My name is Lu Mingfei, not Lu Mingfei!.

Chapter 186. The Death of the Black Swan (185)
The iron door is rusty and mottled, and there is a heavy heavy lock hanging on it, which makes people feel that there is indeed something like a monster locked inside.

Renata gently stroked the big lock, she was not ready to open the door to see what happened, she couldn't open it anyway.In her imagination, there are probably monsters raised by the nurses, because when they beat the children who made mistakes, they often growl loudly and say that the things in room zero should come out and eat you. This way they won't be troubled any more.It seems that even in the eyes of the nurses, what is locked in room zero is a monster.

Monster... Renata stared down at her toes as she thought of the word.

She didn't tell anyone that she, too, was a monster and could see things that others couldn't.

There is a big sister in Black Swan Harbor that only Renata can see. The first time I saw her was in the cafeteria. Only children were sitting and eating, so a big sister sitting there is very eye-catching.She has a good figure and likes to wear a light blue sweater with a sun-shaped pendant around her neck. In Renata's opinion, there is no one more beautiful than this sister in Black Swan Harbor. She is the biggest His characteristic is that he is proud, even the kind of thick sweater can stand up high, and when he looks at Renata, he always shows a kind smile.

Because she kept looking at her and smiling, Renata felt that she should be a very kind person, and sitting next to her with her own plate, asked her why she was looking at her.She said it was because she thought you were cute.

Renata thought this must be a lie, she still had a lot of freckles on her face, and she didn't even like herself when she looked in the mirror.The cutest girl here is Khorkina, because she is the oldest and has grown up very well. She is tall, thin and curvy. Every boy and girl likes to watch her dance ballet in a skirt.

Khorkina was sitting on the other side of the long table eating. From the perspective of this big sister, she was not invisible, but she really never looked at Khorkina more. Whenever Renata came, she would wave Waved and said Hi Renata with a small smile.

Of course, I only found out about this later, at least when we first met Renata, she was still wary of this big sister, and felt that she was lying, so she had no plans to continue chatting with her.

Renata knew that only she could see this big sister. One day, Khorkina asked her curiously when she left with the plate, why do you always talk to the air, Renata? With an imaginary friend?It was only then that Renata realized that the existence of the big sister was invisible to other people. There were nurses following and supervising the meal, but they never asked Renata about talking to the air. Here The children were given so many drugs that it was not uncommon for them to become confused and hallucinate.

Just when she thought so, the padlock snapped open and fell straight down!If such a heavy padlock falls to the ground, it will definitely alarm the nurses in the duty room, and then Renata will be finished!She rushed to catch the padlock.

So Renata often wandered out in the middle of the night. Apart from inspecting Black Swan Harbor, which seemed to belong to her territory, she was more concerned with looking for Asashio and seeing where she would hide when she was not around.

She reached out and groped at the base of the wall, and found the light switch. After turning it on, she finally saw clearly that it was a person, a girl about her age.

Renata felt that she might be suffering from such a disease. The big sister who always sat in the cafeteria was her imaginary personality, so she was the only one who could speak.

Later, Renata gradually realized that something was wrong, because this big sister could say a lot of things that Renata didn't know, for example, she claimed to be another race, a group that was much, much stronger than humans.For another example, she said that the place where Renata lives is called Siberia, which is part of the Soviet Union. If you go east, you can cross the Bering Strait and you will see North America. If you go south, you can see Mongolia and China.

But she doesn't care. After living in this kind of place for a long time, everything will lose its color. Even if it is a person who does not exist, Renata can talk to her a lot, secretly chatting about things that only each other knows , which made her very satisfied.

It seemed that she noticed that Renata was a little cold towards her recently. One day, the eldest sister told Renata her name.

"I'm sorry, Renata, I thought you wouldn't be afraid." She called out Renata's name accurately, but she never left the room.

Renata suddenly heard the faint sound of breathing, accompanied by the rattling of the chains, and a mass of things wriggling faintly in the dark corner where the light could not reach.

This made Renata start to wonder what is this big sister, a ghost who only lives in the cafeteria?Or some demon trying to sway the human soul?

Renata thought Asashio meant that she was also a monster, so everyone knew each other.

The girl seemed to be asleep and didn't realize that someone was coming. Renata carefully bent over and reached out to gently lift her forehead hair.

Could it be behind this iron gate?

Asashio told Renata not to be afraid of what she would do to her, she just wanted to chat with Renata for a while, because everyone is the same lonely and lonely person.

"You...you know me?" Renata was taken aback. She hadn't recovered from the shock, but the girl called her name to give a sense of intimacy, maybe in a place she didn't know When we know each other, such as the cafeteria, or the library of Wangfeng, we have met each other. Among the 38 children, there are still some Renata has never been very familiar with.

Multiple personality is based on the patient's knowledge and daily impressions, and it is impossible to fabricate a character without relevant knowledge out of thin air, which is what the books say.Suppose a male patient with multiple personality lives on an isolated island since he was a child. He is a refugee. His mother died when she gave birth to him. He has never seen a woman, and his father has never mentioned a woman. Then the personality he imagined must be There will be no opposite sex, because he doesn't know it.

In contrast, Renata's hair is very shriveled... The braids can still be fried, it is rough and dull, Renata is very envious.

Renata boldly pushed open the door of Room Zero. The room was dark and empty, and a slight rotten smell came over her face.The white curtains slowly rise and fall, stained with some kind of black stain, the light from the searchlight penetrates through the gaps in the wooden slats, and you can vaguely see rows of iron racks on the left hand full of glass medicine bottles, and a cast iron sheet on the right. operating bed, covered with yellow rust spots.

