morbidly addicted

Chapter 209 It's My Fault
Li Jingman trembled from his contemptuous tone, stood up and took the teacup and poured the tea in his face viciously.

"Fu Jingxing, you bastard!"

He tilted his head, his eyelashes wetted by tea were stuck together, making him look a little pitiful, but his tone was so bad.

Five fingers clenched into fists several times, she felt scared after pouring tea, and backed away in panic, afraid that he would hit her.

He squinted at her for a while without moving, but his voice became colder and colder.

"Honey, I don't want to touch you, but it's still easy for me to let a book of Charlotte disappear from this world."

After saying that, he got up and was about to leave. Li Jingman saw him walking towards the door, fearing that he was really going to deal with Xia Luoshu, so he hurriedly stopped behind him.

Fu Jingxing's pace was not fast, and the moment she grabbed his wrist, he stopped.

"Don't touch Xia Luoshu..." She heard herself begging softly in panic, "Fu Jingxing, I lied to you, I have nothing with him..."

Fu Jingxing turned his head noncommittally, seeing her humiliating, his expression became more irritable, and he pinched her chin to make her look up.

"Is he that important to you?"

Her eyes were weak and broken: "Don't implicate the innocent, he is clean, don't touch him."

Fu Jingxing's eyes turned cold, and he asked angrily, "He is clean, so who do you think is dirty?"

Yes, she thinks that Charlotte's book is clean, which means there is a control group.

Who is dirty?
Li Jingman's eyes flickered a few times, and she already had the answer in her heart, but she couldn't say it, for fear of angering the man in front of her again.

Fu Jingxing waited for a long time but couldn't wait for her to answer. Seeing her pale face and flickering expression, he shook off her hand.

Li Jingman fell to the ground, but fortunately there was a carpet, so it didn't hurt.

However, the torn hole in his heart was still bleeding.

"Li Jingman, you are very good, for a man, you don't even want face."

Seeing her fall, Fu Jingxing subconsciously took a step forward, but then retreated abruptly.

Throwing down a word in a cold voice, he left Fu's house angrily.

Li Jingman sat weakly on the carpet for a while, and when he regained some strength, he turned around and went upstairs to a guest bedroom.

For a week in a row, Fu Jingxing did not return to the Fu family.

Suddenly one day, he came back and brought her something.

"Happy birthday."

She didn't open the box and handed him the same thing.

"I changed the terms, I hope you can seriously consider it."

He flipped through the improved divorce agreement and was furious again.

"Pay me monthly compensation after the divorce, Li Jingman, who are you insulting here?"

She froze for a moment, then quickly realized: "I made a mistake, it's not this."

The coldness around him dissipated slightly, and in the next second, four documents with the same cover were handed over to him.

"Each term is different. You can choose whichever you like."

He looked at it calmly for a while, then made a sudden move, tearing up all the agreements.

Snowflake-like fragments fell from his hands all over the ground. She looked at it tiredly, and there was no wave in her heart.

"If you don't like it, I can reformulate it, but I hope you can seriously consider it.

A marriage without feelings is really too painful, and the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain.

Fu Jingxing, you are a smart person, you must understand better than me what it means to stop losses in time. "

"What if I don't want it to end?"

He looked at her with dark eyes, and said in a cold voice, "Even if it's painful, I'm not going to let go, Li Jingman, what are you going to do?"

She looked at him quietly: "What are you planning?"

Laughed self-deprecatingly.

"Fu Jingxing, with your current status and power, you can't get what you want.

We can't be lovers, we can't be husband and wife, do we have to torture each other beyond recognition, and finally become enemies? "

When it came to the end, she wanted to get up, and she didn't want to face the tense atmosphere at the moment.

But he got up at the same time and suddenly took her hand.

"Manman, don't go."

He pulled her back into his arms, hugged her behind her, and buried his face in the side of her neck.

"It's my fault. I shouldn't say those words on purpose to anger you. Today is your birthday. Let's not quarrel and spend the day happily, shall we?"

The hot body temperature was transmitted from his body to her body, but it was no longer able to warm her heart that was completely cold.

"Don't you understand, as long as I stay by your side, I will never be happy again, and I will never be happy again."

After finishing speaking weakly in a low voice, she didn't notice when the person behind her stepped up to hug her a little bit.

"Manman, do you really miss any old love?"

She closed her eyes and said sarcastically, "Why have I ever had feelings for you?"

The person she likes is gentle and considerate. Although he can be a bit forceful at times, he is not incapable of communicating.

Sometimes it's a little bad, but he knows what scale is.

He knows what respect is, and he also knows what caring is.

He would stand with her without hesitation when she met bad guys, and he had promised her again and again that he would protect her.

But that person seems to have never existed.

The false ones are like dew hanging on the lotus leaves, which disappear when the wind blows.

Who is this him now?

She seemed to have never touched him, but she had already married him in a hurry.

"No relationship, is that what I understand?"

He held her hand, which was already trembling slightly.

She gritted her teeth and simply made the final call.

"Yes, I never liked you."

The person I liked was just an illusion you put on.

"If it weren't for you to bully others, I would never have any relationship with you."

If I hadn't been forced by you, I wouldn't have married you.

"Being with you is painful, every day is painful, every minute is not happy, every breath is torture."

The happier and sweeter the memory, the more ironic it appears to be reality.

Fu Jingxing, why did you change?

You have obviously changed, so why do you still drag me around.

"The continuation of our marriage will only prolong each other's pain. Fu Jingxing, don't be stubborn, let it go."

Let go, let me go, let go... yourself.

The man behind him was speechless for a long time, and after waiting for a moment, he let go of her holding hand.

"When I was twenty-six years old, I met a person whose brilliance surprised me in my barren life.

I tried many ways and finally got her.She's great, better than I imagined.

I want to make a lifetime oath with her, to hold hands with her, and grow old together.

I used to think that she would have the same idea as me. "

He let go of the hand holding her, and fell weakly on the sofa, looking up at her weak but determined back, with a bitter voice.

"But she didn't, she made a vow with me in church and told me in my arms that she was going to break it."

Li Jingman listened quietly, heat waves welled up in his eyes.

Fu Jingxing said in a low voice, "Let me think about it, let me think about it."

She held on to the stairs, but felt weak all over, so she put her strength on the handrail with difficulty and went back to the room.

He suddenly called her again from behind her: "Manman, is it really impossible for us to go back to the past?"

(End of this chapter)