When will I be the queen

Chapter 441 Sincerity

Cai Cai looked at Mei Zhang and Si Chen. The two thought it was a good idea, and Cai Cai also thought it was a good idea, so she nodded in agreement.

Cao Xin was singled out for the spotlight, but he had no complaints. His team was a little dissatisfied, but when they thought about it, it was Cai Cai, they didn't complain at all. After being informed of the topic, they found that the focus was still on Cao Xin. Cao Xin and his team were quite surprised, and they even felt that Cai Cai was a really kind child.

Cao Xin was too lazy to imagine what effect Cai Cai's kindness would have in other places, but in his case, it would never be let down or ignored.

So the topic Cao Xin chose was the mentality and behavior of adolescence, and the direction was how to establish a deeper relationship with parents, as well as a greater understanding and understanding of oneself, parents, and the world. The three of them talked with Shui Qing and it went quite smoothly. After determining the general content of each topic, they started recording. Because they couldn't memorize words, the three of them organized their own language within the predetermined topic content framework.

Shuiqing and Yeqingqing are all the type who have something to say. Otherwise, in order to achieve the real effect of the recording, the topic content has to be polished for a long time. This situation is really too common. The artists in the circle are actually not illiterate, but once they open their mouths, there are a lot of problems. It's better not to mention it.

The recording started. After walking to the fixed position and the camera was raised, Cao Xin spoke first.

"When I was in my teens, I often traveled around the world with my parents. Really all over the world. I remember that what I hated most at that time was going to some old places with nothing to eat and nothing to play. I just liked those bustling and lively places. I would get very irritated even if the surroundings were a little quiet. Then my mother forced me to see a psychologist, saying that I was lonely and insecure. I felt that the doctor was just talking nonsense. In fact, I just wanted to have something to eat and have fun."

Cao Xin was lost in thought. "At that time, I really couldn't understand why my parents liked to stay in those old places. The doctor said I was lonely, so they took me with them. But I really wanted to stay in the capital. My resistance was futile, so I took the initiative to take a job, and then took the opportunity to leave my parents. But I was not as happy as I thought. Looking back now, it was just adolescent rebellion. I didn't know what I wanted. I just resisted everything my parents did, satisfied myself with appetite, and escaped from the emptiness and inferiority in my heart."

Si Chen continued, "Do you still feel inferior?"

Cao Xin nodded, "Yes." Really, "When I was in my teens, I had already started working. Although I had a teacher to teach me my homework, I often encountered words I didn't know. I didn't ask others, I just secretly looked it up on my phone, but the people around me were smart people, they just pretended not to know, and later marked my scripts with white words. Because I couldn't even understand the pinyin very well."

"At that time, I felt a bit split. Sometimes I felt like I was the chosen one, and sometimes I felt like a waste. My adolescence was very twisted. I didn't want to be an artist, but I didn't know what I could do. But I knew I really wanted to be an artist. I just enjoyed standing on the stage and in front of the camera. My parents also patiently talked to me and comforted me, but I always felt that they were the kind of adults who were high and mighty. They thought that all my troubles and twists were boring little things, and it was not worth my pain at all."

Cao Xin felt very painful when thinking back to that time. "There's a saying that people can't even empathize with their childhood selves. Looking back at myself five years ago, I think I was so funny. I don't know what I was thinking all day. But the pain I felt back then is still very clear to me. But I can't understand why I was so painful. I can't understand why I felt so inferior at that time. Really, when I looked in the mirror at that time, I thought to myself, ah, this is a beautiful vase filled with straw bags."

"." Cai Cai and Si Chen lowered their heads at the same time. They all felt inferior and thought they were just beautiful vases, but they weren't that inferior.

"." Cao Xin patted Si Chen, what's with that expression on your face! !

Si Chen hurriedly coaxed him, "When you are in adolescence, you are sensitive and thoughtful. You feel that everything around you is magnified by yourself. After you grow up, it is reduced again. That's why you think that big things when you were young, but when you look back when you grow up, they are just minor dust. In the final analysis, it is still your own psychology that is growing and changing."

As he was talking, Si Chen felt a little strange in his heart, "When I was a child, the world was too small. My parents, family, school teachers, classmates and friends, there were less than ten people in total, but they seemed to be my whole world. My mind was full of these people all day long. At that time, everything was a big deal. When I grew up, the world became bigger. There were job prospects, career choices, failures, lack of money, countless people, countless things. With so many people and things, I started to compare and measure. The sign of growing up is that I learned to measure."

"When you compare and weigh them, not to mention the things that happened when you were a child, many things that happened when you grow up become trivial."

Cai Cai glanced at Si Chen and felt that he was serious. She was a little surprised. How could you be so serious about such a commonplace topic? Even Cao Xin was not serious.

Shui Qing immediately moved the camera away to avoid filming Cai Cai, otherwise, the audience would know what the situation was just by reading her face, and most of them would have the same expression as Cai Cai.

