Shen Yi's Darkness and Depression

Chapter 462

Ze Fenglin came to Tianshen Nunnery only to pray for his grandmother, but unexpectedly bumped into Yun Wan, he suddenly felt haggard and said goodbye to her hastily.

Ze Fenglin left Tianshen's Temple and rushed to Tianfu City. He wanted Concubine Xuan Gui to go back to the mansion to see his grandmother more. It would be best if he could stay for two days. Maybe his grandmother's illness would be cured.

In the past few days, Mrs. Ze Feng was sometimes confused and sometimes sober. Ze Fenglin and his father took turns to stay by his grandmother's side, but his grandmother didn't know anyone.

Even when Mrs. Ze Feng was awake, seeing Ze Fenglin and Ze Fengduo was like a stranger, only calling for Chai'er.

Since Ze Fengduo was invited away by the Zongcha Mansion last night, Ze Fenglin has not rested for twenty hours, and has been guarding Mrs. Ze Feng's side.

Ze Fenglin patiently served his grandmother's daily life, eating and drinking. When he was tired, he held his grandmother's hand and squinted for a while. Although he dozed off occasionally, his eyes were still red and swollen, and he was physically and mentally exhausted.

Today, Master Ze Feng came back from the Zongcha Mansion, seeing his son's fatigue, he was very distressed, regardless of the hardships of staying up for two nights due to business, he immediately replaced Ze Fenglin to have a good rest.

Unexpectedly, on the way back home to rest, Ze Fenglin wanted to go to Tianshen Nunnery to pray for his grandmother on a whim.

For him who doesn't believe in gods, he shouldn't believe that praying can save lives, but it's all a self-comforting deception.

Heart disease needs to be healed by heart medicine, since the grandmother kept calling his aunt by her nickname, Ze Fenglin had to take his aunt back to the mansion to meet the old lady no matter what.

From Xuanping Gate to Yongyan Hall, no one dared to stop Ze Fenglin along the way, everyone knew that he was Concubine Xuan's beloved nephew.

If you want to dawdle in the palace, you have to start by getting to know people. Who can come and go freely in Tianfu City, who is not the royal family?
"Mother Qin, where is Concubine Xuan?" Ze Fenglin rushed into the hall in a hurry, only to see Mother Qin and Qin Zhi were exchanging their hearts.

"Return to Lord General, Concubine Xuan has gone to Dugu Mansion." Nanny Qin replied truthfully, she didn't know why Ze Fenglin was so anxious.

"Why did my aunt go to Dugu Mansion?" Ze Fenglin was full of doubts, and he instantly thought that Dugu Xiaomeng had caused trouble, and Concubine Xuan took her to her natal home to ask for accountability.

"I don't know..." Sister Qin would not casually reveal the master's itinerary.

"I know, the imperial concubine is going to catch the crown princess, hehe~" Qin Zhi was very complacent, she didn't understand that Mother Qin was deliberately denying it.

"Be careful with your words and deeds in the future, what can't be caught? Don't let the imperial concubine hear it, just the princess knows you use words like this, and it's not good for you." Mother Qin twisted Qin Zhi's ear and taught She was even angrier when she thought that her most beloved niece had been turned into an opponent of the palace people.

This can't be blamed on Nanny Qin, if it's to blame, it can only be blamed on Qin Zhi for not being firm enough, thinking that she can be favored by Xiao Luzi for the rest of her life, and that as long as she stays by the imperial concubine's side, she can think of all the glory and wealth.

"Mommy, can my aunt tell me when she will come back?" Ze Fenglin didn't care about the Crown Princess, he just wanted to see Concubine Xuan as soon as possible and persuade her to go back to her mother's house to have a look.

"This... the old slave doesn't know. The imperial concubine went to visit the eldest princess two days ago, but she stayed in the Murong mansion until night before returning."

Mother Qin spoke so eloquently with emotion and reason that Qin Zhi beside her couldn't help nodding her head in agreement, "General Lin, you are also the master, so you naturally know that we servants are the most taboo to ask questions. Xidibao inquired, if the master wants us to know, he will say it directly, if he doesn't want us to know, he will definitely not say a word."

