I'm the director, I'm not bad

Chapter 387 385. A child with low self-esteem

"congratulations."

"Thank you."

Yang Mi took the trophy politely, thanked Shu Qi and Wu Yanzu, and stood in front of the microphone.

Look around.

The stars are shining.

But at this moment, she herself became the most eye-catching one.

For a moment, her originally sober mind once again appeared a little trance.

This seems... This is her first time standing at the awards ceremony, right?
She was referring to such a heavyweight award.

Other TV dramas or the "Most Popular" or "Most Popular" awards of a small award do not count.

Neither did Cannes.

For the first time, as an independent heroine, standing in front of the big stage of a movie, it was really the first time.

And thinking of this, she unconsciously recalled the winter vacation in 06.

On that cold evening in January, she received a call from her instructor, who told her that Director Yu of the Directing Department wanted to ask her to make a short film.

no pay.

It was a student of the same year from the director department who made a short film script, and the instructor wanted her to try it.

Who made her the most experienced candidate in the acting department?

So, with a sense of utilitarianism that might be useful in building a good relationship with Director Yu in the future, she dressed up carefully and appeared in the school classroom the next day.

Meet your lover for the first time.

She was no stranger to Xu Xin.

No way, I drove a Ferrari in the first year of my freshman year, and put up a non-mainstream hairstyle every day in front of the school, wishing to turn my hair into that jackass on the wolf tooth list...

She is really not a stranger.

And that was her impression of Xu Xin.

Soil dregs.

An upstart from nowhere.

Looks good.

But she really can't like that virtue.

Even, after knowing about him and Yuan Shanshan at that time, Yang Mi was quite worried for Yuan Shanshan.

Although the two of them can't be called classmates who have a particularly good relationship, but because she has been in and out of various production groups since she was very young, she has seen and seen a lot of things.Therefore, she was really worried that Yuan Shanshan would suddenly come to the top and throw herself into the arms of that filthy nouveau riche desperately.

Then she got pregnant and lost her "life", and finally her stardom was ruined and she left sadly.

Girl, that's a lifetime.

but……

Good luck tricks people.

Yuan Shanshan's belly is not big, but her own belly is big...

Hmm... In various senses, it's outrageous.

She didn't know when she fell in love with Xu Xin.

It was obviously disgusting at first.

But then... Maybe it was the camel hair coat that my brother had lost for a long time?

Or after the two became friends, it was the first time that they found that the other party seemed to be different from what they thought, which changed a lot?

Or is it the smiles and smiles on the pedestrian street along the Dashilan to Deyunshe?
I really don't remember.

But the only thing that is certain is...the two definitely did not fall in love at first sight.

My brother also said that at first glance, I just thought I was beautiful... my legs are very beautiful.

Pooh.

Like an old color embryo.

As for liking it... His exact words were "you have to thank the wheel".

But the wheel is only the point where quantitative change leads to qualitative change.

When did I walk into his heart... as if I didn't know when he walked into my heart.

It's just... pretty vague.

And when the two first got together, even though they were "girlfriends"...Yang Mi never dreamed that she would undergo such a big change in these three years.

Got married, had a baby... and won an award...

This kind of sudden change in life made her stand in front of the spotlight watched by an unknown number of people at this moment, and she had an illusion... "This world is so unreal".

really?
How can I win the prize?

What did I do?I just won the Golden Horse Award?

I... I'm only 18 years old.

You leave this with my Sims?

I... My life shouldn't have started like that... What did that old liar say?Oh yes.

I will marry a man surnamed Liu, who will be my father when he is old.And then we have a daughter...and we'll get divorced at the end...

Is this my reality?
Now I'm just a fake network symbol?

She didn't know why she had such a strange idea.

but……

I really won an award!

It is still the golden horse award with the most gold content...

Damn!

Why is my brother not by my side now?

If he is by my side, Gao Low will let me punch him to see if he hurts.

I'm afraid I'm dreaming.

She was thinking wildly, when Shu Qi next to her saw that she hadn't moved for a long time, she hurriedly shouted again:
"Hey, are you giving your acceptance speech?"

"...?"

Yang Mi was subconsciously taken aback.

Then, all the divergent thoughts returned to their place in an instant.

The flickering eyes also returned to reality.

Then she remembered... Oh yes, I have to talk.

But... what should I say?
She put her mouth in front of the microphone...

Looking at the guests present in front of him... After thinking about it, he said:
"Well... can I confirm first?... This is the Golden Horse Awards... right? It's just... the award ceremony of the top-level Golden Horse Awards? Right... right?"

"..."

"..."

"..."

The whole place was silent.