Cao Xin took a deep breath when he saw Cai Cai, but he continued Si Chen's words, "Indeed, when you have to weigh things up, you have to make choices. When I was a teenager, I followed my parents everywhere. At that time, I felt that my parents were conservative, vulgar, and didn't know anything."

"." Si Chen and Cai Cai looked at Cao Xin again. Wasn't it too strong to use the word vulgar?

Cao Xin spread his hands. “I couldn’t help it once, so I told my parents directly that what they did was really vulgar. I don’t remember why, I just had this thought in my mind, and then when something happened, I just said it directly. My parents didn’t get angry, but laughed instead. It was as if I was a three or four-year-old child saying something very funny. They tolerated me and laughed at me. I did feel humiliated, because I am not a three or four-year-old child.”

In fact, Cao Xin remembered why it was, but it was just hard to explain.

"Anyway, in the end, I was the only one who was angry. During my adolescence, it seemed that most of the time, I was angry with my parents, but they were rarely angry with me. So if I did something that could make them angry, I would actually feel really good and have a sense of accomplishment. But I'm not an idiot. It would be a jerk to deliberately make my parents angry, and I don't want to be that kind of child. Then I would accidentally make my parents angry, and then secretly feel happy about it, which was also a kind of teenage rebellion for me."

Cao Xin finds it quite funny when she thinks about it. "I think I was generally a very well behaved person, but my parents are full of complaints whenever they talk about my adolescence. But I know very well that I was also putting the brakes on myself at that time. No matter how confused or twisted I was, I didn't do anything that exceeded the bottom line I set for myself. People say that I have been immersed in the circle since I was a child and I matured precociously. I agree with this statement. My rebellious period seemed to be only two years, but I never really rebelled."

Looking at Si Chen, "You are also a boy, what about your rebellious period?"

Si Chen thought for a moment, "My rebellious period came early. When I was in my teens, I had the consciousness to rebel and even confront my parents. My father didn't want me to be an artist, and my mother supported me as an artist, but my mother's positioning of me as an artist was completely different from the positioning of the artist I wanted to be. So in our family, it was the three of us who were fighting against each other."

Such true and heartfelt words.

Cai Cai started to worry that her face would be read, so she lowered her head to drink water and silently covered her face. But Shui Qing didn't even dare to let the camera take a picture of her.

Cao Xin nodded. "Sometimes, parents' expectations for their children are completely different from the future their children want. It's hard to say who is right or wrong. Parents don't want their children to suffer, and they don't want their children to go through the same pitfalls they went through. But things that are done for your own good are generally seen by children as shackles and manipulation. Don't children want their parents to see their success?"

Si Chen smiled, "My father is a very old-fashioned man. He has some of the noble qualities of a feudal scholar. He believes that among all the good things, only reading is the best. He hopes that I can become a knowledgeable person who contributes to society and has a meaningful life. His plan for me is to be a literary writer, or at least a teacher. He runs a business himself, but he always feels that he has no ability and can only do business, so he hopes that I can achieve something in knowledge and culture. He has made plans for the family business so that I can concentrate on studying."

Cao Xin really didn't know this. He glanced at Cai Cai and found that Cai Cai was drinking water again.

In fact, the so-called business plan of Dai Sichen's father, Dai Zhaohui, was to divide the business into three parts, one for Dai Sijun, which was basically the main body of the company, and the other two were fund stocks, which were given to Dai Sichen and Cai Cai. As a result, Dai Sichen became an artist, and Feng Ran also knew about the will. She had no share in the business, and could only get some real estate, jewelry and cash, which made her very angry. She couldn't argue with Dai Zhaohui, because she would indeed be set up by others after getting the company, which would endanger the company, and it was also a fact that she was easily deceived into making many unprofitable investments.

Feng Ran knew that Dai Zhaohui would not let him get involved in the company, so he deliberately supported Dai Sichen to become an artist and sang against Dai Zhaohui, which caused a rift between the father and son. Later, Cai Cai also became an artist, and Dai Zhaohui's mentality changed. Although he did not support Dai Sichen, he no longer opposed him.

The conflict among the three members of the family turned into an independent conflict with Feng Ran, which was also the main reason that led to the end of Dai Zhaohui and Feng Ran's marriage.

Cai Cai knows these things, and her family members also talk about them. A marriage full of troubles can last a long time. This reality makes people in marriages, both men and women, tired. So when the troubles are over, peace comes, and the tiredness fades away, it's over.

Dai Sichen once expressed his feelings to Cai Cai that he originally thought that after Dai Zhaohui's change of mind, the family would get better, but unexpectedly, it accelerated and ushered in an even worse ending than expected. Cai Cai had no aversion to Feng Ran, because she was really an indomitable, very combative and energetic woman, but when a woman has the identities of wife and mother, the judgment of good and bad becomes complicated. However, from Chenchen's point of view, and with the comparison of her two other mothers, Cai Cai felt that Feng Ran was not suitable to be a mother.

Women who are not suitable to be mothers are considered failures and bad women in the general social view. But she is just not suitable to be a mother.

Oh, not suitable for investment yet.

