Acting like a baby in Xueba's arms after rebirth

Chapter 183 Don't Want Me
He looked straight at her.

Stubbornly, "Not good."

No matter what it was, this was the first time he had rejected her, and it was so resolute, as if there was no room for reversal.

She was even more at a loss, she raised her head blankly and met his eyes.

"Qingqing, I don't want to go abroad." His voice was already a little hoarse.

He had already thought about it, and with her consent and following, he wanted to go abroad with her after the college entrance examination, but now he has no idea at all.

Because he has tried it, he has all the experiences of losing her around him, such an unforgettable thing, every minute and every second is suffering for him, how can he have the courage to try again?

"Wouldn't Qingqing be reluctant to part with me?" His eyes were a little lonely, as if he couldn't figure out why she was so eager to let him go abroad all of a sudden.

Wouldn't she be a little attached to him too?

Song Chiqing lowered her eyes slightly, losing the courage to look at him, she was afraid that if she looked at him one more time, she would foolishly forget everything she had just heard.

How could it not be?How could she have only a little attachment to him?But how dare she admit it to him now?How could she selfishly cut off his better future only for herself?

What else could she do but hold him back?
Her reticence to speak is inexplicable, misunderstood.

"Qingqing..." He was a little panicked in his heart, and he squeezed her tightly with his big palm, "Don't want me..." His voice even trembled slightly, his whole body was numb, he couldn't accept it Lost her days again.

Ji Shiyan misunderstood her silence as meaning to push him away, and she also felt very uncomfortable in her heart, holding back her crying, "No..."

She didn't mean it that way.

"I just want my brother to be a better version of me..." Instead of blindly following her because she was behind, she was bad, but he wasn't.

"Qingqing, I'm working hard, I promise you, I will do better in the college entrance examination than any other school examination, okay?" Hearing this, he made a promise to her with a serious face.

If she thinks falling in love will affect his study, then there is no need to worry about it at all. He will still study hard every day when he should study, and he is never ambiguous.

It doesn't take her to tell him that he will make himself better.

She looked at him, opened her mouth slightly, and wanted to continue persuading him to go abroad, but closed it weakly before saying a word, and finally said "good" from her lips.

She has no words.

Her voice was very low, but Ji Shiyan heard it, and the word that made his heart beat again entered his ears, and he hugged her tightly into his arms like a newborn, "Qingqing..."

"Well……?"

"You scared me." In the short two or three minutes of their conversation, he almost rehearsed clearly in his mind all the pictures in foreign countries in the past few years, and imagined all the bitterness and loneliness of her not being around. day.

He felt that he would not survive.

The blow cannot be doubled, and his psychological endurance is actually not that great.

"Does Shiyan resent going abroad...?" she asked.

"I don't reject it, but I don't like it." He replied.

Many people choose to travel abroad, to relax, to relax, and to see different scenery. This is their purpose, which is positive, full of vigor and vitality.

Very different from him.

What is he going abroad for?It was to heal his dilapidated heart, and it was fear and the last glimmer of hope after being told by doctors in China that his disease would be difficult to recover.

She is not there.

Only his most painful memories, so he doesn't like to go abroad, if it is not to make himself heal, let the lingering disease disappear, so that he can stand in front of her intact and sound, he is not even willing to go abroad during the summer vacation. Time to go out again.

Although there are his relatives and friends abroad.

Song Chiqing's grip on the hem of his clothes couldn't help but deepen, the panic in her heart didn't subside for a moment, she felt inexplicably, as if some answer was about to burst out of the chrysalis.

She looked at him fixedly, and asked the last question, "Why did Shi Yan go abroad when he was in the fourth grade?"

She knew that it was Cui Xiuna and Ji Yangpei's idea to go abroad. This was the conclusion she had drawn from the phone calls between her parents and them.

However, if he didn't want to go abroad, he could have persuaded Cui Xiuna to stay.Because He Xiuping and Song Wenrong have always treated him as their own son, and their family's living conditions are not bad, so it is not difficult at all to raise another child.

Moreover, they always rush to each other's door, and they are not a little familiar with each other's home. Living in their home, Ji Shiyan doesn't have to worry about getting used to it or feeling like he's depending on others.

They have long regarded him as their own family.

But he didn't stay.

What is the reason?Could it be that he was bullied abroad, so he didn't like outsiders?

Ji Shiyan was stunned visible to the naked eye, and his arms holding her froze for a moment. He argued, "When I was young, I was ignorant and wanted to go shopping. My parents said that going abroad is fun, so I went out with them..."

"But I remember that brother Shi Yan was unwilling at first."

She couldn't hold back her tears, and even she didn't know why she was crying, and the picture in her mind gradually became clear.

"My brother also said at that time that he didn't want to leave me..."

When he heard that his parents were going to take him abroad, he was very reluctant at first. In front of her, he struggled with his immature voice, even if he said he would go, he would take her with him.

But later he went with Ji Yangpei and the others by himself, and left without even saying goodbye to her.

He froze for a moment, his gaze went blank when he hit her directly, his eyelids were lowered, and he avoided her questioning look, "I don't remember clearly..."

He used such reasons to prevaricate her, even if she was not smart, she could still see something strange, and the extremely bad premonition was attacking her inch by inch.

"Hmm..." Knowing that no matter how much she asked, there would be no result, she fortunately did not continue.

He changed the subject.

"The show isn't over yet, let's go back and watch it, okay?"

The original intention of them coming here was to listen to music and stimulate their own happiness factors, but until now they haven't really sat in the auditorium to watch a performance quietly, and even made her cry.

"Um……"

He raised his hand to wipe away the wet tears on her cheeks, "Does the place where you fell still hurt?"

She shook her head.

"I'll get some ointment and apply it when I get home later, huh?" Falls usually leave bruises, and bruises must be pushed away as soon as possible so that they can dissipate faster later.

"it is good……"

(End of this chapter)