Your first reaction is that you are sick, right?
But the second reaction immediately was a burst of laughter:
"Hahaha~"

then……

"Whoa, whoa, whoa..."

applause.

Hearing the applause, Yang Mi blinked, then looked down at the Golden Horse trophy in her hand:

"It's... quite heavy."

"Hahaha~"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa~"

Maybe it was because her dazed appearance was so cute, I don't know who blew the whistle.

All of a sudden, the atmosphere on the scene relaxed.

Only then did Yang Mi sort out her mood, and said:

"Uh...thanks to the judges of the Golden Horse Awards, thank you very much. This honor... means a lot to me."

As he spoke, his eyes fell on Li Pingdong, Liang Bingning and others:

"At the same time, I also want to thank all the front and backstage staff of "The Wind". Without everyone's hard work, I would not be in this position... Sister Bingbing, thank you. I also thank all fans for their support. It is you who supported me all the way to this sacred stage..."

Following her words, the scene switched to Liang Bingning's face.

With a smile on her face, she raised her hands above her head and drew a "heart" shape with her strokes.

Yang Mi couldn't help laughing out loud:
"Haha... Thank you so much everyone, you all worked hard. Then..."

Speaking of which, she first bowed to express her gratitude.

But because there is something to say here, everyone knows that she hasn't finished.

After getting up, she turned to the camera and said word by word:

"Finally, I would like to send two separate thanks...the first is to the director of "The Wind". Director Xu Xin...Although you can't come to the scene in person today, as an actor, I still want to send the most important A thank you. It is you who made me what I am today. Although I am sorry that I cannot share this joy and emotion with you at the scene, I believe that I feel the same with you at this moment."

This is a bit weird...

After listening to it, many people wondered... isn't Xu Xin your husband...

But Yang Mi's painting style changed immediately:
"Finally, the second award...I want to give it to my lover and children. Nuannuan, Yangyang, my mother would like to thank my father for his hard work, so that my mother can get this very important award. In the future, you two Make Dad angry...be careful. Mom will definitely stand by Dad's side..."

"Hahahahaha..."

No one expected that she would be able to shake her wit in the end.

In the midst of laughter, Yang Mi raised the trophy high:
"Thank you all, I love you and I love you too."

She said the last sentence to the camera.

Everyone understood who she was talking about.

At this moment, Xu Xin, who was sitting in front of the TV, smiled calmly even though the blush on his face hadn't faded after hearing this.

"I love you too, and you deserve it."

He said silently in his heart.

……

In the end, Xu Xin's "The Wind" still missed the best picture.

Lost to Daly Ren's "Can't Live Without You".

In fact, he was not surprised.

I can't say it wasn't a surprise...it would be more appropriate to say it was calm.

It's such an indifferent attitude.

As for him, if he really analyzes why he "lost", he thinks that "The Wind" loses, in fact, lies in the director's perspective of conveying ideas.

It is not a literary film in essence, but a feature film.

Whether the director conveys his spiritual core through the theme of the film, including discussions on a certain topic of artistry, is very fragile.

The effects and atmosphere created by light and shadow are also for the film itself.

Therefore, it is weaker in terms of artistry.

But... what does it matter?

I am only 18 years old.

You are still young.

……

"What? You want to come back?"

"Yes, I'm running to the airport right now. I'll probably get home around 12 o'clock in the morning. You remember to leave the door open for me, and then let my dad make me something to eat in the hot pot...I want me to eat dumplings too much Do not?"

"..."

"..."

Hearing this, Yang Dalin on the side stood up and went to the kitchen without saying a word.

It's okay, my son-in-law entertained guests tonight, he bought spare ribs specially, and didn't finish them all, but kept a small half in the refrigerator, planning to make ribs and corn soup tomorrow morning.

Since my daughter wants to eat... let's have a dumpling filled with meat and cabbage.

Who let the girl win the prize?

"It's not too much, hero...then have you finished greeting the others?"

"It's all over. Sister Bingbing and the others have to go to the dinner party. I said hello to everyone before leaving... Everyone knows that I am worried about my children. And I also expressed my apology for the Golden Horse Awards. The organizers The live broadcast director and Director Li are good friends, and Director Li said he would come over to say hello, don't worry."

"Well, shall I pick you up tonight?"

"Don't, just take care of Nuannuan and Yangyang at home... Oh yes, I have to gossip with you when I go back, old wolf! Hehehe..."

"The story between him and that Gong Xinliang?"

"Huh?... How do you know?"

"Nonsense, after you left last night, Lao Wang told me. I also went to check the girl's information..."

"The capital is quite thick, isn't it?"

"..."