Cai Cai knew that most of the money transferred by Chenchen was used by Fengran for investment, and then all of them failed. Chenchen didn't care, because every time Fengran lost money, he would be extra gentle to him.

Family members complained that Feng Ran should be reborn as a man because everything she did was normal for an ordinary man.

When Cai Cai heard this, she thought that ordinary men outside were living well. What was considered bad for women was normal for men. If the men in her family failed in their investments, they would be scolded by her mother for a long time.

"Later, Cai Cai became an artist. My father saw Cai Cai's passion and began to try to understand me. Although now, he still can't understand why fans are so excited to see me, he no longer objects to me becoming an artist." Si Chen finally said.

Cao Xin believed this to be true, "You are just borrowing Cai Cai's light."

Si Chen looked at Cai Cai, "That's not true. Cai Cai is loved wholeheartedly by everyone. She doesn't have any teenage rebelliousness."

Cao Xin continued, "But I heard that Cai Cai's family doesn't approve of her being an artist, right?"

Si Chen smiled and motioned for Cai Cai to speak for herself.

"I really don't agree. But my family never rejects me." Cai Cai said, "My mother is a very strong queen type. Her daily routine is to give orders to everyone around her."

Si Chen nodded vigorously, yes, that’s absolutely right.

Cao Xin thought of the head of the Tang Clan, Ms. Cai Jinhui. Judging from the news and various gossips, she was indeed a strong person with ruthless means.

"Then, what do you mean I won't refuse you? You'll agree to whatever you say?" That's impossible.

Cai Cai smiled and said, "My mom, how should I put it? She demands a lot from me, but she also doesn't ask for much. Except for major issues or dangerous things, she is very easy to compromise with me."

"For example, sometimes she would find a good book and give it to me, asking me to finish it within three days. After three days, when she asked me what I thought of it, I would say, 'Oh, I don't want to read that book', and I would not read it."

"." Cao Xin frowned, "And then? You are allowed to watch for another three days?"

Cai Cai laughed, "No way. I said I didn't want to read that book anymore, so how could my mom let me read it? My mom just said, okay then."

"That's it? That's it?" Cao Xin couldn't believe it and looked at Si Chen. Really? Si Chen nodded. Really. It sounded ridiculous, but it was true.

After this segment was broadcast, the audience just laughed, lamenting that Cai Cai's mother spoiled her child too much, and did not really care about Cai Cai's words that my mother is very strong. Later, when Cai Cai's mother, Ms. Cai Jinhui, was exposed, the audience looked back at this segment and was really amazed. It also understood why Cao Xin was unbelievable at this time.

Cai Cai nodded, "What else can I do? My mother won't force me to read that book. That's why I said my mother has a lot of demands, but she is very easy to compromise. If I say no, my mother will accept it directly, without trying to persuade me or forcing me to make concessions."

"So, what does it mean to not refuse? It means that your mother doesn't approve of you becoming an artist, but you still become one, that kind of thing?"

Cai Cai shook her head. "If they disagree, they disagree. My mom will explain clearly why she disagrees. If I insist, they will support me. They still disagree, but that doesn't conflict with supporting me. Not rejecting me is another matter."

It’s hard to give a specific example. Cai Cai thought for a while and said, “They won’t reject me. That is, no matter what I do, no matter how willful or unreasonable I am, my mom and her friends are like the ultimate villains in the script, mindlessly tolerating me as if what I did was very good and very right.”

Cao Xin pondered, "No, generally speaking, in this situation, you shouldn't realize that you're being unreasonable, right?"

Cai Cai shook her head, "I know, I've always known it. My temper has never changed, I was born like this. So after I understood how much my mom and the others indulged me, I didn't dare to be willful anymore."

Si Chen smiled, it’s true.

Cao Xin looked at Si Chen, "What do you know?" Feeling that Cai Cai didn't want to elaborate, he asked Si Chen to add to the story so that Cai Cai wouldn't be read. Si Chen would definitely be able to smooth over this topic.

Si Chen looked at Cai Cai, "What can I say? It's about the time when you were considered a picky eater when you were a kid."

Cai Cai smiled and nodded, "Okay, okay, I haven't thought of it." She really couldn't think of an appropriate example, because she felt that most of the examples of her family's education of her were not suitable to talk about, and they didn't seem to fit this leisurely and healing program.

Cao Xin was curious, "Isn't Cai Cai not picky about food?" She just said that.

Si Chen nodded, "She is indeed not picky about food, but her family thinks she is. Her family has always taken good care of her, really to the point of meticulous care. I used to think this word was an exaggeration, but I really saw it with Cai Cai and her family. At that time, if Cai Cai didn't eat a certain dish during a meal, then this dish would be blacklisted and would never appear on her family's table again. Cai Cai didn't notice it at first, until she found that there were more and more repeated ingredients on the table, and more and more ingredients that she couldn't eat, then she realized it."

Having said that, Si Chen motioned for Cai Cai to take over.

"Yes, I had this conjecture, so I experimented with it. As a result, the chicken dishes disappeared at the next meal."