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Chapter 1812 No.429: The End of the Heart
Even though he acted indifferent in the face of Omar's suspicion, it did not prevent him from wasting time while waiting for the upcoming action.

The internal friction with a relatively long reaction arc finally reached the heart of this man who once considered himself a supporting role and did not want to be involved in the events of the protagonist.

You can't say he has forgotten his original intention, because he does often struggle with his attitude towards those invitations related to Omer.

I was troubled by my own behavior of "clearly making up my mind to face the reality, not getting involved in those dangers, not fantasizing about becoming the protagonist of a novel, but still agreeing to come as soon as Omar invited me."

Of course, he could rationalize his decision by saying, "This is just a response to my brother's invitation. What's the point of being the main character? I can get free tickets and travel expenses, so why don't you go?" But this rationalization cannot cover up all the security risks, the fact that there are crimes happening around us from time to time in this world, and monsters walking in front of our brothers from time to time.

——That’s indeed the case from his perspective.

Although the crime rate in the Jiemen District is quite low, and monster attacks on humans and cities are very rare, it's just that a certain brother is interested in this kind of thing and eats this mouthful of food, so he always runs to join in the fun and gets involved from time to time - he also knows this, but his physical summary is "Super cool! My daily life is just like a passerby in a special effects drama!"

You can also witness the classic special effects trope of super-fast infrastructure construction come true.

It's not like he can't think normally.

If you think about it normally, you will find that all this is thanks to the brothers he found himself.

As long as you stay with Omer Linton, there will be endless special effects to watch, such as Ultraman, monsters, Kiryu Battle Rabbit, Snake Monster, Carrot Man Team, and even Grid.

Umamusume and Arknights are just the icing on the cake, and you can also watch the signs of Shura Field being extinguished by the evil scheming harem man. It's too unfair. You should have been slow and innocent and dragged it out for seven or eight volumes, and then left the ending blank or ended it with them sleeping together... I watched Toilet Paper again and felt refreshed.

But it's not like seeing these is worth the price of admission even if you die.

Five months ago, he had come out of his "it was just like a dream" mental state with the help of his bionic girlfriend. He no longer lacked a sense of reality in life because of the overly dreamy and overly beautiful life in this world. He began to cherish the present and tried to live every day down to earth.

Logically speaking, I should keep a proper distance from my brothers.

The students of this class are all okay, except Omar and David, who really need to be distanced. It's time to realize that you are not the same kind of people as them, not of the same class, and not of the same world. Don't think that you can be on the same level as the serious mercenaries just because you can play with a magic wand...

But I still can't do it.

Bize is not Omer, and he cannot make a thorough and comprehensive analysis of his own psychology, but he is also very clear that he cannot use "How can I be alienated from my good friends!" to explain his own psychology.

It’s not that ideal. I have never been a pure person from the beginning.

It is better to say that selfish thoughts have always existed. I have always wanted to get close to those beings that only exist in fictional literature that I know of, and I want to make friends with them for self-satisfaction.

But isn’t it foolish to take risks for such an idea?
Especially since he already has a girlfriend. Buying her as a bionic person and signing a marriage contract means that he will have to shoulder everything about her together, which means he will have to take more responsibility for another person's life. He should be more mature and stable, so that he can live up to Zhuo Hua...

——He had also thought about this.

But the result was obvious: he failed to reproduce the determination of the young Omer.

Even he himself didn't know what kind of complicated attitude he had in his heart to maintain this intersection, but most of the time, he could convince himself that "my brother cares about me and won't let me get involved in anything too dangerous."

He really believes in his brothers' abilities, and this belief, combined with optimism, can help his mentality index get through unstable periods most of the time.

But it was different when Omar took the initiative to warn him to correct his attitude and pay attention to decision-making.

Even after the warning, the other party still put on a reassuring "I have a plan" as usual, trying to arrange a safe action plan for him, and he himself maintained his optimistic appearance.

When the conversation was over and he was waiting there alone, the rationality and instability that would inevitably increase when he was alone would break through the blockade of optimism.

He still believed in Omar, but he couldn't quite believe in himself.

Even though he already has someone who loves him, and even though he has accumulated some small achievements that he can be proud of, he never feels that he has any real outstanding strengths. He is even more aware that his previous persistence was actually a bit of blind pursuit.

Blindly pursuing goals like "saving the world" and "having a cool partner to help" are not only my childhood goals, but I still fantasize about them from time to time.

If it is called a dream, it has to be a pure yearning to be considered a dream, right?

I am not pure at all, and perhaps I can't even achieve the sense of synchronization with the fusion evolution of Balemon.X.

Is it really possible?
No, not to mention that far, can I really follow Omar's plan?
In fact, many times, when he watched the demon brother's deductions, it was like reading his mind.