Let's just say... Sometimes it's really unreasonable for her to act rogue.

Why are you talking about this, little girl? ……what?Are you a young lady?

That's fine.

"Okay, just come back quickly. I just take the child to get vaccinated tomorrow."

"Well, I'll hang up then."

"Okay...you wait."

Suddenly, Xu Xin stopped her.

"what?"

"You...you have to bring that dress back, you know?"

"Bah! Dream on you!"

Hearing this, even though there was no one in the room, Xu Xin lowered his voice, covered the phone and said quietly:
"Really, bring it back...you dress like a big star."

"I was originally a big star!"

"Then I want to play Big Star..."

"You wait to be played by a big star!! Abnormal!"

Doodle.

The phone hangs up.

Sun Ting at the side glanced at the GMC nanny car with the soundproof windows raised, and also lowered her voice:
"Sister, that dress... I won't take it away and wash it."

Hearing this, Yang Mi glanced at her:
"Tingting..."

"what?"

Under Sun Ting's suspicious gaze, Yang Mi's hand turned into a knife.

Killing chickens is bitter.

"you know too much!"

"Hehe~"

……

When Yang Mi got home, it was already 1 o'clock.

When she arrived home, Yang Dalin followed into the house with a plate of dumplings on her back.

As for why I troubled my dad to cook dumplings at night...

Ok.

If you want to drink noodle dumpling stuffing soup, you can let my brother cook it.

In the past few years, she has successfully turned her husband into a waste who doesn't work hard.

As for the extent of the waste... Now that she is gone, he can cook instant noodles, and he can pour as much soup...

"Give."

Passing the trophy in Xu Xin's hand, Yang Mi, who hadn't eaten dinner, couldn't wait to launch a fierce attack on the dumplings.

It's a pity that there is no garlic vinegar...

Always a little less soul.

But there was nothing she could do. Ever since the garlic chicken wings incident last time, she had been ordered to eat garlic without her husband's approval.

It depends on whether there are any plans to go online tonight.

And there must be a big singing and dancing live event tonight, she dare not even touch chili oil.

I'm afraid that my brother will become the main dish on the Thanksgiving table.

And Xu Xin weighed the heavy Golden Horse trophy in his hand, got up and walked directly into the study, and put the trophy in the glass showcase full of antiques.

After coming back, looking at Yang Mi who was devouring it, she said:
"Eat slowly, and no one will fight with you."

"Hmm... What time did the child feed? What time did he go to bed?"

"It was after 9 o'clock and fell asleep with a bottle in its mouth."

"Well……"

Hearing this, Yang Mi looked up at the time on the clock again, and nodded:
"That's almost there, at most half an hour before you should cry... How did you cry last night?"

"Last night was okay. Nuan Nuan felt a little uncomfortable in his stomach at around 12 o'clock. I hugged the plane for a while. After falling asleep, Yang Yang started to cry. He warmed up the milk and fell asleep after eating. Then Nuan Nuan woke up , the time is staggered, so it's not too troublesome."

"...Well, it's hard work."

Although her brother said it was easy, she knew that last night must have been difficult.

"Rest well tonight, and leave the rest to me."

"Good~"

In fact, raising children is like this.

At first glance, it is difficult to pass the test and the night is difficult.

But watching the two little guys grow up every day under careful care is a very happy thing.

Seeing her sister who hadn't removed her make-up eating dumplings with her flaming red lips, Xu Xin's eyes straightened.

After thinking about it, he asked:
"Is there anything going on at the Golden Horse Awards?"

"No, everything is normal."

"I think Huang Xiaoming has gone too, have you talked to him about Yang Ying?"

"Why am I talking about her?"

Yang Mi shrugged while eating:

"Let's not get involved in love matters. For girls, finding a life-long happiness is more important than anything else... Oh yes, we chatted about the movie Director Li made, it's called "Love Announcement". Now I'm looking for an actress, and I recommended Yang Ying, Baozi, Liu Yifei, and Shishi. Didn't you say that Jiaojiao's acting skills are still young? I didn't recommend it."

"Poetry?"

Xu Xin frowned slightly:

"You cross Tang Ren to find a chance for her..."

"Not crossed."

Seemingly guessing what he wanted to say, Yang Mi shook her head:
"I just told Shishi the news, and then said hello to Director Li. If Shishi goes to an audition, then I will arrange it. It depends on what the director says...but Director Li's status is here. That's right, our people, including Shishi, will pay more attention. I don't get involved with the rest... Don't worry, she won't make it difficult for Tangren."

Only then did Xu Xin feel relieved.

Then urged...

