?"

Fanning also answered the first question and responded to the second question in turn.

Then he followed Joan's advice and asked what Sheeran, as herself, as she is now based on her past experiences, would most like to happen or get.

"Of course I hope my family can come back." Xilan felt it was a bit sudden, but she still thought about it seriously, "I have lived alone for more than two years. Dad, mom, sister, uncle... If they were still here, I would live a very different life than now. There would be many things I want them to see or tell them." She smiled when she said this, "You suddenly asked this, is there any way you can help me? It's all in the past. In fact, I have to add one more thing, I hope you don't get lost with the next words."

"We won't get separated." Fanning said, "Well, it's just that suddenly Joan and I were talking about similar topics."

"Then please keep sharing any interesting ideas you have." In response to Fanning, Sheeran made a relaxed and happy gesture.

She no longer stood beside Fanning, but moved away, put her hands behind her back, bent her waist, and kept changing her position to look at the exhibits and decorations in various places in the church.

"This is a relatively pure situation." After hearing Fanning's retelling, Joan sighed again, "My situation is much more complicated."

"If the part that 'mainly constitutes me' is Miss Joan Nissimmee, who was born into a small noble family in the empire and lived a carefree life for the first 17 years of her life, then what I'm thinking about most should be the novel urban adventures, the endless snacks, and the fun music and the principal position in your orchestra. Well, looking back, you've also brought a lot of new things to my life. You're really an interesting person. If everything continues, maybe like what Sheeran said at the end, I'll say something similar to you one day."

"I know. I expressed something similar on the trail." Fanning looked out the window. "I said I don't know what two or three years of acquaintance means to you. It may be of a certain importance, but after a certain limit, the importance will no longer increase. Miss Joan Nissimmee was everything to you at first, but later she may be just a small part of your character."

"Yes, things are so 'impure'." The girl smiled sweetly and strangely, "On the eve of your 'resurrection' premiere, I chose to let the apostle return, and thus lost everything in the previous 17 years. If coming here is just a simple 'loss', my next desire should be the same as Xilan's, wanting to go back to the past and want to have it again."

"The problem is that more of my past lives have returned. As the daughter of the patriarch of the Bologna School, should I revive the school's glory, take over the power from the current Marquis McAdam, and make the school truly 'Bologna'? As 'Miss Purple Bean Cake' who suffered the collapse of the heavenly evil for no apparent reason, should I rise higher, to the vicinity of the dome gate, and ask my father if he is enjoying himself or in extreme pain? Is he completely crazy or intermittently awake? Does he regret it? Was what he did at the time worth it? As the first child born by Vincent in the past, should I question his actions of exiling me in danger when I was still a baby? And Fanning, are you a confidant or a passerby to me? Are you my brother who I should love and care about, or my enemy who has no substantial relationship with me but has fought with me for the right to life?"

Sensing Fanning's silence and depressed thoughts, she laughed softly again: "Oh, don't get stuck in the last paragraph. I talked a lot about 'actions', and that was just the last paragraph, which only took up a small part. Even I think there are too many 'perspectives'."

"Come to think of it, your situation doesn't seem to be 'pure' either. Back then on the mountain trail, you even said in all seriousness that you suspected you were from 'History 0', saying that in that world you had no contact with mystery, nor did you embark on the path of art, but you had a series of connections with music, and you also had your own harmonious family and career. Is this the apostle you sent out? So was what you wanted then different from what it is now? Did anything change after you started your second life? At which point did you switch? By the way, you later escaped from Theolaine, went to the South Country, and then to the West Continent, and you also switched to a third and fourth very different 'perspective', right?"

“What past selves make up the present you?”

"Well, your analysis makes sense." Fan Ning finally broke the silence, "I have indeed been in a state of confusion before, especially after I came out of the abnormal zone, the feeling of confusion became even worse, and I almost made myself depressed."

“But my situation is different now. Most people really can’t understand it. If you haven’t reached that level, you won’t be able to understand it even if you reach a higher level.” Fanning said this with a clear laugh.

"My 'main perspective' is in the sky."