endless roses

Chapter 128

At night, the toothache was severe, which directly brought physical tears to my right eye.My friend gave me some ibuprofen. I went downstairs to get some hot water and mixed it with some cold medicine. Another friend asked me how I was doing, and I said it should be getting better.

After two o'clock, the pain started again.For five hours, maybe close to five hours, I sat in silence, feeling the sharp pain, because I knew it would pass, even though it was so sad when it happened.

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In the afternoon, raving:
(One)
I like many people, but as much as ordinary objects.

(two)
There is a distorted mirror separated from the real world, where I see deformities, and they see me as deformities, and each other thinks that the environment they live in is the healthiest.I think I am perfectly healthy.I am a very serious person, and many things deserve to be taken seriously.

(three)
In this life, people will meet many people, love many people, love, friendship, blood or other love, forgive me for diluting its value.

(four)
Suddenly I don't understand what it means to be easy-going. I have the happiness of not being easy-going.

(Fives)
A little withdrawn, far away from people.Sometimes I feel lonely, not good, lonely person, this kind of thinking will last for several minutes, maybe 10 minutes, most of the time forgetting that I am alone.Perhaps in the eyes of the world, I am too rebellious. In my eyes, there are also many things that cannot be understood.

(six)
I can't figure out why some people would cheat when dealing with solemn things, and how they did it, saying love with their eyes closed.Like that ring, it's not about money, it's about commitment.Why a person promises, but, it’s okay, the stain still pretends to be so serious, so the seriousness is also humiliated by him, I can’t understand, the person who has caused harm, he can easily say love but exploit me Time, can't understand, in the past I regarded it as a very important thing, he said love but forced to give back the same love, can't understand, why didn't respect when I was still a traditional girl, I was so scared and even cried, sex, It's something that can only happen between lovers, and it's serious.Then he said, I'm serious, I prepared a ring for you, that's my promise.Very, very shit, he tainted a lot of things at once.

There are so many things like this around me that I should be used to it, but I am still surprised.So a new, normal relationship brings me immense happiness.

(Seven)
As long as you miss it, it’s good to miss it. In the world of feelings, it is beautiful and solemn.Why do you want to have a boyfriend?I told him that because I wanted to have a sustenance, I could calm my heart down.

(Eight)
Suddenly, after being exposed to purity, many things became incomprehensible, and I myself was also pure.Sometimes it's very hypocritical, so I feel ashamed, I'm too hypocritical to be like this...It hurts to realize this...

(nine)
Damn leather shoes, how come they fit so well!
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(End of this chapter)