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Chapter 36 I Really Regret Meeting You

For some reason, Li Jingman's face became inexplicably hot, and he hastily lowered his eyes, using his slender eyelashes to separate a barrier, not daring to meet his gaze.

Fu Jingxing took her reaction into his eyes, saw that she was shy, and he became more and more itchy, so he simply played the hooligan to the end.

"I can't believe you really don't have feelings for me."

He pressed against Li Jingman's ear, with a hidden fire of laughter in his eyes, and his voice was slightly hoarse to bewitch her: "Otherwise, why didn't you cry when I kissed you for the second time in the alley?"

……

Yeah, why didn't she cry?
In the room filled with the scent of roses, Li Jingman, who was lying on the bed frailly, frowned slightly, opened his eyes slightly with trembling eyelashes.

It should be the aroma of those roses, so much like the rich fragrance of that alley, that it actually made her dream of those past events that she had forgotten in the day-to-day tug-of-war with Fu Jingxing.

"Have a nightmare?"

On the bedside, a man's calm voice sounded faintly.

Li Jingman had an instant stress reaction, uncontrollably wrapped in the quilt and stepped back for a certain distance, fear appeared in his cold eyes, and his little face turned white with fright.

Of course Fu Jingxing knew why she was doing this, and he couldn't express the remorse in his heart at this moment.

The two have been married for more than a year, and in every respect, what should have been a break-in has long since been done. He should have had a sense of proportion, but just now he hurt her in a fit of rage.

There are tens of thousands of relationships between him and her, which can't be explained clearly, entangled with each other, cut constantly, and can't be separated, but this one should not exist.

She is afraid of him.

Fu Jingxing put his hand on the side of her face, but Li Jingman didn't hide, but his body was trembling slightly.

He raised her face distressedly, looked at her pale and fragile face, and apologized in a low voice from the bottom of his heart: "Honey, I didn't mean to hurt you."

Li Jingman's eyes briefly stayed on his delicate face that was the same as in her dream for two seconds, then lowered his eyes, and whispered mockingly: "I understand."

He really didn't mean to hurt her, it was her own fault, she didn't have an indestructible physique, and couldn't bear his excessive demands.

Of course Fu Jingxing saw that Li Jingman did not forgive his behavior, but just didn't want to talk to him, so he complied with him as much as possible.

This realization made him even more uncomfortable.

Even if she didn't tell him, he knew that he seemed to have her, but she was getting farther and farther away from him.

But he couldn't accept this fact.

"Honey, I've reconsidered. You can go to the signing event of the book that you co-authored with Charlotte. You can go if you want. I won't stop you."

He tried to do something to make Li Jingman happy.

But when he thought of the previous interactions between Li Jingman and Xia Luoshu, he couldn't help but put additional conditions.

"But you are not allowed to get too close to him, you are not allowed to have physical contact with him, and you are not allowed to look at him for more than three seconds..."

Li Jingman couldn't bear to listen to his unreasonable demands, and interrupted him with a frown.

"Why did you suddenly change your mind?"

When Fu Jingxing first learned that she had collaborated with Xia Luoshu on a book, it seemed like it was just yesterday.

At that time, his request to her was that she was not allowed to talk to Xia Luoshu anymore, not to meet Xia Luoshu again, and not even to leave her WeChat contact information.

He wanted to completely remove this person from her world.

Fu Jingxing tried his best to approach her little by little in a natural manner, and hugged her in his arms.

"Honey, I want to make you happy."

Li Jingman's expression was blank.

Fu Jingxing is not only beautiful, but also good at sweet talk.

As long as he thinks about it, he can say good words one after another, endlessly.

But behind those sweet words, there are steel knives that scrape bones.

As Fu Jingxing approached, Li Jingman couldn't help but think of the methods he used to deal with her in the past, and his body stiffened like a rock.

Fu Jingxing felt her change, and his beautiful eyes became gloomy.

He tried to distract her with words.

"Actually, I'm just jealous of him. I didn't meet you until I was 26 years old, but he was in the same school as you when you were thirteen years old. He accompanied you for six years when you were young..."

Li Jingman listened to his confession extremely indifferently, his eyes were dull.

Fu Jingxing was always paying attention to her expression, seeing her like this, her voice was a bit bitter.

"I forgot that you don't like me, so you don't understand my mood."

Li Jingman finally reacted, but struggled, wanting to stay away from him.

"I've said it many times, there's nothing between me and him."

Fu Jingxing hugged the person in his arms tightly, tightly restrained her limbs, and trapped her in his arms. His voice was very weak, and no emotion could be heard.

"Then why are you willing to take the initiative to talk to me only when I mention him?"

Li Jingman was extremely desperate, she felt like a drowning person, no matter how hard she struggled, she couldn't get to the shore.

"Fu Jingxing, you are the one who doesn't understand anything."

She gave up resisting, leaned quietly on his chest, closed her eyes and said powerlessly:
"I don't want to go to the signing party anymore. I will stay in your house as you wish and do nothing but wait for you to come home every day..."

Hearing her ridicule, Fu Jingxing narrowed his eyes slightly, but his tone was very gentle: "Don't say silly things, wife, you are a human being and not an animal. How could it be possible for me to control your personal freedom all the time?"

Li Jingman's mind flashed all kinds of shadowy images that she was unwilling to face, but she couldn't let go of.

The tone was light and cold: "Isn't this exactly what you have always wanted to do? Fu Jingxing, haven't you been telling me by yourself that people can be domesticated."

Fu Jingxing brushed away her hair that was messed up by struggling, and stared at her sad and indifferent side face with complicated eyes: "Then you have to go too. I just want you to see him. If you don't see him, how would I know that you are like this?" The first time I wondered if it had anything to do with him."

This is his real purpose?
Li Jingman felt cold all over his body, then became even more angry, and struggled with all his might.

"Fu Jingxing, you are sick, you should see a psychiatrist!"

Fu Jingxing suppressed her with all his strength, and forcibly controlled her in his arms. He deliberately only used three parts of his strength, making Li Jingman think that he could break free, but he still couldn't escape his control.

In the end, her physical strength was exhausted, and she leaned against his chest weakly, with despair in her eyes.

"Fu Jingxing, I really regret meeting you."

"It's useless to regret, after all, it wasn't you who met me from the beginning, but I who met you."

Fu Jingxing lifted the long hair on the side of her neck and kissed her snow-white neck lightly.

"So many things happened today, you are tired, and I am too. Go to sleep, wife, I will sleep with you in my arms."

Li Jingman closed his eyes weakly.

The day is finally over.

She had thought it would be difficult.

But it's actually okay.

What was more frightening than the pain was that she was used to the pain and didn't care about it.

She just woke up from a lethargic sleep, and was frightened again. Her emotions fluctuated too much, and she couldn't fall asleep quickly, so she could only count sheep with her eyes closed.

When the one thousand and thirty-three were counted, the man behind him, who was already breathing evenly, suddenly buried his face in the side of her neck and rubbed against her.

"Manman, I'm sorry."

"I'm just too afraid of losing you."

"We'll be fine in the future, shall we?"

"I love you."

Off-topic: One day I heard a song suddenly, and then there was this book.The title of the song is "Stockholm Lover"~ If you are interested, you can listen to it~
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