only soft on you

Chen Yan's eyes moved deeply around her body, then he lowered his head and responded.

When his voice fell, he no longer delayed, turned around and left.

Zhou Tang didn't say anything anymore. Her eyes were locked on Chen Yan's back quietly, watching him stiffen his back and move towards the door bit by bit. His speed was very slow, so slow that he seemed to be thinking about something, and also seemed to be expecting or waiting for something.

Zhou Tang knew the struggle in his heart and what he was looking forward to. At this moment, her heart seemed to be filled with thousands of words, noisy and lingering, but in the end, she could not say a word.

After experiencing several emotional injuries, she is no longer the innocent and enthusiastic Zhou Tang she used to be in high school. She is no longer pure.

She now has a heartfelt rejection and avoidance attitude toward feelings. Therefore, she doesn't know whether she feels for Chen Yan at this moment, whether she loves her or not, and whether she wants to be with him. , she did not dare to respond blindly to Chen Yan before she was sure of her own feelings.

Because Chen Yan's feelings are hot and fierce, and if she is only with him out of guilt or kindness, she will only make him hurt more deeply.

Zhou Tang opened her mouth, hesitated to speak, and finally suppressed all her wild emotions. She thought that maybe she and Chen Yan should really calm down and think about it carefully, maybe...

Zhou Tang didn't dare to think further, because if he thought further, some things might really start to deviate from the right track and gradually get out of control.

Chen Yan moved forward step by step, finally walked out of Zhou Tang's house, and reached out to close Zhou Tang's door.

Suddenly, the atmosphere in the corridor suddenly became oppressive and tight, and a cold feeling spread throughout his body.

So many years of pursuit and paranoia finally came to an end at this moment. The reluctance and desolation in his heart were shouting wildly, causing him to clench his hands into fists uncontrollably, stooping slightly, and his whole body I couldn't help but tense up and tremble.

It's finally over.

nothing left.

He finally decided to give up on the person he had been chasing for so many years in a seemingly peaceful way, but no one knew his inner surge and struggle, no one knew his bone-crushing sadness and pain...

Chen Yan stood frozen on the spot, suddenly feeling cold, and the injury on his arm began to hurt again due to the tight muscles, but he had no intention of paying attention.

He eagerly took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket and lit it, letting the smell of nicotine relieve his inner depression and sadness. After lighting up the cigarette, he opened the door to his room opposite and took a bottle from the wine cabinet. Baijiu, sitting on the sofa and drinking quietly.

The wine kept sliding down my throat, and my stomach felt a little queasy every time.

Chen Yan frowned deeply, and a sense of powerlessness and self-deprecation almost overwhelmed all his sanity. So, what's the use of getting ahead, what's the use of drinking, what's the use of struggling alone in this world! I can't keep my mother, I can't keep my lover. In the end, in this tragic world, I am still the only one struggling in the long dark night, screaming in the mud, mourning in loneliness and despair.

After finishing a bottle of wine, Chen Yan leaned on the sofa and let the pain in his stomach sweep through his body.

For a moment, a harsh cell phone ringtone broke the silence around him.

Chen Yan was silent and waited for a while before picking up the phone and connecting. (End of chapter)