She didn't smile when she said this, and her eyes seemed to have lost their luster, making Renata think of those sled dog puppies born in Black Swan Harbor, they are clearly such mature big sisters, but they still show their little sled dogs. Yes, the expression that makes people feel caught in the heart.

But cuteness cannot be eaten in Black Swan Harbor. The relationship between Renata and Khorkina is not very good, because Renata knows some secrets about Khorkina, and those elderly nurses are no longer She was young, and she took care of some children. Most of the girls were pretty good looking.

From a book in the library, Renata learned that there is a disease of multiple personalities in this world. People with this disease can imagine one, two, or even more personalities, and they can have different personalities. The same identity, age, and gender will only talk in the patient's sight and mind, and have emotional and logical daily life and quarrels.

The strange thing is that when the padlock fell into the palm of her hand, she realized that the padlock was still locked. Was it just an illusion that she saw it pop open just now?

In an instant, Renata suddenly felt a little sad. The simple word "future" should not appear in her dictionary. Whether it is her or the other children in Black Swan Harbor, everyone has no future to speak of. Brought here as children and never seeing their parents again, some were simply born here.Black Swan Harbor is all we have, Siberia, distant Moscow, those are just a word in the book, they seem to be close at hand, but they will never be touched.

Will he die one day?Black Swan Harbor will not specially build a grave for anyone, just carry it out and throw it into the snow. It will not take long for the wind and snow to bury everything. It is easy to deal with. This may be Renata's last good ending.

She said that her name is Zhao Chao, which means that the rising and falling of the sea water rushing up to the coast during the day is a natural phenomenon. It is called tide during the day and tidal at night.

Without the restraint of the padlock, the old rusty door slowly opened a gap, as if inviting someone in.

It was an Asian face. Although it looked a little dirty with a lot of blood, it was still delicate and almost weak, as if it would fall if touched.Renata thinks that she is really prettier than any little girl in Black Swan Harbor, and Khorkina is no match. She is not yet at that age, but she is already able to surpass Khorkina, and she will definitely be very beautiful in the future. The beautiful beauties are like those fairy-tale princesses in the book.

The girl was stunned for a second, apparently not expecting such a low-level mistake, she smiled a little embarrassedly.

This is an operating room. Renata has been to similar facilities before, but the operating rooms used by those children are very clean and tidy, to avoid bacterial infection to the greatest extent.But here is full of dirty, messy and old, who dare to operate in this kind of place, the chief surgeon probably don't have to think about ending, just let the patient die on the operating table, otherwise those injuries and infections will be ruined. killed him.

From then on, Renata relaxed her mind and became friends with Asashio. Gradually, Asashio was not limited to only appearing in the cafeteria. She could come to Renata anytime and anywhere.Sometimes she would poke her head out from under the bed to scare Renata, and sometimes she would lie on top of the nurse when the nurse scolded Renata, poke the nurse's head hard, with a bad look on her face.The connection between her and Renata is one-sided, only she comes to find Renata, but Renata never finds her.

But she actually has beautiful long hair, which can cover her buttocks when she is sitting. It is very clean and slender, like girls who only appear in coloring books. They are usually princesses, earls, or someone living in Moscow. Miss.

The girl couldn't find a piece of intact skin all over her body. She looked like a severely burned patient, but in fact those were the scars left by the operation.It's hard to imagine that a child of this age would have so many scars on his body. Probably only the harsh punishment called hacking into pieces can describe this situation. The wounds vary in size from new to old. In the environment, the wound should have festered and infected and died, but the girl's wound is mostly scabbed, leaving a large red scar around it, which looks like a bloody person.

"I also know a lot about you, you are very famous." The girl sticks out her tongue, so many wounds, even if many of them are healing, she should still be in pain, but that face conveys intimacy Friendly and smart, she has a really cute smile.

Just when Renata was full of sadness, the girl suddenly opened her eyes, the dazzling gold almost blinding Renata's eyes, she covered her face and backed away in horror, feeling as if she had encountered some cold-blooded animal.

As one of the best, Khorkina is particularly outstanding. The nurses often find fault with her, take her out of the room in private, and abuse her with all kinds of things that hurt but leave few traces.For example, if the fishing line is very thin but hard, it will be locked tightly after being tied, and it will leave very thin blood-colored strangle marks on the body. As long as it is the thigh or shoulder, which is not very eye-catching and can be covered by clothes, you are not afraid of being caught by others. Discover.Another example is the red-hot needle, which is the best magical weapon for piercing people, because the marks it leaves are not even visible to the naked eye.

When Renata took a bath together, she accidentally discovered the secret of Khorkina being abused alone, and Khorkina also noticed her.Renata wanted to tell Dr. Herzog that the doctor took good care of the children and specially ordered that the abuse be prohibited.But Khorkina
Stops Renata and warns her not to tell anyone.

Renata asked why, and Khorkina said that you will understand in the future, this is the territory of those nurses, they will not be dismissed easily, even if you tell the professor to get them a temporary punishment, they will still be there Working here, in the future there will be opportunities to avenge you even more.These are at least tolerable now, but if you annoy them, it won't be so simple.

Khorkina's example taught Renata a lot about how to behave in Black Swan Harbor. She gradually became a thief, and she would act good when she appeared in front of people.In her opinion, beauty and cuteness are a kind of sin here, so she never thought about wearing better clothes and learning to make up. The girl now looks much worse than Khorkina, probably because she is more beautiful Bar.

(End of this chapter)