As a person who doesn't like to watch mystery works and also thinks that his brain can't keep up with such works, in Bizer's eyes, Omar's reasoning is like making up a story, but the story is completely logical, but what exactly it is... he always holds a different opinion.

All realities should be very complicated, and people cannot be quantified, but these seem too firm and realistic in the brother's mouth. Even though the reality is always not far off, he always feels that it is very fairy-tale-like and taken for granted.

It's like a paradoxical truth that the result is right, but the process may be wrong, but it doesn't matter.

He also knew that this was probably because he did not have the ability to ask everything clearly, and he did not go to the bottom of every link to understand it, so he did not trust his brother's reasoning, and was more inclined to believe that "he could read minds" rather than "simple logical deduction".

Anyway, there is indeed mind reading in this world.

Whether it is source energy magic or brain wave reading technology, they are all things that I cannot understand.

There are too many black boxes that are incomprehensible, so you can only accept the fact that you can only perform fool-proof operations and learn little by little to directly use the technical products.

But now he was going to participate in his brother's magical deduction. Instead of the optimistic thought of "actual participation might help me better understand and comprehend some of my brother's ideas", he fell into the doubt of "what if my operation is not within my brother's prediction range?" and put on the too common and too ordinary "pre-anxiety" BUFF.

The anxiety that had been accumulating for a long time was triggered in this way, and he no longer had the demeanor of an alien cub. Everyone could see that he lacked confidence, so he didn't show it to anyone, not even to Zhuohua.

“Are you enjoying your moment of vulnerability?”

So when the mocking voice sounded, he inevitably trembled, almost cried out, and looked at his brother sitting on the sofa.

"You, when did you come?!"

"Just now," Omar said, raising his hand to display the PDF file on the terminal screen, "with the plan that gave everyone a headache."

"Everyone?" Bize subconsciously looked at the empty space next to the demon, thinking that more people saw his embarrassing reaction.

"Rudolf, Qianming, Ya...Holhaiya," Omer said, putting his five fingers together, and the light screen shrank and disappeared in an instant. "We need to brainstorm to piece together the unknown hidden dangers. After all, you always don't believe my reasoning."

"Uh... no, I mean mind reading is just..."

"Does thinking about mind reading directly expose my subconscious thoughts?"

"…Are you such a jerk? You helped me so much but I didn't believe you."

"Not really. I rarely explain my reasoning principles to others. I'm not a detective, so why should I rush to convince others?" The man who said he was not a detective sat on the sofa and made the most stereotypical detective gesture in Bize's impression, sticking his nose to the tip of his nose. "I just need everyone to believe in the results I present. Don't you believe this result?"

“…Believe it.” Bize’s voice was a little hoarse, but it was indeed what he really thought.

"Isn't that enough?" Omer put down his hands, leaned back on the sofa, and waved his hand again. Bize felt the vibration of his phone receiving a message.

"Why bother thinking about those things? Those are factors that people who make plans need to consider. Most of the time, humans don't need to be too particular about their breathing rhythm and walking pace."

"That's what I said..."

Seeing that his eyes were not directed towards his brother, Bize muttered softly.

"That's what you said, but you've already noticed your breathing and you're subconsciously taking it seriously. In fact, we're all the type who think too much, but you're very good at avoiding those things. As long as you avoid them, you don't need to take responsibility, and you can cynically turn those thoughts into a messy extension."

“…Yeah, it seems to have suddenly become clear.”

"But I'm not suggesting you confront it."

"what?"

"Keep running, Bize, be a running horse of thought. As long as you run faster than those things, you won't be caught up by troubles, and you can dig out those meaningless motives."

"Motive...how can it be considered meaningless..." To Bize, these words were simply a denial of Omer's actions.

It is obvious that this brother has always been very persistent in his motives.

"You're not a detective, and I'm not a detective, so the motive doesn't matter."

"Then the important thing is..." Bize felt that he had followed his train of thought, but he didn't have that bit of confidence.

So that strength is supplemented by brothers.

"The truth," said Omer.

"A lot of evidence depends on timing. Once you miss it, it's extremely difficult to find something similar again. Many times we can get a theory and realize the existence of a criminal who is not present, but there is almost no way to prove it."

"But we can add some facts found from other angles."

"what is that?"

"Your courage and those miscellaneous desires more than fifty minutes ago."

“That kind of thing…”

"That's not 'that kind of thing'. Desire is the core of what drives action. You can't expect all decisions to be based on some noble and pure motive. Rather, it is better to say that the premise of all actions is based on individual desire."

"That sounds really unkind. Do you talk to the horse girl like that?"

"Horse racing is an adult game, Mr. Bi. The job of a trainer should not be to hinder students from growing up, but to help them become adults smoothly."

"It sounds bitter."

"The fact that you can say such nonsense proves that you have forgotten the rhythm of breathing."

"Now that you mention it, I can't control myself anymore."

"If you can't control it, get out."