Glory of Infinite Reincarnation

Zheng Zha felt very sad.

He thought that even if he wasn't the strongest one in the team, he could at least secure the second position.And given time, he and Jiang Yu still can't tell who has the higher combat power.

But now, all the companions who are one period later than me have opened the second stage.The distance between two and three can be greater than expected - after learning that the main god divides the level of reincarnation by whether the gene lock is turned on or not.The importance of strengthening the exchange level is naturally placed under the level of gene lock opening.But at this moment, I was stuck in this critical position!
Gan!
The gene lock does not use rounding, and [-] cannot be regarded as three!
——Why am I stuck here?
He gritted his teeth secretly. The previously deduced technique based on the gravity bomb, which can use blood energy more effectively, could not make him feel better—he saw that Jiang Yu was sharing with others that she had activated the third-level gene lock experience.And a sentence mixed in the communication suddenly floated to his ears along the wind, and the sense of presence was very strong.

"...The key may be to follow my heart. When I jumped down, I finally realized that my heart just didn't want to be content with the status quo..."

It sounds reasonable.Indeed, Jiang Yu seemed to be really a guy who was restless with the status quo.If not, it would be impossible for him to distribute the T virus to everyone and take the lead in the return trip, so that 'returning to the previous world to dig resources' has become a traditional practice of the Zhongzhou team.And... recently, he did feel a little intimidated.

That feeling seems to have started when he was defaulted as the hidden captain.After gaining approval, Jiang Yu was still the first one to go straight to the situation as in the past.But when it comes to the consideration of the team as a whole, he is much more cautious-he will consider the role of each person when making plans, and will check the status of each person one by one when speaking, voting, and launching actions to ensure that No one feels left out.And the most notable performance is his embarrassing collegiate speaking skills.

——This is normal...Jiang Yu is only 19 years old.The blood is still not cold, whether it is a crisis or a responsibility, he dares to take it directly with a firm head.

——The responsibilities and responsibilities of the team leader really bound his nature.And the opportunity for him to open the third-order gene lock is to face up to his own nature and follow his heart.

——Then... what is my nature, my original heart?
The sad mood faded silently, replaced by confusion.Zheng Zha felt as if he had returned to the muddle before he arrived in the world of reincarnation.Indulging in self-indulgence, wandering around... Every day is the same as the previous day, a boring and corrupt life.The borderline of decay and depravity is just under his feet, and he has even taken half a step.

So... what changed all this?
Is it because of a life-and-death crisis? ——No, I didn't encounter much fear during the few hours in Resident Evil.Even the fright caused by the laser channel that almost killed him was quickly calmed down.

Is it because you met a new companion? ——No, Jiang Yu, Zhan Lan, Mou Gang... and Zhang Jie, although they are all very good people.But I have soaked in the social dye vat for too long, too long.To become a confidant, at least wait until the battlefield underground in Umbrella.

and so……

——It's Luo Li.

——Or to be more precise...it's the Luo Li in my heart.

Zheng Zha pursed his lips, he knew that the Sun Golden Sutra could revive the fresh dead.And the Black Book of the Dead can resurrect the dead who have been dead for a long time.One of these two books, you can get it by reaching out your hand.As for the other book, you only need to say hello to get started.And if he wanted to, then with these two books and the corresponding ritual materials, the possibility of returning to the real world and bringing back the real Luo Li...is not small.

Maybe I can't do it, but I should want to do it - if the one I really love is the Luo Li who died of cancer many years ago.

—But I never thought about it... Even if I thought about it, I didn't intend to do it.

— Ha... there's no point in deceiving yourself.If what I love is really the former Luo Li.Then, when the Lord God extracted her from my memory, what I saw should be her who had lost her hair due to chemotherapy, was pale and weak, and was as thin as a stick of dry wood.

The answer is no.

The Luo Li I created was Luo Li who had never suffered from cancer from the very beginning.It was Luo Li, who perfectly matched all my fantasies about my first love, and who loved me as deeply as I had imagined—it's been ten years!I have changed from 16 years old to 26 years old. The changes in body shape, appearance and temperament are basically the same as before.If what she created was really the original Luo Li, how could she let a stranger who was only similar to her childhood sweetheart be hugged to bed without any resistance?
There is only one answer, that is, she was not her from the beginning, but was set up by her own subconscious mind, and she loved this perfect creation of her own now.The person I have been thinking about is just a phantom in a dream, the same as that childhood sweetheart who died ten years ago... only the appearance is the same.

