Admit it, you're heartbroken

Chapter 22 Feel it?positive energy

Zhou Yixu held the girl's little hand and hurried all the way to the rooftop before letting her go.

"Why don't you listen to the doctor when you are sick! Why give up!"

"Doesn't she consider the feelings of her children!"

His voice was unusually cold, and his eyes were full of gloomy paranoia.

After speaking, he sat on the ground against the wall, panting heavily, as if he wanted to spit out all the anger suppressed in his chest.

Looking at his expression, Zheng Ziyue recalled the anger and hatred in his eyes when he had a high fever half a month ago and Zhou Yixu threatened him to drink ginger soup.

He seems to have an unspeakable paranoia towards patients. Why does he have such emotions?
Zheng Ziyue knew in her heart that doctors hated the word 'hard work' more than anyone else.

My mother used to often fail to treat some people due to various reasons, and felt guilty and sad; after witnessing some life and death in the hospital, she felt so heavy that she couldn't eat.

But it definitely shouldn't be what Zhou Yixu is like now.

Just as Zheng Ziyue was searching for all kinds of words to comfort him in his mind, he heard Zhou Yixu ask lightly.

"Don't you hate it?"

"Hate?" Zheng Ziyue was stunned, as if he didn't win the question?

"The first time I saw you, I knew you were Dr. Zhou Jiahui's daughter."

Zhou Yixu's voice was calm, but it set off a huge wave in Zheng Ziyue's heart.

She never mentioned about her mother in the hospital, and almost no one knew about her mother's former colleagues. How did he know?
To be able to cooperate with the publicity department, there must be a relationship with my mother. She doesn't want everyone to know and complicate this cooperation.

Zhou Yixu didn't want to say more, but when he saw the girl biting his lower lip, his heart softened, and he opened the painting box directly.

"I have half a newspaper that has been kept for five years. The news about Dr. Zhou Jiahui is right next to my mother's news."

"Count it up, I knew you five years ago."

And after watching it like this for five years, Zhou Yixu silently added in his heart.

The scar in her heart was lifted, and Zheng Ziyue lowered her head slowly.

Five years ago, it was the year when my mother was injured due to medical troubles and the rescue failed.

At that time, my mother was fighting a difficult operation, but because the patient did not follow the doctor's order, something went wrong, which led to the failure of the operation.

The patient's family couldn't accept the result, so they went to the hospital to make a fuss, completely ignoring the explanation, and blamed all the faults on the mother.

But everyone in the hospital knew very well that this incident was not the mother's fault!

When the disturbance got out of control, the patient's family picked up a fruit knife and stabbed at the medical staff. The mother, who was already blaming herself, couldn't dodge, and the knife directly pierced the internal organs.

I watched helplessly as my mother, who had always been treating others, was pushed into the operating room while lying on the emergency bed.

However, the rescue failed.

So she chose to forget many things that year. Just thinking about these memories makes her whole body ache.

Zheng Ziyue bit her lower lip tightly, and couldn't help raising her hands to hug her arms and rubbing them up and down, tears rolling in her eyes.

Seeing this, Zhou Yixu rubbed his forehead and stretched out his hand subconsciously.

It wasn't until he touched the cold little hand of the other party that he became sober in his heart, suppressed the impulse, and just pulled her to sit next to him.

"So, don't you hate? Those who didn't follow the doctor's orders, the tragedy could have been avoided."

"If it wasn't for being disobedient and not receiving proper treatment, the news about my mother wouldn't have been in the newspaper for so many years. Heh, she can live..."

Zhou Yixu spoke very slowly and softly, as if he was afraid of scaring the girl beside him.

But such memories are also painful for him.

The breeze gently blew away the time, and Zheng Ziyue, who finally managed to control his emotions after an unknown period of time, sucked his nose, and his brain gradually resumed thinking.

It seems that on the same day as the medical disturbance, a famous professor of chemistry in the People's Hospital passed away.

But the chemistry professor wasn't due to any medical malpractice.

It was because I was too selfless to devote myself to the research. Even though I often felt uncomfortable, I never followed the doctor's orders to spend time with the treatment.

When she was forcibly sent to the hospital by her family, her condition was already very serious, but she was not completely hopeless.

But she still dedicated the last time of her life to the research cause, and finally died in the People's Hospital.

The professor was still young when he died.

That year, whether it was the death of the doctor in the medical commotion or the death of the chemistry professor, there was an uproar in Shangyang City, and even the attention of the whole society.

The major news continued to report. At that time, Zheng Ziyue only cared about her sad mother, so she couldn't care about anything else.

Hearing what he said now, that professor of chemistry must be Zhou Yixu's mother, right?

Suddenly, everything seemed to have an answer, no wonder he felt that way when he had a fever.

Does he hate his mother?
He was able to bury this hatred in his heart for five full years without getting sick?

Maybe I have been sick, otherwise how can I refuse to communicate with normal people?
Zheng Ziyue raised her head and looked at the face that was still slightly angry, feeling distressed.

She knew very well what it was like to lose a loved one, but she still had her father and Tang Xiaoxiang by her side, and spent that terrible time.

How did he come here alone without talking?
The two just sat quietly next to each other, as if they were charging, each repairing their emotions.

I don't know how long it took before Zheng Ziyue opened her red lips and answered Zhou Yixu's original question.

"Hate, how can you not hate? During that time, I cursed those people every day, and they will eat all the evil consequences in this life and the next life."

"It's been a long time since I hated it. I found out that it's useless. If you don't come back, you won't come back. There are many more important things than hate."

"Didn't you also become a doctor? If you really hate them so much, why do you want to cure them?"

Zhou Yixu was slightly taken aback, thinking about what the girl said, unable to refute.

But it was this anger and hatred that had supported him for the past five years.

Observing the contradictory and complicated expression on Zhou Yixu's face, Zheng Ziyue's heart suddenly moved, he opened his arms, and rushed towards him.

Putting her hands around Zhou Yixu's waist, a smell of disinfectant mixed with washing powder rushed into her nostrils. For the first time, she felt that the smell of disinfectant was not so unpleasant.

When I drew him before, I thought he had a good figure, but now I hug him, he is really good.

I can feel through the clothes that his skin is tight and elastic, as if he has been trained, full of security.

The arms contracted, as if using all the strength in his body to hug him, and then he got out before he recovered.

"Have you felt it?"

"It's positive energy!"

Zheng Ziyue tilted her head, her bright eyes flickered, and the slightly raised corners of her mouth seemed to be able to dispel all the haze, wrapping her around with a sense of warmth.

Feeling the residual temperature in his arms, Zhou Yixu froze.

In the past five years, no one has ever been so close to him.

His heart, which he thought had been sealed for a long time, seemed to be scalded by something, and the scorching temperature spread from the bottom of his heart to every corner of his body.

Zheng Ziyue, who was carefully observing the other party's reaction, suddenly found that his ears seemed to be red.

Hi, are you still shy?

The doctor said that there is no gender in the eyes?
Beauty is shy, which is rare.

The smile on Zheng Ziyue's face became brighter.

Seeing the smirk on the girl's face, Zhou Yixu came back to his senses, turned his head and coughed dryly, not to be outdone.

"I haven't forgotten what you said."

It's not too late to chase me now.

Zheng Ziyue understood immediately, it was her turn to be embarrassed, didn't she forget?How do you still remember?
　The beginning of the heartbeat is also the beginning of redemption, one more is coming

　　
　
(End of this chapter)