"Okay, let's eat quickly. Don't talk about business tonight~"

"What's the hurry?"

The young woman rolled her eyes at her lover with all kinds of amorous feelings:
"You like what I'm wearing?"

"Hmm... It's the first time I saw you wearing a tube top dress... By the way, what kind of dress should we buy in the future to prevent me from being like a thief? I've never seen your dress before..."

"Ha ha."

Yang Mi sneered.

My heart said I don't know what kind of virtue you have?

If other people charge, at most they will lose a pair of stockings or a set of clothes worth tens of dollars.

Your old man's hobby...

A set of high order at least tens of thousands of dollars...

Your cost is really expensive...

Moreover, it is a trivial matter whether money is not money... The main reason is that every time I say that I feel like playing a celebrity...

I am a star! ! !

Where did you get such a strange cognition?

Too much bean buns are not suitable for dry food.

"Go crazy, I think you can survive for a few more years... After ten years, maybe you will have to walk around me when you see me in a dress."

Xu Xin treats this as a fart.

Does he believe it?
I don't believe it at all.

Just blow it and you will.

If our buddy wants to be a coin, he will be a lifetime.

Go forward!

……

July 12th this day.

The box office of "Three Shots" reached 2750 million.

This is the news disclosed by the media early in the morning on the 13th.

The news that happened to be separated from Yang Mi's golden horse seal.

After getting up early in the morning, she didn't care much about the news about her Golden Horse actress.

About how to operate, I had already talked with Sister Hua in the car last night.Therefore, the popularity of the news after she was banned is estimated to last for two or three days.

Today is news, but starting tomorrow, a large part of the praised articles are drafts bought with money.

For her who is already married as a wife and mother, this kind of hype is essential.

What else?

Is it possible to stir up scandals with others?
However, Yang Mi didn't let Wang Jinghua overwhelm the world in a frenzy, but selected the best.

The ones worth buying by her must be some relatively well-known media.

By many.

And these media to buy the page, in fact, it doesn't cost much.

It's just that there will be some exclusive interviews later.

For example, last night, she received an invitation from Wang Minmin.

Southern Weekly wants to invite her to shoot the January cover.

Two plans are given.

One is to appear together with Xu Xin and be selected as a couple on the cover of the weekly magazine, as well as an exclusive interview with the couple.

The price is 30 thousand.

But Yang Mi directly denied this plan.

Before the wedding photos were taken, she refused any form of shooting plans with her husband in the same frame.

If you want to shoot, keep the first time of the two of them in your deepest memory.

The second article is a separate cover and interview.

The price is 3 thousand.

At first glance, the price gap is a bit obvious, but in fact, the main reason for the high price is the sincerity of inviting Xu Xin.

After all, as a magazine, it is also a very good means of publicity for a celebrity to appear on the front page of some big magazines, and the price is usually not too high.

What's more, Southern Weekly is an old friend.

The price given by Yang Mi has always been very favorable.

If you need help, just say it.If you pay for the transportation expenses of the personnel, you have to pay if you don’t have money.

Who in this circle doesn't know big honey is righteous?

Therefore, facing these news announcements, Yang Mi felt quite indifferent.I even saw some news that criticized myself, and my mood didn't fluctuate much.

On the contrary, she cared more about "Three Guns".

And seeing that the reputation of "Three Guns" has been completely cracked... Countless people are calling it bad, and she is actually quite uncomfortable.

After all, she is one of the few people who knows what the movie is about.

After Xu Xin got up, she thought about it, and said to Xu Xin who was drinking porridge:

"The word-of-mouth of "Three Guns" has dropped very quickly... Douban's score has already reached 5."

"Well, I know. I flipped through it when I went to the toilet just now...it's okay, the old man said it's nothing without looking at it...what happened is useless anyway, just look forward."

"Then do you want to go to Director Zhang?"

"You don't need to look for it. The children of "Jinling" will come here to audition next week, and you can meet them then."

"...Okay. Then you hurry up and eat. After eating, we will take the children to vaccinate."

"Ah."

Xu Xin speeded up.

After breakfast, the family set off to the community health center to vaccinate their children.

In the afternoon, some strangers came to the house.

It was the person from the decoration company that Yang Mi was looking for.

In the next year, the courtyard house will start to be refurbished, and the three connected courtyards will start to undergo major changes.

Several designers came to communicate with the couple about the details of the design.

And Xu Xin's request is very simple, to give himself a work area.

Including a study room, a reception room, a place to drink and brag with a few friends, etc.

The three courtyards add up to cover an area of ​​almost 4 basketball courts.

More than 700 but less than [-].

This is obviously a big job.

Conservatively estimate renovation costs close to a small target.