Going deep into one's own heart is not an easy and pleasant thing. The most difficult thing for a person to do is to admit one's mistakes and inferiority - when Zheng Zha clearly recognized this.He felt as if a stone had been pressed against his heart, and there were bursts of tingling pain as if being pricked by many fine needles.

It felt like a betrayal of something... and a tearing apart.The old smile had long been blurred in his memory, but when he penetrated deep into his heart, he reached the deepest part of his memory.However, he was shocked to find that the Luo Li who was still alive ten years ago and the Luo Li beside him were not even in harmony with each other in appearance.

The legs should be shorter, the chest should be flatter, the curves are not so soft, the skin should be a little rougher and the color tone is not as bright as that of the person next to me - there is no doubt that after ten years of dream completion, I Among them, many additional parameters that are different from the real Luo Li, but in line with his own aesthetics and preferences have been added.Perhaps, bringing this Luo Li back to ten years ago, there won't even be a twin-level confrontation between her and the real product.

Zheng Zha realized that he had done a right thing—the right thing was that when he returned to reality, he didn't bring Luo Li, the creator, with him.

In his original plan, besides introducing Luo Li to his parents, he would also take Luo Li to visit the elderly couple whose daughter died of illness ten years ago—he thought that this might give the two Family friends bring some solace.It's fine to find any reason, at least it can relieve them a little bit of the pain of losing a daughter in their hearts.

Good thing he didn't do that.

Fortunately, because of the actions of Chu Xuan and Cheng Xiao, he didn't regard that return as a honeymoon vacation.Instead, it was regarded as a difficult business trip that needed to be dealt with carefully - he didn't bring Luo Li with him, and he didn't say much.He just quickly completed the reserved transaction, and then withdrew and returned to the world of reincarnation.

——I almost sprinkled a handful of salt on the wounds of a pair of parents who might have barely survived the pain of losing their daughter.

—what would they think?Out of my nerves, I worked hard to find a substitute for Luo Li.And then force them to admit that it was their dead daughter and let them relive the grief in their memories?
—Will they hate me?

Zheng Zha's thoughts turned, and then he shook his head silently in his heart.

——No, Uncle Luo and the others will not hate me.They just pity me.In their eyes, I have gone crazy for Luo Li.And they will feel even more pity for Luo Li beside me, because in their view, she will be a sad person who loves me so much, willing to give up everything in her past, and even undergo plastic surgery, just to become my imaginary first love .

——They won't expose it...they will only hold the psychology of compensation and guilt.Take care of Luo Li as her own daughter.However, the longer we get along, the more pain there will be.What I bring to them is nothing but torture.

The heart was beating violently, and more pain overflowed.Negative emotions of self-hate and loathing gather like an ocean, turning into a dark vortex in the depths of the soul.

——So... It wasn't because of Luo Li's arrival that I raised my fighting spirit again.

——What makes me desperate is the disgust and gradual integration of the rotten life like mud.What makes me courageous is the realization of the dream in my heart and the redemption brought about.

——I... long for that ray of light that pours into the depths of hell.

--or……

A pitch-black vortex was right in front of him, and what formed the vortex was an endless sea of ​​hatred.It is piled up by a person's heart, and its amount is very small but it may also be very large.

Then, take a step forward.

—or, that fire that consumes hell!

Zheng Zha's will fell into a dark vortex.

And the next moment, the entire black ocean was ablaze with pitch-black flames!

..............................

Zheng Zha's line of sight returned from divergence to concentration.The change in the mind does not take a few seconds in reality.

Jiang Yu has finished talking about his experience and is now discussing the next move.

"Seth is undoubtedly the last opponent we will face." Jiang Yu said, and then the topic changed. "Then, Geb, the god of the earth, and Nut, the god of the sky. They are the targets we must deal with next... Considering the effectiveness of nuclear bomb blasts, it is not a big problem to follow suit. But I think maybe we can take something a little more aggressive."

He turned his head and looked at Zheng Zha.

"Zheng Zha, do you have any ideas?"

He just used his vocal chords to speak normally.

However, in Zheng Zha's field of vision, "soon after" Jiang Yu has already given the corresponding answer.

——If I were Jiang Yu... what would I say when I was here?
The voice of reply became clear.And then, simply repeat it.

"They are two, and we are two."

Zheng Zha pointed to Jiang Yu, and then to himself.

"The two of us and the two of them, one-on-one."

Not surprisingly, he saw the astonishment in Jiang Yu's eyes—even though Jiang Yu's helmet was covering his face.