"My aunt visited Murong Mansion for a whole day?" Ze Fenglin asked, regardless of Nanny Qin's words.

"Well, it's hard for our master to meet the eldest princess. It's hard for the mother and daughter to reminisce about the old days and forget the time. Besides, since the accident happened to Concubine Jing, the emperor never came to Yongyan Palace again. The imperial concubine can have a chance to go out of the palace to relax and distract her attention. Strength is also a good thing." Nanny Qin was very jealous of Xiao Luzi.

Concubine Xuan used to take Mother Qin with her when she left the palace and left Xiao Luzi to guard the Yongyan Palace, but now that the feng shui has changed, she has become the one guarding the palace.

Being ignored a lot, naturally there is a lot of resentment in her heart. For this matter, Mother Qin can't tell others except complaining with Qin Zhi.

But being a niece is not easy, Qin Zhinian always cares about herself and her aunt because of Xiao Luzi's role in taking care of her and her aunt, she always doesn't pay attention to what she says, which often makes Nanny Qin even more angry.

When she was bumped into by Ze Fenglin just now, it was Qin Zhi who was reminding Qin Zhi to be careful about little Lu Zi, don't obey him in everything, she just thinks it is not easy, especially the skill of flattery is superior.

Mother Qin always felt that someone was causing trouble in the middle, so that Concubine Xuan didn't trust her as much as before, and she didn't know who else she had to be wary of besides Xiao Luzi.

Life in the palace is like this, being close to the master means being close to power, natural people are famous and famous, but being far away from the master and being ranked outside the fringe is good enough to be out of sight and out of mind.

Which one of the people who entered Tianfu City didn't want to cling to the master?Who doesn't yearn for fame and fortune?Which one will live in peace and die alone?
If a person who only wants to live a stable life with no desires, no thoughts, no greed, or desires, how can he come to this center where fame and fortune are intertwined?

Returning to the countryside and hiding in the mountains, isn't it a yearning and unattainable pursuit?
Sometimes Ze Fenglin really hated his own background, and wasted his mind and mind, what did he want to do?what you want to say?You have to think twice before acting, "Okay, you two go get busy, don't worry about me, I'll wait here for my aunt to come back."

"Please, general~" Mother Qin hurriedly left the main hall with Qin Zhi, who was hesitating to speak, leaving only Ze Fenglin alone facing the empty Yongyan Hall in a daze, as if he could hear every breath and every breath. The echo is mediocre.

Sometimes Ze Fenglin sympathizes with his aunt, but sometimes he complains about her, complaining that although she manages Ze Feng's mansion in every detail, he refuses to go back to visit often, so that his grandmother is looking forward to it, and every time she looks forward to it, it will be a day or two. years of waiting.

Concubine Xuan Gui has never been harsh on Mrs. Zefeng's food and clothing expenses. Every time the emperor bestows items on Yongyan Palace, she picks out the best ones for Zefeng Mansion to keep.

Ze Fenglin understood his grandmother's longing for his aunt best, but he least understood why his aunt just didn't want to go back to the house for a second look.

He had inquired about this matter with his servants, and he only heard that his aunt had a big fight with his father when she got married, and she also said cruel words that she would not return home after she got married.

But now even his aunt's daughter is about to become a mother. How can his aunt, who has been a mother for more than 20 years, not know how difficult it is for his grandmother to be a mother?
Things are different, who else will remember the grievances and hatreds more than 20 years ago?Who else would tie the knot of the rest of his life just for a moment of anger?
Ze Fenglin still couldn't understand the minds of his father and aunt, brother and sister, one who loved his mother could ignore official affairs and children, and the other who loved his children could ignore the chores of the harem and his mother.

Perhaps such contradictions and contrasts come from the preference and injustice of the previous generation. He heard from his grandmother that when his grandfather was alive, he gave all the love and affection in his heart to his daughter, and he tried his best to demand it from his son. Teaching, thus creating diametrically opposite personalities of the two brothers and sisters.

Injustice in the world is caused by partiality, partiality is also partial, and partial belief is also extreme.

(End of this chapter)