morbidly addicted

Chapter 183 We All Made Mistakes

She lowered her eyes and whispered.

"We seem to be arguing all the time."

Fu Jingxing was slightly startled when he heard the words, and looked at her deeply, with a dark light in his eyes.

It would be an understatement to say that they quarreled. Most of the time, they were even fighting. To be precise, she violently beat him unilaterally from time to time.

Li Jingman was not very willing to accept the fact that she was pregnant, and during that time she had to struggle with him especially hard.

Especially when she was about five months pregnant, when her body started to experience the pregnancy changes.

She started to do things to him, used a knife, made him eat rat poison, and the most serious time, she asked him to buy scented candles, and then lit the sheets in the room with candles while he was asleep.

Then, he lost control of himself and hurt her again under his anger. She was admitted to the hospital and started a month-long hunger strike after she was discharged.

Although she finally gave birth to the child, the road from her pregnancy to the time she brought the child home was really difficult, and it was the last thing he wanted to recall.

Seeing that Fu Jingxing's expression was wrong, Li Jingman covered his hand with his backhand and squeezed it lightly.

Fu Jingxing raised his eyes to look at her in silence, his eyes were covered with an impenetrable darkness, and the expression on his face was unpredictable.

Li Jingman pursed her lips and looked at him quietly. After a long time, Fu Jingxing suddenly reached out and stroked her hair.

"Your hair is dry."

He carried her to the bed, reached out and turned off the bedside lamp, and took her into his arms.

"I'm tired, let's not talk today, let's go to bed early."

He hugged her too tightly, Li Jingman struggled uncomfortably, Fu Jingxing buried his face in her neck: "Manman, I'm in a bad mood right now, you'd better not move around."

So Li Jingman was honest, let him hold him obediently, and waited for a while in the dark, Fu Jingxing's breathing was completely even.

She thought he was asleep, so she tried to step back again, but Fu Jingxing let go of his hand.

She breathed a sigh of relief, turned her back to him, lay quietly in the dark and counted sheep, and did not make any other movements.

After a while, she just fell asleep when the man's arm came from behind her, pulled her into his arms, and whispered in the darkness by holding her from behind.

"Honey, we've all done a lot of wrong things, so we should all give each other many, many chances to be forgiven."

Li Jingman pretended to be asleep and didn't speak, when suddenly he felt the scalding on the back of his neck, and was kissed by the man.

Is this bastard not going to act like a human again?
She gritted her teeth, and was hesitating whether to push him away, but Fu Jingxing returned to the posture of burying her face on her shoulder, and did not do any other frivolous actions.

That's it, after a while, I fell asleep.

Li Jingman didn't know when he fell asleep in a daze.

In the dream, she was at Fu's house, and she could see her swollen belly when she lowered her head.

She was wearing a loose maternity dress, which was beautiful, but no matter how beautiful she was, she couldn't hide the fact that her figure was out of shape, and her arms and calves were swollen.

She was ruined, she was really ruined, unwillingly, she was ruined by his evil deeds.

She lowered her head, full of sadness and bitterness, and shed tears in big drops.

The man walked in from the door, and his heavy footsteps sounded to her side a little bit as he approached. He walked up to her, knelt down, raised her face with his hand, and looked into her tearful eyes.

"Sister-in-law Wu said that you haven't eaten anything today, wife, can you tell me what you're thinking?"

He helped her wipe away the tears that kept falling, and stared at her gently with sadness in his eyes.

"It's been a month, my wife. The doctor who gave you the physical examination told me that if you continue like this, the baby will probably die due to insufficient nutrition. Do you really hate him that much?"

The speed at which she shed tears intensified upon hearing this, her eyes were like an endless well, continuously flowing out lines of clear tears.

She didn't want to kill that child, she really didn't want to, no matter how he came, it was a life after all.

What's more, even if she really loses this child, she can't go back to the past.

She can't go back to the time when she didn't meet Fu Jingxing, she can't be the clean and carefree self she used to be.

The heavy body and swollen limbs gradually wiped away all her hopes for life. She knew that she was gradually being destroyed. The terrible thing was that she had no ability to change all this.

The man stared at her sadly for a while, then suddenly lowered his eyebrows mockingly.

"I understand."

He whispered: "Since you have made up your mind, I can't just sit and wait for you to die."

She didn't understand what he meant, and she still wept silently.

But he heard him say with difficulty: "Six months, although the month is a bit older, but it is not completely impossible to solve it. Instead of torturing him slowly like you are now, I'd better give him a good time."

He looked at her deeply: "Li Jingman, if the child and you can only choose one, then I will still choose you. Just wait, I will contact the hospital and find a doctor for you right away."

After she realized what he was going to do, a flash of panic flashed in her heart, and she even stopped crying. Seeing him get up, she stretched out her hand in a panic, and grabbed his wrist.

Fu Jingxing stood up straight and looked down at her, his eyes were dead silent, but his tone was soothing.

"Don't worry, I will find a doctor with the best skills, and I won't let you experience any pain that you shouldn't have."

She looked at him with tears in her eyes, letting the tears trickle down her cheeks: "Fu Jingxing, do you know what you just said?"

He hooked his lips in a self-deprecating way. Under the reflection of the crystal lamp in the room, his beautiful eyes shone with a shattered light, and his voice was so low that it couldn't be lowered.

"Manman, whether you believe it or not, my original intention of wanting this child is to keep you.

If he not only fails to achieve my purpose, but also has the opposite effect, then he is nothing in my eyes. "

Her heart sank, and she let go of her hand.

He moved quickly, and took her out of the door in a short time. Because she refused to eat for a long time, the doctor had been giving her nutritional injections. Her white arms were lined with needle holes, and midsummer's thin clothes made her scars very conspicuous. .

When Fu Jingxing saw it, his expression was slightly painful, but he still held her hand to protect her and got into the car. He patted her head and said softly to her.

"Don't be afraid. I'll take you to the hospital. The doctor will give you anesthesia. You just need to sleep there. When you wake up, nothing will happen."

She didn't speak, staring blankly at the busy traffic outside the window, and the signboards of shops retreating rapidly one after another.

She knew what he was going to take her to do. After a month of silent resistance, she finally won a round in his hands, and he gave up. He didn't want this child who had worked so hard to get her.

The car stopped at a crossroad and waited for a red light. There happened to be a zebra crossing in front of it. Two children in elementary school uniforms walked past the car.

The small flower-like face is sweet and immature, bouncing around, full of vigor.

Fu Jingxing should have seen it too, and held her hand tightly, but in the end he didn't say anything.

(End of this chapter)