About the fact that I accidentally turned my sister into a cripple

Study, review, study, review.
Suzu Kanbara straightened her waist, staring at the homework and textbooks that her brother and teacher had arranged for her one by one with a very reluctant expression, she was in a daze that was about to despair.

Why, why write so many things!
And there is still yesterday's homework in it.

The girl's heart was full of filial piety, but because she was in the classroom, she had to maintain the expression on her face.

Calm down, Ah Ling, you have to calm down.

She kept repeating this hint to herself in her heart.

But at the end of the hint, she found that it was useless.

Why write so much?
Can't you not write?
Are you failing if you don’t write about your life?

I really want to be lazy, I really want to go home and sleep, I really want to eat beef curry rice.
Shen Yuanling fell into a state of extreme despair.

Otherwise, should I give up?
I don't know how much it will be comfortable to give up.

"Bing Jiang, you really worked hard"

Accompanied by the soft voice, it was my friend who was sitting next to me, who had just gone to the toilet, Jie Qiantiano.

Seeing the homework spread out in front of Shen Yuanling and the gel pen in her hand, she sighed from the heart for her good friend's hard work.

"No no."

This.!

Well, in order to maintain the image, it seems that I have no choice but to continue writing.

It's obviously lunch break, okay?
About 10 minutes later, Shen Yuanling finished writing a paper and was going to rest for a while.

As soon as he turned his head, a piece of sausage went straight into his mouth.

Shen Yuanling was taken aback for a moment, then turned her head to look, and found that it was Jie Qiantian who smiled and fed herself the contents of her lunch box.

"How does Bell Sauce taste?"

"Very, very good."

"Hey, right, my mother's craftsmanship has always been very good." Jie Qiantian moved the stool to Shen Yuanling's table, and brought the lunch box and wrapping cloth together, "We will divide them next year. Classes are over, is Bell-chan going to choose science or liberal arts?"

"I'm not good at arts and sciences."

Shen Yuanling suddenly noticed that Jie Qian Tian was staring at her for several seconds, felt strange, and asked, "Why is Tian Nao looking at me like that?"

"Does Bell Sauce want to be assigned to the first class?"

"That's right."

Jie Qiantian continued: "But Bell-chan has been very busy recently, and she doesn't have time to study her homework, and her grades have dropped to around [-]."

This is a fact, and Shen Yuanling was almost at this level in the last monthly test.

This is the result of my elder brother helping her make up urgent lessons.

"Based on this score, Bell-chan will hardly be assigned to the first class, right? It is very likely that she will be assigned to an art class or something."

This is also true.

But Shen Yuan Suzuko was so tired that he didn't want to study anymore.

Kai Chien continued: "Recently, I have heard a lot about Kanbara-kun at school."

"What's wrong with him?" Shen Yuanling asked with concern, she only heard a little bit.

"Everyone is speculating whether Kanhara-kun is dating Tianhai, and whether he is also dating the newcomer. You can often see the two sitting in the cafeteria eating together."

Shen Yuanling knew that her elder brother had a good reputation in school. …

He has a handsome face and a very good figure. Every time he plays sports, he is alone compared to boys in other classes. He plays basketball, volleyball, baseball, etc., and he is also at the top level.
Many girls admire him very much.

It's all external.

Cut, a bunch of superficial women!

"That, sweetie, don't listen to their nonsense, Zhixue and my brother are just ordinary friends." Shen Yuanling replied with a normal expression.

'Ling-chan doesn't seem to understand me at all.'

Jie Qiantian was thinking in her heart.

For Bell Sauce, a good friend, she is not very happy recently, Jie Qiantian can see it completely.

[Why are you unhappy? ]
Jie Qiantian asked several times on the sidelines during this period, but to no avail.

But at school, Bell Sauce often saw her brother and Tianhai Jiuliuli smiling and exchanging eyes from a distance, Jie Qiantian understood.

Bell sauce, has not been cared about recently.

Kanhara-kun put too much of his heart on the two Tianhai classmates.

He didn't even realize that his sister had become less energetic than before.

Because I was not called by my brother, I have never been energetic.

As a good friend, I have to think of a way.

"It turned out to be like this," Jie Qiantian smiled, and put her fingers together in front of her, "That bell sauce, do you want to. Anyway, our work has decreased recently, do you want to try to work together? Work hard towards the second In the school year, the class with the best grades will start?"

Shen Yuanling didn't respond, "Why?"

"Because. Bell-chan, look, the two Tianhai students have always been No. 1 in the exam, and Shen Yuan-kun has always maintained the third place, only a few points behind the two Tianhai students. They must be assigned I went to class one."

"What are you going to do in class one?"

"Bing-chan must be going to Class [-], right?"

"I don't want to go."

Shen Yuanling muttered all this, relaxed her shoulders, and sighed deeply: "If you go, you can only be a light bulb."

Why not buy something to eat and sit with He Zhixue after school.