And the construction period is only one year.

This period is the time for preparatory work and perfection before the design.

After communicating with the designer about the house in the afternoon, another wave of guests came to the house in the evening.

Lu Yang, Chen Shu, Fang Xiu, and other crew members formed during this week all came to Xu Xin's house.

He still learned this habit from the old man.

The old man likes to let others come to talk at home, not in his studio.

The main reason is that he is familiar with the conditions at home, so he can relax his emotions and try to think more comprehensively about the things he shoots.

Xu Xin thought this habit was pretty good, so he copied it.

Indeed, in the study at home, his preparation materials, including files on the computer, are easy to find.

Very comfortable.

When Lu Yang arrived, he also brought some information about his children.

"Director Xu, a total of 30 kids have been auditioned in the past two days, and some of them feel pretty good. Take a look."

"Ah."

Xu Xin nodded, and directly inserted the USB flash drive into the computer.

There are 7 video files in total.

"These six people were selected by me individually. The remaining video file is the audition video that was added together."

Xu Xin clicked on the first video file.

The same face-to-face shot.

The child seemed a little shy. After glancing at a certain location, a voice sounded:
"Talk to the camera."

"Hi Uncle Director, my name is Liu Xuesi, I am 7 years old..."

A self-introduction, plus a street dance move.

After the dance, Xu Xin shook his head and passed directly.

And then the second one.

The third.

the fourth……

In fact, these children have no professional acting experience, and it is unrealistic to really ask for the acting skills of actors.

So Xu Xin only focused on looking for the characteristics of these children.

He wants a timid quality with a little inferiority complex.

And this kind of inferiority fits exactly what the child who was brought up by his grandma without a mother in "Trade" showed.

But the first four children are all out of the sun.

It's laughing, and it's a talent show...it doesn't seem to be very good.

So, he clicked on the fifth video.

A quiet-looking little boy's face came into view.

He was not as embarrassed as those people before.

Looking at the camera, it seemed quiet.

And when Lu Yang's voice came to mind and said the phrase "You can introduce yourself", the boy had a kind of...

At first glance, he nodded politely in response.

But it gives people a kind of "pretentious" taste with a bit of flattery.

Xu Xin raised his eyebrows.

Then I heard the kid smile at the camera.

"Hi director. My name is Wang Junkai, I am nine years old and I am from Chongqing..."

Xu Xin narrowed his eyes.

This kid's talent show is actually dancing, and he still looks good.But after the performance, he would turn into that kind of... calm expression with a little inferiority complex.

Then when he speaks, he will bring a little flattering meaning.

After the 2-minute segment ended, Xu Xin thought about it, and then went back and watched it again.

The more he looked at him, the stronger his sense of inferiority grew.

At this time, Yang Mi also walked in, planning to send some fruit to the big guy.

When she came in, she saw the kid smiling at the camera on the computer screen, and she was taken aback...

After the video was over, she first put the fruit on the table amidst the voices of "Thank you sister Mi" from a group of people, and then said to Xu Xin:

"Who was that kid just now? Why does he feel so distressed when he smiles?"

Xu Xin's eyes lit up:
"You feel this way too?"

Yang Mi nodded:
"Yeah, I feel very inferior...you can play it again and let me see."

"Ah."

Xu Xin played the file again, and while she was watching, she turned to Lu Yang and asked:
"Where did you find this kid?"

"It was recommended. A company called Times Junfeng seems to be dedicated to finding child stars. After the "Transaction" project was established, I sent the news to various intermediaries and brokerage companies. But I didn't say it was Xu Daoyou If you want to shoot, go through the normal channels, and hide the news that this movie is your director. Then yesterday for an audition, the kid’s manager came with a few kids. A total of six or seven came, but I I thought he was quite suitable, so I kept him."

Xu Xin nodded, and Yang Mi was standing beside him watching the audition footage on the computer.

After reading it, she said:
"It feels pretty good."

"Yes, it's mainly because of the inferiority complex...it really hurts people. It just fits the kind of temperament that the children in "Trading" want to show...just him. Nine years old...the time to go to school is a problem. Director Lu , then you are in charge of coordinating the time... Children, no matter how you act, you can't delay the culture class."

Hearing this, Lu Yang nodded:

"Okay, Director Xu."

　That's all for today.After finishing this update in the afternoon, I felt very tired and took a nap. Woke up at 7 o'clock until now at 10 o'clock... Sitting in front of the computer for 3 hours, I still can't concentrate, and even my thoughts are a little bit broken.It's a bit uncomfortable, so I can't squeeze it out... I'm sorry everyone.

　　
　
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