endless roses

Chapter 18 Dissociation
Suddenly, everything felt strange to me.

Deep in a very bad event, the separation of body and soul, dissociation, and strangeness, that is, when you jump out of your own role, you find that everything is very interesting, look at yourself from a third perspective, and observe without emotion, you will find that everything, but in this way.This is another relief, another escape.

You don’t deny the future, don’t worry about what’s happening or what’s about to happen, get out of it all, your body doesn’t belong to you, your sadness doesn’t belong to you, happiness doesn’t belong to you, what you have is a couple Leaky ears, a pair of observing eyes.And those other things that I hear about others are always forgotten in a flash, so my ability to forget is even stronger than before.

Remember some small events and observe the surroundings. When you find that they have lost their value, or in other words, they are also driven out of the soul in your world, and memory becomes an extra energy-consuming thing.

When I was in a daze, the flow of pictures gradually turned into the flow of time, and I couldn't read unfamiliar words or see pictures, so I started to read some good movie books, and felt another narrative of familiar scenes, of course, different narration The way is a very different story.

Alice's book is amazing. She uses fairy tales to dilute the bloody sadness. I prefer movies. If a child reads it for the first time, he may not be able to understand it. Fantastic films, while others find the unspeakable sorrow in it, and even rediscovering a lot of beauty after experiencing childish eyes and heaviness, this is the absolute charm of the film.

It would be great if there was a boy like Ray who liked me, maybe there is, but how do we know what other people think?If Susie's ghost hadn't picked up Lei's letter by chance, she wouldn't know it even at the border between the world and heaven.If only Suzie had continued to have her simple things, the future could have been bright.

I don't mean to express my truest thoughts, no matter how bad the result is, it's better than having regrets.

(End of this chapter)