"Kanhara-san, someone is calling you." An unfamiliar classmate interrupted their conversation.

Shen Yuanling looked towards the door, and found that it was Amami Yuki with long black hair standing at the door.

What is she here for?
Do you come to ask yourself what you want to eat again?

Shen Yuanling still has a good relationship with Zhixue. As a good friend, they often go out to buy food together.

Talking to Tian Nao temporarily, Kanbaru Ling walked out of the classroom and saw Amami Zhiyuki's flat and delicate face.

"what happened?"

"I have something to talk to Bell."

"Huh? What's the matter?"

"Join the band."

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Shen Yuanling was not sure if she had heard correctly, "Join what? Join a band?"

"Ah."

"What band?"

"Rock Band."

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Tianhai Zhixue played rock and roll at home every day, and during that time it was so noisy that the police came. Of course, Shen Yuanling knew that Zhixue liked rock and roll.

"But why did you find me all of a sudden and ask me to join a rock band?"

"Because I couldn't find anyone, Ling was easy to talk to."

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It's really a simple and understandable reason. …

"Joining the band. Well, no problem, but I don't have time recently, and I'm about to face the end of the semester, so I have to study hard."

"Le Shuoling can be named first."

"Then it's no problem." Shen Yuanling nodded, of course it's no problem to help a good friend, but you must know that Yuki will bring her favorite things for herself to eat!
"Wait!" Shenyuan Ling suddenly realized something again, "Zhixue, you mean, what my brother told you can be named first?"

"Ah."

"Is he in the band too?"

"Happy."

"Where's Jiuliuli and Qimingyue?"

"Xiao Qi and Xiao Jiu are also here."

"...Then I won't join." Shen Yuanling suddenly became depressed, but recovered quickly.

"why?"

"Zhixue, you don't understand. Anyway, if the three of them stay together, I won't join, because I have nothing to do with it."

"understood."

As soon as Tianhai Zhixue finished speaking, she turned her head and left without emotion.The figure drifted away at the other end of the corridor.

This made Shen Yuanling, who hadn't reacted, quite messy.

"So, let's go like this?"

Kanbaru Suzu, who didn't understand, stood there for a minute.

She really didn't want to understand, so she had to go back to the classroom.After explaining the situation with Jie Qiantian, they talked for half an hour about the topic of the second grade, and it was time for class.

About why Zhixue didn't agree to join the band.

Shen Yuanling knew that she just didn't want to see the intimacy that those few people might show in the band.

Don't want to see it, don't want to see it at all.

I won't join it myself!

It was time to finish school in the afternoon, because there were two more classes, and the time was much later than before.

"Ling, join the band."

Kanbara Suzu met Amami Yuki in the shoe changing room after greeting her classmates.

She didn't want to target this good friend, but she felt that she should still refuse.

"No."

"Well, then I'll ask later." Tianhai Zhixue, who was carrying a small schoolbag, still nodded lightly, "Then go to the convenience store and buy something to eat?"

"Why ask later if you can eat, this is good."

Walking out of school, I went to the convenience store to buy sweet chicken steak and teriyaki meat skewers. Kanbara Suzu thought that Amami Yuki would continue to ask herself if she wanted to join the band, but she didn't expect that she would just eat quietly at the bar table.

The side facing the street.

"My brother asked you to create this band?"

"I created it myself."

"Why do you suddenly want to start a band?"

"Because I want more fans."

"Oh Nazhiyuki how is yours?"

"There is no fire."

"It's true if you think about it. How could it be possible to become popular as soon as it comes out?" Shen Yuanling was quite emotional. "I used to think that as long as I had strength, I would become popular. Everyone should be able to hear my efforts, but in fact? No one cares. I spent the first year as a small role, and I had to prepare and be nervous for a few days for an audition."

"But Le still wants to help me continue to produce." Tianhai Zhixue continued the topic just now, "Le wants to help me get more fans."

"Why is he helping you so much?" …

Tianhai Zhixue thought for a while: "I don't know."

"It's fine if you don't know, it's a central air conditioner anyway, that's the kind of person he is."

"Le also said that he wants to find his goal through the band."

"Hmph, that's really gratifying, but I won't join in." Kanbara Suzu twisted the two ends of the teriyaki chicken skewers with both hands, biting small bites.Full of fragrant heat.

"Le also said that he likes Bell very much."

The light words of Tianhai Zhixue almost made Shen Yuanling choke, and hurriedly asked:

"Did he really say that?"

"The band, the bell is the most indispensable one." Amami Zhixue imitated the words of Kamihara Raku at that time, her voice was as thin as ice withered.

This sentence made Kamihara Suzu feel weird and warm, and it also reminded her of many scenes.

The clearest thing is that when he ran away from home, he went to find him by himself. He smiled and made himself a king crab meal to entertain himself.

Not only do you not need to wash the dishes, but you can also boldly fall asleep on his lap when you are tired.

That was the happiest dinner Shen Yuanling had had in recent years.

But what about recently?

Recently, I have less and less for myself.

He is not himself at all now, why would he want to pull himself into some band?
"Certainly! Even if that's the case, why didn't he invite me himself, so I won't go!"

"Le invites Ling, will Ling come?"

"Not anymore! Sorry, this is not aimed at you, Zhixue, but I won't join."

Shen Yuanling looked like she was about to leave, she packed up the leftover packing boxes and picked up her schoolbag.

"Okay, okay, that's the end of this topic. I won't join anyway, that's all."

Kamihara Suzu escaped from the convenience store.

Even she herself didn't know why she fled in a panic.

Looking at the darkened sky above, the sound of trams running on the elevated tracks, the glass curtain walls of tall buildings are filled with bright lights like glazed glass.

Kanbara Suzu was in a daze, carrying a small schoolbag, and walking on the large shopping street full of cold air, pulling the shoulder strap of the schoolbag.

Head full of memories about some stinky guy.

[A Ling, actually I like Jiuliuli]
[A Ling, Qi Mingyue seems to like me too]
[A Ling, actually I don’t like Tokyo very much, if possible, I will go to Kyoto to study in university]
Kanbara Suzu pursed her lips at each sentence of reminiscence.

She is so annoying, obviously before he only cared about himself.

But now
I haven't been taken care of at all.

Why, why be so damn nice to everyone?
Why, why did you have to forgive Jiu Liuli at that time?

Why, why didn't you think about anything because of me?Thinking because I stayed in Tokyo to study?
Am I that unimportant?

Why, why can't you see through my thoughts?

All kinds of uncomfortable thoughts fermented in the cold wind.

Shen Yuanling walked into the residential area, entered a nearby children's park, and sat down on the snow-covered sandpit and the swing between the slides.Sitting here like this is of course meaningless, but only here, the cold, unlit corner can make her feel a little more comfortable. …

Kamihara Suzu remembered a certain guy's reaction to her.

Perhaps his thoughts have long been seen through.

He knew it, and he knew it too.

But it was precisely because of his understanding and clarity that he did not express other thoughts to himself, and was always caring, caring with a hint of pampering.

I have been indulging my unreasonable troubles all the time, and I have been indulging my character.

"Pfft", Kanbaru Suzu laughed humorously, "It's better not to be clear."

After reading this sentence, Shen Yuanling fell into a state of silence again, and she began to shake the swing, letting her body sway along with it.

squeak
The cold friction sound driven by the chain locks was the only sound in the cold wind.

Should, what should I do?
Should, how to do?
It should be, how can I not feel uncomfortable?

A series of thoughts popped out of Shen Yuanling's head, but the more she thought, the more she didn't know what to do.

How about disappearing suddenly?
If it disappears, it won't have a big impact on him, right?

Is he coming back to find himself?
How long will it take?

I probably don't care about my existence at all.
The creaking sound stopped, and the girl's hand holding the chain disappeared, and the figure on the swing raised her head to the sky.

The girl's purple eyes, which reflected thousands of neon lights, shone with a crystal light.

After 5 minutes of silence.

Kanbaru Suzu sniffled, stretched out her hand to erase all the things obscuring her vision, and then smiled at the sky:

"Really, will I cry in this way? I didn't cry, no!"

After shouting like this, no one answered her.

No one responded to her either.

"Smelly Lele"

The cold wind made people's cheeks feel cold and their bodies trembled.

Sitting on the swing in this children's park, she seems to want someone to run out to find her, tell herself that I care about you, tell herself not to catch a cold, tell herself to go home quickly
Shen Yuanling was very sad, but for some reason, there was always a force in her heart that made her not want to be so sad.

I want to change, I want to change, at least, I don't want to be remembered.

"That guy Qi Mingyue said he liked that guy since he was a child. I'm afraid he also had the same mentality as me? In front of Jiu Liuli?"

Shen Yuanling thought more and more, what did Qi Mingyue do?

How did she treat Jiu Liuli?

If she chooses to escape, there will be nothing left.

"bell."

After 10 minutes of silence, Kanbaru Ling raised her head and realized that it was Amami Yuki who had found this place.

She was also carrying the small schoolbag on her back, staring at herself like a blank sheet of paper.

Kanbaru Ling saw her and stood up.

"Sorry for keeping you looking for me."

"Then why did Ling run away just now?"

"Angry. That guy went to call Jiuliuli and Qi Mingyue didn't come to call me. But thinking about it carefully, he probably didn't think about it. I don't want to be that kind of Mai Tai who only complains. I can take whatever I want. No matter how bad it is, you must keep your position!"

"What are you talking about?"

"I mean, I'm going to change my approach in the future! If I'm passive, I'll just get beaten, and I won't get anything good! The two of them have been bullying me, I've had enough!"